Flash Post 041: FrIEday

I have to take a removals exam this Friday for a class I didn’t quite pass (nor fail) last last semester (basically the second semester of my third year). It’s a pass or fail exam – If I pass/fail the exam, I pass/fail the class. When I had learned I had to take the removals exam, I kind of told myself that I’d progressively study for it, but here I am cramming for the exam a few days before, once again.

I find the need to write because I feel super stressed out about it (which could have been avoided, just saying) and I don’t think I can study properly with this kind of mindset. Honestly, the mindset I have right now is the mindset of someone who has already failed an exam she hasn’t even taken yet, who has lost a battle she hasn’t even fought. AND I CANNOT HAVE THAT KIND OF MINDSET, ESPECIALLY RIGHT NOW.

If you’ve been reading my posts (which I don’t really expect you to do), you’d know that I made a pretty huge mistake when I gave up on a certain class last last semester. It was only the second exam and I just gave up entirely. I still attended classes, of course, but I was asleep for most of it and I couldn’t find the motivation to study for it. Obviously, I ended up regretting that decision of mine because now I won’t be graduating on time. There’s no shame in that, really, because I believe that people should go at their own pace and that everyone has their own timeline, but it really could’ve been avoided.

Now, I’ve never passed a single exam in the class I need to take a removals exam for. NOT A SINGLE ONE. But giving up now would not only cause a domino effect in the future (which would only worsen the situation I’m in right now) but it would also mean that I gave up before even trying AGAIN. It would mean that I took the seemingly easier way out now (which would be giving up) to only suffer the probably horrible consequences later on.

I am seriously trying to grasp any sort of motivation right now to motivate me enough to study for my exam. I’m thinking that maybe this will finally be the exam that I will pass in that class. Maybe I can score even higher than the score I need to pass just to prove that I can do more than what’s expected of me. Maybe I’m more than what I give myself credit for. I don’t know.

It’s the end of the post and I’m still really struggling with my mindset. I need to pass this exam, but if I’m going to pass it, I need to believe that I can pass it.

Resulta ng larawan para sa for with god, nothing is impossible

 

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Random Shoutout 003: The Greatest Show and Never Enough (from The Greatest Showman)

The Greatest Show:

 

Never Enough:

 

Believe it or not, I haven’t seenΒ The Greatest ShowmanΒ movie yet, but I’ve fallen in love with three songs from its soundtrack already! I am loving the lyrics, the rhythm, and the feelings and goosebumps that I get whenever I listen to them.

I should really watch it soon and if you haven’t listened to the songs, I definitely recommend that you do.

 

I hope you’re having a grand day! If today isn’t that grand of a day, always remember that there’s always something good about every day! πŸ˜‰

 

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Flash Post 030: I NEED TO SLEEP

Tomorrow is the first day of my second semester being a third year student and I’m having a hard time sleeping. It’s like the night before a field trip when you’re feeling excited and nervous at the same time. I’m super excited to start a brand new semester with new professors, new classmates, and a new schedule (which isn’t half bad, really), but I’m also nervous because of the same reasons.. new semester.. new professors.. new classmates.. new schedule. AND A NEW DORM! Ugh too many new things! Can I have another week to process all this?

Of course not.

So here I am, trying to express myself, through writing, to let go of some of my thoughts and feelings. I need to sleep soon cause’ I don’t want to sleep in class ON MY FIRST DAY.. or in the coming days. I want to break that habit, so I need to get proper sleep at least tonight.

But that’s probably not happening.

Starting tomorrow, I won’t be going to the same dorm I’ve stayed in since I was in first year, I’ll be following a different schedule which means I’ll have to adapt to this new schedule sooner or later, and I’ll probably be missing my schedule, classmates, and professors from last semester and the Christmas break that has come to past.

But it’ll work out – that I’m sure of! I just need to fix the things I need for tomorrow before going to bed and take ALL OF THIS one step at a time.

Let me end this post with a few of my favorite verses and some cute motivational .gif’s! As always, I am proud to be a Roman Catholic and whether or not you have the same religious beliefs, I respect you. So I ask you to do the same for me. Thank you and let’s all spread love and happiness!! ❀

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Flash Post 28: In The Middle (of Finals Week)

Okay, so right now, I should be studying for an exam for the class where I’m still running for exemption from taking the finals. But I realized that there’s too many stuff going on inside my mind, so I decided to write a quick “Flash Post” before continuing my studies.

