A Tablespoon of one big mess~

I’m failing at least one class this semester and all but two, at the most. Unfortunately, I’m not exaggerating about that and this is, for sure, my worst semester in college, regarding academics. I’d like to call this my rock bottom semester cause’ I seriously don’t think any semester could be as remotely bad as this one. This is the last wake up call semester I need for me to do more than get my shit together.

I don’t actually know what I’m gonna do after getting my grades for this semester. I actually don’t know what the consequences of the grades would be, so I don’t know what I can do about it either. But I’ve learned a lot of things this semester, realizing most of it by the end of it, so that’s what this post is going to be about.

1. “Time management is key.” AF

I remember saying that my resolution this year is to manage my time more wisely, but as you can probably infer, I failed horribly. I wasn’t able to manage my time and prioritize the things and ended up procrastinating and cramming everything in the last minute. This tip is probably a cliche for college students, like me, by now, but it’s easier said than done and I, personally, I need to be reminded of this every. single. minute. And more specifically, time management should consider EVERYTHING, such as spontaneous getaways and emergencies. Planning to finish the projects just by the nick of time or planning an all-nighter to finish studying for an exam falls under the poor time management category. Plan and schedule your time in a realistic way, considering, as I said, E V E R Y T H I N G.


Okay, so this might sound unreasonable to some,  but I honestly need to study everyday. I sleep usually fall asleep during my classes, which is a terrible habit of mine I’ve had since preschool, so I need to catch up with my lessons by allotting more time in studying. Unfortunately, what tends to happen is I eat dinner while watching something, probably a movie or an episode of KDrama, then I end up finishing it and spending a bit more time relaxing. After a few hours, usually at 9 pm, I start studying, then falling asleep on my desk. HORRIBLE.

So, I really need to allot two to four hours of pure studying each day to catch up and to be able to understand the lesson and to get enough practice. And to not cram chapters worth of lessons in one night, or four hours before an exam.

3. Take GENUINE interest in what you’re learning.

I went to my classes. I tried not to sleep in my classes. I tried studying for my classes. But I honestly didn’t like my classes. If it weren’t required, I wouldn’t have taken the courses I enlisted for this semester. The only class I did like was Accounting and that’s because I’ve been hooked to business since third year high school. So, I think it’s also very important to make yourself interested and passionate about what you’re learning. I know that’s a rather challenging thing to do, especially when you’re pursuing a course that wasn’t your choice, but to make the semester a bit less painful, we’ve gotta try to like the classes we have to stick with for the duration of the semester.

4. Make time for you and your passions, too. 

While school, family, and social life are important, you’re well-being is as important as all of those things. And by making time to make sure you’re well-being is in good condition, I mean to check if your sanity’s still intact, if you’re eating properly and getting close to enough sleep, and if you’re still able to do what you actually are passionate about. Now, when you make time for you, consider the hours of sleep you’d want to have, depending on whether or not it’s a hell week, and squeezing your “relaxation” and leisure activities with the activities related to your passion into a fair amount of time. Because, as I said, I usually get a bit too relaxed and ending up spending more time relaxing than studying.

5. Take a daily dose of positivity! 

It might be hell week and/or things might not be going your way, always remember to keep a positive attitude and look at the brighter side of life. Most times, this is easier said than done, like most things, but it’s essential to get through the semester alive. You need to be happy with yourself, to be thankful for all the blessings you have, and to have a fighting spirit all throughout the semester.

6. Spend your money wisely. 

Although this isn’t school-related, it’s still a lesson I learned during this semester. I’m constantly saving up for something, which is alright, but I’ve got to be wise about how I spend my money. I went to a convention and spent more than a thousand, I bought a stuffed toy for a person I admire a lot, and now I’m saving up for shipping fees, but to me, who loves anime and likes that person, it’s worth it. Though, in the long run, spending my money on those things aren’t exactly wise. I’m working on it and I’m planning to allot a certain percentage of weekly allowance savings to put in the bank, so yay me.

There you have it, six of the many lessons I’ve learned the hard way this semester. I might not be as well put as I’d want to be and I have miles to go before becoming the woman I want to become in the future, but it’s a start and I’m a work in progress, so to the me who’s trying so hard to figure out what she’s gonna do in life, give your best and be passionate about everything you do today and God will reveal His plans to you at the right time.

I hope this post somehow helped you, too, or at the very least, realize that even though this my life’s kinda messy right now, if I’m getting through it with my head held high and I’m slowly trying to apply the lessons I’ve learned from yesterday’s mistakes, then so should you :). And always remember that you are God’s masterpiece. You are beautiful and you make this world brighter. Things might be shitty right now, but please don’t give up and know that I believe that you will get through whatever challenge it is you’re facing.

Till’ the next time~

With so much love, The Girl With The Pen




The Fact that People Usually Forget

Have you ever thought of what life must be like for some man you saw walking around the corner? or that woman you rode the elevator with? or that boy who passed you by happily skipping to the park? Well, I usually do. I can’t help but become curious about what they’re going through while I live my own life. This is mostly the reason why I want to take up Pyschology when I go to college. I want to understand people more, figure out what they’re going through, and strive to help them with it. I know it’s not a very realistic course today, since not there aren’t many Psychologists where I’m from, but I want to do it. 

