What have I done with my life, so far?

I can’t help but question myself whenever I see people, that I know, travelling, chasing after their dreams, doing something for the betterment of others, and what not. I am in awe of them because they’re off doing amazing things. They’re wonderful, really, and I want to be like that, too- wonderful.

How can I actually improve myself?

Awareness and acceptance is the first step to self-improvement, I think. I also need a very legit reason to do so, something I can hold onto when things get difficult. See, it’s not only physical appearance I’m talking about, but also my attitude towards people and things, such as academics.

What comes after that? The hard part- the execution. It’s really not easy to change oneself, especially when you’re as stubborn, indecisive, and forgetful as me. I’m awful, really. And sometimes, I think of myself as a hypocrite- how can I be writing about big things while I’m still a work in progress? I’ll just leave that unanswered because I don’t know how to.

I’m going to have to face a lot of obstacles on my way to improving myself, most of which will be the obstacles that I myself have set before me- self-doubt, insecurity, selfishness, and the like. But somehow, hopefully, I’ll get by.

Why would I go to such measures just to improve myself?

Why? Well, simply because I’m not satisfied with who I am right now. I dislike who I am as a person and how I’m living my life. I want to do better. I know I can.

I want to get out of my comfort zone. I want to make new friends. I want to help other people. I want to explore new places. I want to try new things (legal, of course). I want to make a difference. I want to be passionate about something. I want to publish books. I want to spend time with my family and friends. AND SO MUCH MORE!

And I feel that the me right now won’t be able to do all those things.



Gods, I just want this semester to end. Please. I don’t know how I’m going to survive and I don’t know how I can make my grades survive with me, but I need to manage to do that somehow.

And this post looks like I’m talking to myself or whatever. I hope at least one of you readers could relate and I hope this post helped you somehow cos it really looks like I’m talking to myself and that’s just sad, really.)







It seems normal to want to know more about you,

The things that you like, why you do the things that you do,

Somehow, I would like to become closer to you,

It’d be great if you’d wonder about me, too.



From your favorite things, to the things that you hate,

From your choice of coffee, to early morning thoughts,

The reasons why you wake up and why you sleep late,

The things that make you happy, things that make you cross.



Only a few of the questions I want answered,

Some things I would probably never confess,

I wish to comfort your cries, to hear your laughter,

But, for now, these thoughts- words that I cannot express.

(Note: I really think that intimacy is more on revealing oneself to someone else because that would make him/her vulnerable to that person. And I think it would really be an honor to be trusted by someone that much. Especially, if I were to be trusted to such a high degree by the person who I was thinking about while writing this poem.)


A Liebster Award Nomination


I really didn’t know that this thing existed until I was nominated, and for that, I am extremely grateful to Phoebe. I’m really honored to be nominated for the Liebster Award. It makes me really happy to know that people are actually reading my blog and can relate or are comfortable with it. I’ll take this opportunity to thank all my followers and people who don’t follow me but read my posts. Without you, your words of comfort and understanding, and your support, I don’t think I’d be writing as good or as frequent as I do, so thank you so much!

Okay, so here are the rules:

  • Link back to the person who nominated you
  • Answer the questions given by the nominator
  • Nominate new bloggers [with less than 200 followers]
  • Come up with 11 questions for your nominated bloggers to answer
  • Notify your nominees

And here are my answers to the questions given by Phoebe to the people she nominated:

Single-stroke or Cursive?

I prefer writing in cursive because I write faster and kinda neater when I write cursive, compared to single-stroke.

Are you brave enough to watch a horror film alone or do you prefer watching it with someone?

Honestly, while watching a horror film at home, I usually fall asleep at some part, then just wake up at the end. I really don’t know why. But I am a scaredy cat and I think watching it with someone/some friends is more fun- screaming, teasing, and everything else.

Does the scent of old books bother you?

If something’s too dusty, I don’t tend to pick it up, but if it’s just the old book smell, then it doesn’t bother me. I actually like sniffing books.. hahaha :))

What about the scent of rain? Do you dislike it?

I like the scent of rain. It brings some sort of familiarity and comfort to me. It like brings me back to my childhood days.

What musical instrument you wish you learned to play?

I definitely wish that I knew how to play the piano! Mainly because of an anime that recently finished titled “Shigatsu Wa Kimi No Uso” that has a main protagonist who’s a piano prodigy. And I want to be able to express my thoughts and feelings through music. It just amazes me.

Film that you’ll never get over with?

Hmmm.. I honestly don’t know which film I won’t ever get over with cause’ the hype of a film, for me, can only last for so long, then I forget all about it. I guess I’d say “The Amazing Spiderman” only because whenever I watch the part where Uncle Ben dies, I cry. Always.

When watching a movie with family or friends, do you do your best not to cry or do you just let the tears flow?

I actually don’t think I can hold my tears when watching a really emotional, inspiring, or feels-y movie or part of a movie. And I really don’t mind if they catch me tearing up a bit of full-on crying, so I just let the tears flow.

What kind of video games do you play in your childhood days?

Unlike most kids, I didn’t have a “Game Boy”, Nintendo DSi, “Playstation Portable” and the like, so I was never into those Pokemon games and such. My uncle had an edition of Playstation before, so when I visited his place, I played “Tekken” and “Grand Theft Auto”

Fictional Character you wish you could spend time with?