There are certain things I simply cannot think about right now AND that’s what this post is about, I think. To make things clear, I’ll neatly write it down as a list.

*Insert my name here*’s to-not-think-about list:

  • Whether or not I’m going to fail my Engineering Statics class
  • Whether or not I’m going to fail my Statistics majors class
    • Do not compute for the score you need for finals to pass.
    • Do not compare yourself with other people. You are your own person!
    • Don’t think you’re going to fail. Worse comes to worst, you still got that +2% attendance bonus!!
  • The mini movie house that just opened nearby
    • You ALREADY HAVE PLANS, so don’t do it. Just DON’T.
    • “Mother knows best.”
  • The guy I really like
    • IT’S FINALS WEEK AND YOU’RE STILL THINKING ABOUT HIM! You’re awful.
    • You can deal with these kinds of things later, *insert my name here*. Now is NOT THE TIME TO BE THINKING ABOUT IT!
    • For Pete’s sake (who’s Pete?), DO NOT OVERTHINK!!!! It’s not helping anyone.
    • Rather than worrying over this, just think of him as an inspiration to slay finals week.
    • Okay, just don’t think about him and do your best πŸ™‚ .

I just really need to get through this day and do great in my exam later, so that I can go home, be exempted from taking the finals for that class, and study for my only remaining final exam this Friday.

 

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It’s funny cause’ I really should be studying, but I stumbled upon it on Twitter. He should’ve still had a sign even though he’s not a “pa-fall” person. He’s just a reaaaaally nice guy that people have a tendency to like (or really like!), I think haha.

I really should be studying now, so bye.. for now πŸ™‚

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Flash Post 24: Good Morning, World!

I fell asleep at around 9 pm, then I woke up at around 2 am. From 2 am to around 5 am, I’ve been doing an assignment due today (well, more like finishing up, really) while listening to “Dear Evan Hansen” (AMAZING MUSICAL! 10/10 WOULD RECOMMEND!). And now, at 6:07 am, I feel like if I let myself sleep on my bed, I’d be late for my 10 am class. It’s a very important class, so I shouldn’t be late BUT, at the same time, for the same reason, I have to not sleep in class. Do you see the dilemma? I do haha.

Well, I’ll just probably drink a bit of coffee to stay awake.

I’m also planning to pull an all-nighter for an exam I have tomorrow night.

I was going to write that I’d just sleep a lot after tomorrow’s exam BUT I have a problem set due on Friday noon.

HA! I’ll just sleep a bit more on Friday then a lot on Saturday.

But I didn’t write this post to plan my sleeping schedule in the coming days. I’m sure I’ll get more than minimal sleep for the rest of this semester and that’s fine.

At this point in time, all I want is to pass all my classes this semester. Well, for some subjects, I’d like a more than passing grade, but for most, passing is ENOUGH.

I’m not only aiming for passing though, unlike a few semesters ago, which was probably my worst semester (hopefully for my whole college life). TWO failed classes, ONE dropped, and ONE almost failed (which is the class I failed the previous semester). SO YEAH.

AND my art gallery write-up is 23 days, 6 hours (and counting!) overdue. Normally, writing a paper for something I actually did twice (different exhibits) is something I don’t consider as work cause’ I love writing BUT, for some peculiar reason, I couldn’t find the motivation to write this. I still can’t actually and, after 23 days of not writing it, it’s just pretty troubling to think about, really.

I’ll most likely just ask for an extra credit assignment (if that exists in college).

Funny cause’ I really like that class… Hmmm…

If you’re wondering why I’m writing this post (well, assuming that you’re still reading it), I don’t know either to be honest.

But since I’m posting right now anyway, here’s are motivational .gif(‘s) to start your day!

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I really hope you have a great day because the world is beautiful and so are you.

 

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Flash Post 023: n+1 (where n is any real number)

About a year ago. I thought of myself as a person who does most things halfheartedly – intentionally settling for mediocrity because, for reasons, I wasn’t willing to give any extra effort to the things I was doing. I don’t know when I turned from being a sincere person who does her best in everything.. to that. I’d say I lost sight of my dreams and who I wanted to be. I didn’t see the value of what I was doing and how my choices would affect my future. I gave myself too much slack, only worsening my already awful time management skills.

