Flash Post 015: Summer Rant

Summer isn’t exactly going the way I planned. But then again, what does?

Summer term classes are alright. It’s a bit challenging for me because of the mindset that it’s supposed to be SUMMER. I end up spending more time watching Korean drama or movies,  sleeping way to early, and waking up WAY to late. The bed seems more appealing than usual, even though I’m not all that tired. It’s not like I’ve cut class or anything, I was just almost late ONCE. But it’s still unusual because I usually wake up at least two hours before my first class. NOT 45 minutes.

Besides school, I’m still experiencing a terrible case of writer’s block. It’s been 19 days since I last posted an entry in this blog and I’m really inactive in my Wattpad account. And it’s just really sad. It’s summer and I love writing, so why can’t I write? I need to learn more about how to write better and to actually write.

I still haven’t loss any weight. Due to my schedule, I can’t go to the gym, so I need properly stick to my diet and to get more exercise. I don’t exactly know how to do that, yet. But I want to skate and to be able to do that right, I need to be healthier and more fit.

And it’s just a bit saddening to still be me while other people are evolving and doing great in life. Just a thought.

(Note: So summer’s kinda sad, right now, but it’s gonna be alright and I’m alright. I’ll make sure my next post is a lot more positive and decent than this haha.)

 

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Puzzles

Have you ever just let yourself laze around with feeling only a slight tinge of guilt? Well that’s basically what I’ve been doing since last Thursday, right after I pass my final requirement for last semester. I’ve gotten my grades for all but one class, but I know my grade in that class, anyway. So, I’ve passed 6 out of my 8 classes last semester (well, 4/6 if you don’t count PE and community service) and, honestly, that’s better than the worst case scenario I had in mind. I’m sad that I didn’t pass all of them, but I really had a hard time this semester, especially with those two classes, so I’ve accepted it already and I’m just gonna have to take them again.

So, I’ve done nothing “productive”, in particular this past weekend. I’ve been trying to install a game that I’ve wanted to play for such a long time. But for some reason, it wouldn’t work, so I’ve given up on it. I’m a bit pissed cos I really wanted to play it, but life goes on and I need to work on mine. YES, I’m writing this post cause’ I can’t play the game. NO, I won’t be trying to install the game again. YES, my several failed attempts to install the game served as a wake up call for me to get my shit together, even though it’s technically summer.

What am I planning to do this summer? I don’t really know, yet. I guess I’d want to try going on a diet, again, to lose weight. Exercise a bit. Try becoming more of an adult cause’ I’m almost not a teenager. Write as much as I can, both in this blog and in my Wattpad account. Learn new skills, both practical and not-so-practical. Paint more and try digital art. And spend time with my family and friends.

Why am I writing all that down here? It’s my blog. It’s been my blog for five years and counting. And I just need to get my act together, so I’m writing it all down. Here.

So, I guess that’s that. Hopefully, I’ll be able to write again this week. I’m probably going to post “My Favorite Things 003” soon, so stay tuned. Or not. HAHAHA.

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

(Note: The title of this post is “Puzzles” cos it’s better than my initial idea, “Sh*t Gathering”, and I just think that I need to put the myself back together again. NOT GOING THROUGH ANYTHING. JUST ONE HUGE MESS OF A HUMAN BEING. BUT EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT.)

Also, a sneak peek of my next post (aka what I’ve been doing with my summer, so far)

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Figuring Stuff Out

It’s already the 12th of July and I’m quite enjoying what’s left of my summer. I’m not really ready to get back to college yet, but it’s getting there, I think. I just need to look at things in a positive way and to NEVER repeat the horrible performance I made last semester. I BARELY MADE IT OUT ALIVE!

Anyways, I’m currently writing some sort of book in Wattpad. It’s more like a compilation of one shot stories that I decide to write and actually publish. It’s one shots because I haven’t made a decent novel and I don’t really know if I’m capable to do so. Ah, but I’d love it if you’d take the time to read what I’ve written there. The title is How About Love? and my username there is YuriMiYuki Kame. So you should go check it out!