Oh my.. hahaha.. :)) I literally have a lot of fictional characters that I would love to spend time with, most especially cute and hot anime guys.. hihi

But if I were to choose only one, I guess I’d pick Ayuzawa Misaki from “Kaichou Wa Maid Sama” because she’s such a strong and independent person. She takes charge of the situation and gives her best to everything she does. She’s also quite nice and friendly. I picked her not only cause’ her attitude and personality might rub off on me, but also because I think we’d have a pretty good time conversing with one another.

What’s your favorite weather?

Assuming that I’m comfortably located in my house, I’d pick a cold weather, like a cold rainy day or a day during winter. That would be such a good time to read a nice book and drink hot chocolate..

If you could dye your hair, what color would you choose?

I love the color blue, so if I were ever to color my hair, I’d color it shades of blue.

Okay, I honestly don’t know much people in this blogging world. but I’ll try to nominate a few.

I’m not sure whether or not these guys have less than 200 followers, so I apologize if I’ve been mistaken. And these are blogs that a.) belong to someone I know, b.) post stuff I like, or c.) both. In any way, I suggest you read their blogs!

Lastly, here are my questions for those whom I’ve nominated:

1. If you could go to anywhere in the world, where would it be and why?

2. What songs do you like listening to when you’re sad?

3. If you were to live in someone else’s shoes for a week, who would it be and why [Famous people, celebrities, or such]?

4. What’s your favorite flavor of ice cream?

5. Why did you create a blog?

6. If you were to have a superpower, what would it be and why?

7. If you could live in a fictional universe forever, which universe would it be and why?

8. To love or to be loved?

9. If you meet yourself, would you like that person?

10. If you could travel through time and space, where and when would you go? Why?

11. If you could own everything inside one huge branch of a store, what store would it be and why [EXAMPLE: I love fashion, so I’d choose a branch of Forever 21]

So, it’s up to all of the people I nominate whether or not they accept my nomination. I sure hope they do, but in any case, you should check out their blogs whenever convenient.

And thank you again to all of you, especially to Phoebe. You should totally check her blog out, too!

Part 3 of Questions About Love

My friend asked me this question and although it’s only one question, I’d answer it immediately since, yeah, she’s an awesome friend. 

What if you don’t come across properly to the person? I mean you can’t convey your exact emotion or feelings to the person? Would it dishearten you? -Songbird

A: I would typically say, communication is the key to correct understanding, but it would be hard to directly state it. If you’ve got guts, why not. But if you don’t, then, at least be there for him/her and be friendly, I think it’s always the first step to any positive relationship to another person. 

Haha.. sorry if it didn’t help much :))


Learning When and How To Move On (Questions about “Love”)

This post is dedicated to everyone who had their heart broken because of several reasons like..

1. Crush doesn’t like you back or Hopeless Cause;

2. Friendzoned;

3. Crush doesn’t know you;

4. Broke up with Boyfriend; and

5. The “I-just-wanted-to-read-another-one-of-your-posts” people.


Just to clarify, I’m not really heartbroken, emo, or something. It’s just that I hate seeing people, especially my friends, crying because of these sort of things. Being a teenagers is kinda hard and sorts but we’re still young and people say that we usually find who we are during these years so.. TEEHEE!

Question No. 1: What would you do if you feel that your crush also has a crush on you but neither of you would admit it to the other? How would you escape or end that muteness? – BUSH
A: Well.. that quite a tough situation since if you’d be the first to admit and he/she denies it, you may be known as a “feeler”. On the other hand. if you don’t say anything about it, he/she might say that you’re “insensitive”. In my opinion, you should have enough guts to do something about it. It’s either you wait and keep being observant of him/her or you gather all your courage and speak up. 
Question #2: What’s your say about BROMANCE, SISMANCE, and, ROMANCE? -X44
A: Bromance is quite natural, really. When dudes hug, it doesn’t suddenly mean their dating, it means their bros and that’s alright. Unless, some dude’s actually in love with his co-dude, in that case, I respect you, dude. I’ve got nothing against that. It’s a natural thing to love someone. It goes the same to Sismance. Romance is when two (or more?) people love and care for each other. It’s not really synonymous to “love” but it’s something like that, I guess.
Question #3: Why is there “love at first sight” when there’s “love is blind”? -iDevilous
A: First of all, those two are about two different things. The first one is about falling in love at the first glimpse of a person. I don’t really believe in that since I believe that you should get to know the person before you fall in love. And technically, you shouldn’t “fall” in love because everything that falls, breaks (-Taylor Swift). The second one refers to the thought that no matter what your size is, how your hair looks like, your age, your face, etc, the person that loves you wouldn’t care, he/she would still love you for you. Now, that I believe in since the person you love should love you, not the way you look since that changes through time. 
Question #4: How could “love” affect one’s personality? -cx1727
A: It actually depends. Love could produce either good, bad or good and bad things. Assuming that it’s a love wherein two people love each other, it would make both of the people be inspired and feel loved. They’d feel more confident and giddy. But, if sadly, it’s the unrequited love type or something like that, it would make the person who’s loving more desperate, obssessed, sad, hopeless, etc.
Question #5: What would you do if your crush has a crush on you? -Anonymous

A: Haha. I’d love to be in that situation. It also depends, whether you want it or not. Most people would say that they want it but some would think it’s quite awkward. My general advice for everyone is to follow your heart, but take your brain with you. 🙂


Alright, I guess this is where I end my first post about this. But, if someone would want to ask more about it, comment below or something. 

*Questions are from real people*





Sorry if my advice didn’t help that much. :\