This year, I’ve realized that I’m surrounded by extremely passionate people who work together to achieve common goals that would not only make them proud of their hard work and efforts, but also inspire and motivate other people to become as passionate and committed as they are. I’ve conversed with people who are in love with what they’re doing, making them enjoy it rather than seeing it as work. In short, these people have inspired me to passionately immerse myself into the things that I do and to run after my dreams again, to some degree.

I say all that, but I don’t really understand what I’m passionate about, at the moment. I mean, of course I should be passionate about my course and writing, and all that, but how do you continue to fuel your passion to the point where it actually pushes you to do more?

To be honest, I’m studying for an exam, but a friend of mine told me how wonderful it would be if we can share the word of God to the people with a certain feeling of being so filled with it that we have no other choice but to share it with other people. She compared it with how I couldn’t help sharing with them the stuff that happens with the guy I like. AND HONESTLY THAT MADE ME UNDERSTAND WHAT SHE WAS TRYING TO CONVEY BECAUSE I HONESTLY CAN’T DO ANYTHING BUT TALK ABOUT OR WRITE ABOUT HIM 24/7.

I like him a lot and maybe, in a while, I can express it properly through words. He’s constantly running through my mind. While I’m sort of sad that I can’t think, talk about, and write about anything else but him… Actually, at this point, it’s just really sad how it’s come to this and this is all going to be over soon. There’s no consolation in liking someone THIS MUCH and knowing that, after this, all you’ll have is the memories.

WELL THIS POST TOOK A ROUGH TURN. Basically, my point is that it would be really great if I can be as passionate about something ACTUALLY FULFILLING as I am about him. Not that this isn’t worthwhile, it just sort of hurts now and there’s nothing else to do but let it out through writing and eventually move on.

HOPEFULLY, in my next post, I’ll be able to write about something other than him because I need to prove to myself that I can do it, so I will.

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Flash Post 22: β‰ˆ A Month

I’m both happy and sad that this semester’s almost over. Happy because who doesn’t want a semester full of hell weeks (and class suspensions) to be over? And sad because this has been the best semester I’ve had in a while, in terms of people, schedule, and academic performance. It’s really too soon to say, though, considering that I still need to get more than passing scores for the remaining exams to pass in at least two of my classes. Sure, the stakes are higher than ever for the rest of the semester, but for the first time in a long time, I actually believe that I can manage it, hoping that I get my shit together enough to get through this.

Part of the reason why this semester’s great is the people who do seemingly little things that mean a lot to me, the new friends I’ve met only this semester but have become rays of sunshine to my day, the close friends who’re always there for me in more ways than one, and, of course, my family who’re constantly supporting me and challenging me to do my best in everything I do. They might not realize it and I might not always tell them or show them, but I am very blessed to have them in my life and I’m very grateful for the things they do.

Only around a month to go and I really need not to mess this up. Well, I’m aiming for better than not mess it up, but that’s probably the least that I can do. I don’t want my efforts to be for naught.

Just one month. Just a bit more to go.

I guess I’m posting this to thank the people who make my days a lot brighter, to motivate myself to do more than survive, to make myself believe that I’m actually capable of managing the rest of this semester, to prove to myself that I can actually write something that isn’t about the guy I like, and a whole lot of reasons. Well, except to finish my write-up for the art gallery visit because this obviously isn’t it.

There’s a lot of good things and bad things about this semester, a lot of good days and not-so good days, and I guess liking him is like that too – heartwarming and heartbreaking.

And… I’ve failed to finish this post without mentioning him, but he’s been a huge part of this semester and I can’t set that aside.Β γ‚γ‚ŠγŒγ¨γ†γ”γ–γ„γΎγ—γŸγ€‚ 私はあγͺγŸγŒγ¨γ¦γ‚‚ε₯½γγ§γ™γ€‚

γ•γ‚ˆγ†γͺら~!!

 

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Disclaimer: I don’t understand much of the Japanese language. I neither speak nor write in Japanese on a regular basis. The translation was generated through Google Translate.

 

 

P.S. Happy November!!!