Make it or break it

I’m down to my last month (more or less) of second year and I’m really gonna need to get my shit together to finish this semester without failing any classes. I really can’t mess up after two failed exams in both Math and Engineering Methods in Mathematics, a failed exam in Engineering Drawing (BUT HEY, ON AVERAGE, I’M STILL PASSING!), and two horrible horrible academic essays in College English. I’d admit that this was a really challenging semester, surprisingly even more challenging than the past two semesters. But with hard work, perseverance, determination, dedication, patience, … , and, most especially, God’s help, I know I can still save my grades this semester.

They say that the first step in overcoming a weakness is awareness and acceptance. With that said, let me just say that I cheated on my diet again this week and I feel horrible. How the first sentence is related to the second? They’re probably not (HAHA), but the point is that I’m aware and I accept that I’m overweight and that I need to lose a lot of pounds to attain the “normal” weight range for my age and height. To do so, I need to strictly follow a diet and to regularly exercise. It’s hard af cos of the stress due to schoolworks and also cos of the lack of time for exercise. I tried yesterday, I failed today, and I’ll try again tomorrow. I know and accept that I sleep in class more often than I’d admit and that causes me to lag behind lessons. So that fact, along with my poor time management, is the root cause of my dilemmas. I need to be more attentive in class and to fix my priorities to catch up with my classes. It’s really difficult to do for a person like me for a lot of reasons, such as being distracted easily and terrible sleeping habits. I failed yesterday, I succeeded today, and I’ll try again tomorrow.

I guess life’s just really like that, full of fluctuations and ups and downs. The important part is to never give up because once you’ve considered giving up or settling for less than the goals that you’ve been aiming for, then you’d be stuck with that mindset. I admit that I’m stubborn and I forget this a lot, but I just can’t give up on this semester. I can’t let my parents and myself down. I can’t afford to fail any classes, again.

So, I’m still overweight, sleepy, awkward, poor in time management, stubborn, forgetful, too easy on myself, and the like. But I’m also a work in progress and, despite all the negative stuff about me, I’d say there’s some good points, too. I believe in myself that I can overcome the challenges I’m facing with God’s help and I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me and that He has a plan for me. Without Him, I am nothing, and with Him, nothing is impossible.

I hope you’re having a great day and if you’re troubled with your own challenges, trust in God and do your best! Never give up! And don’t forget to share the love! ❤

 

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(Note: This is the most decent and inspiring post I’ve written in a very long time and I’m so happy cos of it. This month would be a challenging one, especially with me trying to save my grades and my sanity, but I’ll fight a good fight and do my best. 🙂

Also, if you have a different religion with different beliefs, please know that I respect those beliefs and I’m just stating what believe in. I’m not pushing anything on you, so please respect my religion and beliefs as well. Have a nice day~)

 

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Almost a Month…

I’ve almost gone a month without posting anything here and what is happening?? I’ve been so busy with college and recently, I’ve been eating out more with friends. These past few weeks have been really stressful (Engineering Drawing, Math, and Physics please huhu) but it’s also been quite fun, mostly during the times when I’m not cramming anything. Still, I haven’t written anything in weeks and that’s not good.

I just finished my Physics exam today and though I’m not really confident with it, IT’S FINALLY OVER! For the next exam, I have got to remember not to cram everything in (less than) one night. Horrible, I tell you.

So just a little update with what’s up. Not that I need to update you. Just for when I look back at this post, I guess haha. I’m done with the 3rd exam in Math, 2nd exam in Engineering Drawing, 2nd exam in Physics, and I’ve gone to a military camp! This week we celebrated my friend’s birthday at a board games place and it’s the FOURTH time I’ve been there! Not that I’m tired of it. The place is really awesome and being with friends makes every time more amazing!

 

I guess this is it for now. I feel like updating my story in wattpad with another oneshot chapter, so you guys should check it out! Thanks!

How About Love?

 

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Nobody said it was easy~

As the semester comes to an end, so do I. Honestly, I’m literally dead during the weekday and only come alive during the weekends that are really too short. It’s really sad, actually. And I don’t know how I’m actually going be able to fix it. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this hopeless in my life. Sure, I’m a pessimistic optimist, but this time around, it’s like I’m on the verge of giving up. GIVING UP. Old me would probably kill me if she reads me write that. Funny how that phrase contains the reason why I’m struggling right now and the reason why I’ve been struggling so hard, so far.