Life, whether we like it or not, is a long and rocky road to journey in, with our own respective burdens and problems. It’s like that for everybody. Even for those who seem perfect and flawless. We’re all messed up, one way or another. Some are just better at hiding it than others. I admit that I can’t journey through life alone, so I’m very very thankful that God has blessed me with an amazing family and a wonderful group of friends. I regard myself as lucky or blessed, compared to other people. And so, I want to help the world in my own little ways, because they might have it harder than me and I don’t want them to feel alone or hopeless in this life. 

This has been a crazy dream for me, but I want to be people’s catcher. I want to catch them from falling into depression, despair, and sadness. Life’s hard enough as it is, and I feel that  loving and caring for other people would benefit them and me. I want to help people as much as I can because I know what they’re going through and it’s not easy.

People should take notice of other people, and not just themselves. They should be aware that other people have their own lives and thoughts and feelings as well. And people should stop and think about what the world is like today, and what it would be like tomorrow. Would you really like a world as cruel and destroyed as the world we’re living now for our children? People should rise up and see what’s really important, love and happiness and contentment with what they have. Money is just another thing that society has created for order in properties and such. I just wish that people would stop acting as if money made the world go around. 

Service to one’s co-human being is another thing. It’s the best kind of joy one could receive. It’s not about the money you create while doing so, but it’s the smile you see in those people you help rise up in life. I believe that’s what politicians and organizations have to understand. The world can’t improve when one is merely thinking of himself. It would become a better place when each of us, hand-in-hand help each other, especially those who are in need.

So, stop expecting people to change the world and make of it a better place. Look at that person in the other side of the mirror and make him change, for the best. Start with yourself and see the difference you can make. 




While I Was In The Department Store

There I was, lining up to buy something from the cashier in the department store, minding my own business. My mom scolds two boys who were in front on my me. I hear them saying that they were together and my mom withdrew, understanding them. I told her that she should just chill and stay calm, but it was sort of panicky because we were catching a movie, that was going to start in a few minutes, so I didn’t argue with her.

I can’t help but observe those two boys, looking like poor people with their physical appearance. I didn’t criticize them harshly for being poor, but rather, I pitied them that they we’re born rich nor middle-class. Then, I saw what they were going to purchase, a small pack of fried peas (or something like that) with the exact amount in hand. I felt bad that they were buying that while the people around them very buying stuff for their leisure. Even the person in front of them bought a lot of food.

I wondered how they got the money, and for whom were those peas, and what they felt while buying that from a department store, rather than a sari-sari store at a corner. I wished I could’ve given my siopao, but my mom would’ve never allowed me. I want to do more for those kind of people. I want to help people in need.

Society is pretty messed up nowadays. The rich become richer and the poor become poorer. Although, there are some fortunate human beings who share their blessings, most of them simply ignore the fact that there are other people around them. That’s why someday, I want to start my own foundation, the cause being street children. I don’t want my name to be it’s title, rather, naming it more greatly (of course, I am still thinking of the grand name).

So, help whenever and wherever you could because you have no idea what a small random act of kindness could lead to.


I Don’t Know About You But I’m Feeling 22

Today was… AMAZING! It was close to perfection. Thanks to my awesome friends and our craziness, they made this day really special. I’ll never forget that moment in time. I love them and their guts.

I woke up kinda late because I didn’t feel like getting up. I was really pissed the night before. But, I just had to. I got to the bus just in time (or something) then, felt really sleepy, but couldn’t sleep (horrible). When we got to school, I gave them some chocolate (as a gift) and they were alright.

I entered the school early so that I’d get to see my old classmates before we go (yet once again) our separate ways. I gave them their gifts and I receive their heart-warming thank you’s. 

We got to the um.. dome and everyone WASN’T there. Like, the important people I have in my list weren’t there. They were kinda late and all. But, still, um.. it was like.. normal?

Then, we went to our respective rooms. Ours was on the 4th floor so, normal. Then we waited like 30 mins-1 hour for the party to start. To be frank, the Christmas party inside the room was pretty dull. No music and not that much entertainment. 

We sneaked out a couple of times and I don’t know how or when we went down, but we did. And we had this crazy picture taking adrenaline. We took pictures with EVERYONE. My friend even got to complete her list of um.. people to take a picture with. My other friend got to take a picture with one of her two crushes. It was fun. We even had pictures with the teachers we liked.. AND JOLLIBEE!

But, I was sorta incomplete since I didn’t get a picture with prince charming (hahaha) but it’s all good. I hated that it had to end. My bus was really leaving me and I couldn’t afford being left. Tsk. 

And.. ZOMG! I saw this book in the NBS racks in our school..



and I really wanted to steal it there and then (since no one had cash :\ ). But I couldn’t! It’s out of stocks EVERYWHERE! Ughh.. I was |—| <– this close to owning a copy. :((

Well, in a whole, today was spectacular. I loved it. I thank everyone who made it special.