Also, I’ve made a Deviantart account last April, but I’m only posting some stuff now. I’m mostly into painting and traditional art. I don’t have a digital tablet and I don’t have those art softwares, so I’m sticking with traditional, for now. My username there is YuriMiYuki Kame! Check it out sometime! Oh and my friend, who’s taking up BS Animation, is really great and you should check out his works, too! His username there is Lomirina! He’s more into digital stuff, but he’s really good with traditional art!

So, this post has been nothing but promotion of what I’m working out at the moment haha. Well, I’d really appreciate it if you could drop by any of those sites! And if you’re interested in becoming a writer and/or an artist, you should make a Wattpad/Deviantart account! Leave me a comment/note/request when you drop by! Actually feel free to comment in this post, too, if you have any story/art requests! I’d be delighted to try to do them haha.

P.S. It’s been a month since my birthday! I’m officially 18 years and a month old!

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A Summer-y Summer Feeling

I’ve accepted the fact that I only have A MONTH (a month and a day, to be exact) of summer before college resumes. There’s nothing I can do about it and I’m done being depressed over that fact. And I shouldn’t think of going back to college like it’s the end of the world! Sure, even after a year, I’m still not quite used to it and it’s not going as smoothly as I thought it would (please refer to previous posts basically screaming “HELP!!”), but college isn’t supposed to be easy anyway. It’s supposed to give us a glimpse of the real world and to mold us into strong and smart individuals that are ready to take the world by storm, or at least survive it. I was barely holding on last quarter (and thankfully I made it! aka I didn’t fail anything!), so I need to get myself together and do better next year.

Moving on. I’m also done lying down on my bed, half the day, watching Descendants of The Sun (GREAT KDRAMA BY THE WAY!) and the other half of it feeling sorry for myself because I didn’t do anything worthwhile or productive in anyway. It’s like that time- the day before second sem started- when I had watched (and almost finished) an entire anime (Golden Time- consisting of 24 episodes.. I finished 22) within a day cause’ it was the only thing I did.. THAT WHOLE DAY! I thought I’d feel amazing afterwards, but no. In the end, I just felt that I wasted my last day of Christmas/Semester Break.

So, I made a SUMMER BUCKETLIST! It composes of stuff I want to do before summer ends. I won’t list all of them here, but it includes: going swimming, hanging out with my friends, and finishing Descendants of The Sun (I’M ALREADY IN EPISODE 14. WHY STOP NOW!?!?!). I think by doing all of the stuff I’ve written there, it’d help me spend my last month of vacation WITH NO REGRETS.

I’ll definitely post more stuff here over my last month of summer break. I’ll try posting on my other wordpress blog, too. I really hope I can do all those stuff!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

How To Have a Fun Summer?

I honestly don’t know how I can make this summer of mine fun enough for me not to regret anything when school starts this August. It’s really frustrating because I’ve got time in my hands, but I don’t know how to spend it wisely.

So, I downloaded all the seasons of Hannah Montana, Sonny With A Chance, and iCarly in the hopes of making the most out of this summer. I loved this shows and I didn’t think I’d get to watch them again after they got cancelled. I was thrilled when I started watching, at first, but now I think it’s a bit childish of me to be going back to the good old days (aka my childhood days) by watching these shows. Sure, they were so popular before and almost everyone was caught up in all the episodes, but I’m already 18 years old and most of the people I know are off travelling or doing amazing things. It kinda makes me feel kinda low about myself. An 18 year old girl who’s stuck at home watching some shows that used to be popular about people who had actual lives. That’s really sad.

Now I don’t even know how I’m going to make the rest of my summer legendary. I do not want to go back to college regretting the things I spent my time on during summer. I want to be able to look back at all of this and think “Hey I got a pretty wicked summer. I’m so ready to resume college and feel the hype of knowledge…” or something like that!

And I don’t even want to talk about anime. Fine, I thought I’d be super happy with all the time I have to watch my new anime and re-watch my favorites, but I’m not. I don’t know. I just started thinking that anime might not be for me anymore cause’ I’m already 18 years old and I should be doing something better with my life. Not that anime is a bad thing. Heck no. But maybe rather than spending all of my time lying down on the bed and hooked into some anime, I could be out there in the real world gaining new experiences and new knowledge. Of course I’d still spend a few hours (3 hours max) to watch anime, but I can’t let myself prevent me from doing something with my life, productive things.

