Little Infinities

(Note: I just finished reading the last chapters of “Shigatsu Wa Kimi No Uso” a while ago. I absolutely love the anime and how they ended it. However, I cannot decide whether it’s a happy ending or not because, well, you’ll know when you watch the anime or read the manga for yourself. I highly recommend it!)

I’ve probably said this a thousand times before, but we can never know what happens in our life. No matter how hard we try to plan everything as detailed as we can, we can never actually predict what it has in store for us. I guess that’s one of the thrilling parts in life, for better or for worse. Yes, being able to know what lies ahead can be very tempting, but then you’d be experiencing some kind of paranoia trying to prevent bad things from happening and the happy surprises turn out to be unappreciated and taken for granted. We can only hope and try our hardest to do our best in the time we can control, the present.

Same goes for death. No one knows when they will die and no one can escape death either. Really, I think everyone’s afraid of dying because they feel like they haven’t lived life to the fullest yet, haven’t reached their dreams, haven’t let go of materialistic things, and the like. Tell me, if you knew you are going to die tomorrow, wouldn’t you live today to its utter most potential? Then, with the uncertainty of the future, why don’t you consider that possibility and live your life to the fullest right now?

You know what, screw society’s standards! Screw expectations from people trying to control your life! Screw that box you’ve been trapping yourself into made of self-pity, insecurities, and regrets! Why do you have to wait for your deadline to do the things you’ve always wanted to do?

Now, my original point for this post is actually this: You don’t need forever to attain true and fullest happiness. Some people live more in 20 years than those people who live up to 60 years. Everyone dies somehow, somewhere, someday, and that’s just the truth about life. Make your life worth living, worth looking back on.

She died, yes, but she did something so great, so memorable. Truth is, not many people might remember her, but those lives she has touched will never be the same again. She brought color into his world and she is a person he will never forget.

He died wanting to be recognized by many, but only mourned by a few. He didn’t die a hero’s death nor a celebrities’. But he loved her and she loved him; a love that only lasted for a short time, but will live in her heart forever.

Yes, they died, but was their ending really a tragedy? or was it a happy one because, during their brief lives, they did something to spark someone back to life?

Make your life count. Do the things you want to do, not necessarily what others want you to do. You only have one life. Live.



The First Week of the Last Year

I am now in my fourth and last year of high school. This week was pretty stressful because of all the requirements and some assignments. I haven’t been posting on my Facebook pages or blogging here because I’m trying not to procrastinate much this year. This is my very last year of high school and I don’t want to screw it up. I really want to be awarded during recognition and graduation day. Graduation day!! Oh my gods, it’s like yesterday, I was this innocent girl crying because she misses her old school and friends. Now, well honestly speaking, I’m still me, just a bit more knowledgeable, more experienced, less innocent, and straighter hair. I haven’t really grown that much since first year, mostly because of lack of sleep.

But anyways, this week was alright. As of now, I like all my teachers. They seem sort of nice and they teach well. My classmates are okay, too. I have lunch with a few friends from my previous section or, sometimes, the section before that. My class schedule isn’t bad; It’s actually rather a good schedule. Basically, as people would say: 

Moving on to other things; I don’t think I’m over banana boy just yet. I really don’t know why. Whenever I see him, I just get this ridiculous adrenaline and rush away. Honestly, I’ve been trying to avoid him as much as possible because I can’t handle it. He’s been very nice and understanding about me having a crush on him last year, but he (let me rephrase this with “people who know a lot about him”) made it pretty clear that he likes (or maybe even loves) another girl and that he’s really really dedicated to her. In other words, in the end, I’m going to be the one to end up hurt if I don’t stop this right now. Maybe it’s because I just miss him and his familiarity to me? Maybe I just miss the sound of his voice when it breaks, his intelligence about history, and other stuff I liked about him. Okay, it’s over and I think the reason why I can’t say “hi” to him is that because we never actually did say “hi” to each other in a regular basis even before. I’m sure I’ll get over this sometime soon.