So, college isn’t the dream come true that I thought it would feel like. I got in my dream university and now I’ve got to stay in for AT MOST 5 years. I didn’t really think this ahead. Why did I grow up wanting to go the uni anyway? Why did I grow loving it?

What if I didn’t?

BUT those thoughts stop there. Because I do know why I chose it, besides the fact that it was the only school I knew until- what- fourth grade? I chose it because it’s one of the most amazing universities, recognized internationally. I chose it because I believe that it will my future as bright as it could possibly be. I chose it because, for me, there’s nowhere to go but (hihi).. I chose it and I am not giving up. 

Whatever happening isn’t anyone’s fault by my own. My family has been nothing but supportive and loving. My friends, let’s just say they help keep my sanity in check. And God, above anything and anyone else, guides me to the path that He has prepared before me, protects me and my family, and supports me every single time, without fail. AND I’M THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE.

Therefore, if I mess anything up, it’s all me, and I don’t want to mess anything more than I already have. I just reaaally don’t know how to get my shit together. If you guys have some suggestions as to how I can make it possible, please write it down in the comments and I shall try to make it happen (try to the best of my abilities, that is).I would really really appreciate it! Honestly, I’m lost inside a pit of my own creation and it’s hard to climb out.

I regret not studying enough. I regret not knowing enough about Physics, Chemistry, and Math to understand it. I regret all those reaction papers I didn’t write. I regret everything I’ve done wrong during this semester.

But nothing’s over yet. 

 

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Faults

I have faults, faults that can break me in a matter of seconds, when intensely shaken. Of course I’d have faults, I’m a human being, after all, but I thought I’ve already learned how to live with them, with how I am. What can I possibly do to stop this earthquake within me?

Despite that seemingly deep introduction, this post is mostly just a rant post about the things I suck at. Well, I’m not going to humiliate and depress myself by listing all of it down, but I am going to name a few, that had just been recently proven, such as delivering a speech (how?), Math (oh the horror), and *drum roll* socializing with people (though I’d say I’m slowly but surely improving).

I want improve myself, especially in my weak points, but how do I do that exactly? Well, there are numerous ways on how I can probably do it, one step at a time. I don’t really know why I’m writing this here, but eh, if you have weaknesses that you want to improve on, too, then I hope these (sort of) tips help us both:

  1. Accept and know your weaknesses.
  2. Challenge yourself to improve on these weaknesses (having an actual reason/reasons for doing this would help motivate you).
  3. Learn how you can overcome these weaknesses (through asking for advice from your friends, searching it up on Google, or simply realizing them yourself).
  4. Actually take action on the information that you’ve gathered (this step will be pretty hard at first, but I guess when you get used to it, it’ll become easier).
  5. Evaluate your progress every now and then (there’s always more points to improve on while in the process of learning how to deal with faults, so check on those, but don’t forget to give yourself a pat on the back for doing a good job).

These steps are really better said than done (hahaha), but that’s the basics, I guess. I hope it kinda helped you though. Tomorrow is always a new day, so if you want something you’ve never had, you have to do something you’ve never done (a combination of two quotes haha).

Bye for now. ♥

Geometry 101

This week has been.. fast. Like I didn’t feel that it had been a week at all. And this is pretty surprising, considering I spend 12 hours a day at school and all the other hours preparing for it. But, it’s the good kind of surprise since I get to take a sort of break from the whole “SCHOOL” thing.

So, I had to take Geometry to pass 2nd Year and if I’d  learned something, it’s that you should never..ever.. assume. It could lead to total failure and eternal wrongness. You should use postulates, laws, theorems, and the like to prove your statement. 

This could also be used in life. Don’t assume that someone likes you, unless you have concrete proof or the dude had the guts to confess. If you do, it would lead to overthinking and eventually, craziness. There’s a lot of reasons why a guy would be nice (or flirting with you). Some of them could be: a. Your a bet, b. He’s just being a bro-friend, c. just fucking around (flirting spree), and d. just really genuinely truly likes you.

From all the choices I have stated above, the last one’s the least likely, at least in my case. But,, theoretically speaking, if the world’s not a bitch, I’d really sorta like a guy liking me. Just, liking me for me. I’m not saying that I’d say yes to him or whatever.  I just want to know that I’m likeable or have enough looks, smarts, and charms to be liked by an actual dude.

This post is messed up for so many reasons. Damn these hormones and the thing called “teenager”, acting all girly and shit. Yuck! Now, I shall go watch the movie, “Hopeless”.

 

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