I’m kind of brainstorming for business ideas because my dad is encouraging me to accustom myself more in the business world and to sharpen my sales skills. I’ve got a few good ideas, but I have yet to make an actual step towards it.

I’m -insert real name here- and I’m going to make this summer productive and awesome.

Hopefully, I’ll be able to write more updates about my business endeavors and my adventures to come here!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

 

Growing Up

Okay, as I’m writing this, I’m 18 years and 5 days old. I guess I’m still pretty young, but gone are my childhood days, my awkward high school years, and my first year in college. Most would see me as a young adult, so I’ve got no excuses for slacking off, for forgetting my responsibilities, and for being clumsy. Does it work that way? I don’t really know. But I guess, I should at least try to convince myself that so I wouldn’t be the same as who I was before turning 18. I can’t change into someone super mature though, but since I want to be the kind of woman who’s got it all together, who’s smart, independent, and reliable, and who’s capable of really chasing after her dreams.

I’m still the same me though. It’s summer, so I’m currently watching Japanese dramas. Yes, I’m growing up, but can’t a grown ups enjoy themselves? I’m not doing anything illegal. I’m not out drinking. I don’t do drugs. I don’t smoke anything. And I don’t think I’ve seen a movie that’s R-rather or NC-17 (I had to research movie ratings for this haha) unless probably it’s horror or violence. I swear a bit though, but I’m trying not to. Well, point is, I’m watching anime and Japanese drama during my summer. I don’t think anything should be wrong with that.

Though I say that, I should also be thinking about my future now more than ever. My dad says I should find something I want to sell and try selling it, something I love. He says it would develop my sales skills and probably my networking, communication, and people skills, too. At first, I told him I’d sell pizza, but then I took it back because I love it too much, I wouldn’t probably be able to sell that many. I’d be eating them haha. But I guess he’s got a point. Someday, I’d be thrown into that big jungle called The Real World, so I’ve got to prepare myself.

I don’t completely know how I’m going to actually do it- to become the woman that I want to be, but I guess if I keep trying, even to the point of faking it sometimes, I might just reach it someday. Like putting up a facade, except it’s not to deceive people into thinking I’m any better than they are, rather it’s because of my selfishness, I guess, because I don’t want them to see me as a weak and terrible person. Does that make sense? Well, I hope it does and, in any case, I’ll try to keep up that facade until I get better and better.

Maybe that’s just life. Maybe this is how it is with humans. I don’t think anyone would want to let others see them as weak or terrible. Maybe it’s just how we endure what we’re going through until we eventually get through it. Ah, I hope I become the kind of person who knows how to help people get through what they’re going through, to touch lives and to help others. Of all the traits I want to have when I grow up, I guess that’s the one I want to have the most. It’s another selfish desire of mine because I believe that if a person if able to make other people happy, even the ones they don’t know, that person will be the happiest. I hope I can be the happiest someday.

Till’ next time ❤

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

Summer: The Reality

Okay, so it’s been a week and four days since my summer started and I haven’t done anything yet! I thought by now I’d have finished at least a book and 2-3 anime. I thought I would’ve started brain storming some concrete ideas for my new story. I thought I’d have more progress with going to gym, my diet, and losing weight.

But no.

Although I did start going to gym last Monday, I don’t think I’ve lost weight yet. I can’t stick to my diet, cause’ before and after gym, I’m to hungry for real food (I’m not over-eating tho, I think). I’ve made a new Wattpad account to get me started on the story writing thing. And I’ve posted one picture in my Deviantart account (eyes hihi). Oh also, I’m preparing for my birthday celebration which is happening really soon!

It’s not that bad of a progress, but I could do so much more with my summer vacation and I certainly do not want to go back to school in August regretting- no- I want to go back there thinking that I had a great summer and it’s time to get back to work!

So, yeah, a week and four days into summer and I can do more.

 

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