I’m also doing this “Weekend Bucketlist” thing where I list stuff I want to try during the weekends on the back of my notebook and try them. It’s mostly composed of music and movies this week. I’m hoping that it would make weekends more fun and less boring since I can try a lot of new stuff. 

The college exam is two months away. I need to continue studying during weekends and not screw up. I cannot screw this up. I. Just. Can’t. 

And, lastly, I watched “The Fault in Our Stars” movie today with my classmates last year and it was okay. As someone said to me, there isn’t any perfect adaptations, so given the circumstances, I think the movie was pretty close to the book. During the movie, I just kept remembering referenced to banana boy and ugh. I know we’re different. I know he likes someone else. Why do I still have this kind of feelings towards him? Nevermind. 

That pretty much sums up my week. See how many times I used the word “pretty”. I just don’t know what other adjective to use. 




5 Reasons Why Logan Wade Lerman Should Play Augustus in “The Fault in Our Stars”

For the record, I have never been so interested in the casting of a movie until now. I’ve read the amazing book and it was phenomenal. I’m not exaggerating here at all. I fell in love with Augustus and got a realistic view of the world in Hazel’s point of view. I’ve actually been re-reading it for the past couple of days and it’s still awesome. It’s a wonderful book because it shows the reality of the world and those that have cancer (except Phlanxifor, because it doesn’t exist.. yet) and two cancer patients that fall in love with each other and are courageous and strong enough to continue their journey.

Who is Augustus Waters? Well, he is this hot 17-year-old dark haired boy with blue eyes that only has 1.4 legs due to Osteosarcoma. He sticks a cigarette in his mouth as a metaphor that, and I quote “you put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you don’t give it the power to do its killing”. He’s sweet and very romantic. Exhibit A: He calls Hazel “Hazel Grace” which is like, sweet. Exhibit B: He gave, well shared, his wish with Hazel and they went to Amsterdam. I personally love the way he responds to the question “How are you feeling” with “Oh, I’m grand”. I really fell in love with this character as the book progressed. Until, well, u-until he died. And I was sorta hoping for a more dramatic death where Hazel’s with him. But, it didn’t go that way. She wasn’t there and it only said “8 days after the prefuneral, Augustus died”. How cruel is that? The character that you fell for died so fast. Well, I couldn’t blame the author because, even though I didn’t get to witness Augustus death, the book was still fantastic.

So, the dilemma we have here today is that I really want Logan  Lerman to play the role of “Augustus Waters”. I honestly imagined him doing the role as I read the book. I mean, he has the looks and he’s an amazing actor. I think he proved that with his role of “Charlie” in “Perks of Being A Wallflower” and his role of “Percy” in “Percy Jackson and the Lighting Thief”. He’s perfect for the role. I’ve been commenting in everything that popped out in Google when I searched “who’s going to play Augustus Waters” as “something” since I didn’t want to put my real name.

I’m literally dying of curiosity for the future. I’m editing it right now because I forgot to actually include 10 reasons, so here it is:

1. He fits the description of the physical characteristics of Gus perfectly (well, except having 1.4 legs).

Logan Wade Lerman

2. He’s an amazing actor. (Ctrl+F “reviews”)


3. A lot of people, including myself, imagined him as Augustus while reading the book and think he’s perfect for the role.


4. He seems Augustinian (in my opinion).

I’ve watched his movies, tv shows, interviews, and the like. He looks like a genuine person that has Gus’ attitude.


5. He’s perfect.

My friend said that “Augustus is way too perfect for me” when I told her I was in love with the character. I told her “He’s too perfect for this world, that’s why he doesn’t exist”. But, he can, in the movie. Logan is seriously 101% perfect for the role.

I know some of my reasons aren’t that legitimate, but hey, this is my blog and those are my reasons.