I have faults, faults that can break me in a matter of seconds, when intensely shaken. Of course I’d have faults, I’m a human being, after all, but I thought I’ve already learned how to live with them, with how I am. What can I possibly do to stop this earthquake within me?

Despite that seemingly deep introduction, this post is mostly just a rant post about the things I suck at. Well, I’m not going to humiliate and depress myself by listing all of it down, but I am going to name a few, that had just been recently proven, such as delivering a speech (how?), Math (oh the horror), and *drum roll* socializing with people (though I’d say I’m slowly but surely improving).

I want improve myself, especially in my weak points, but how do I do that exactly? Well, there are numerous ways on how I can probably do it, one step at a time. I don’t really know why I’m writing this here, but eh, if you have weaknesses that you want to improve on, too, then I hope these (sort of) tips help us both:

  1. Accept and know your weaknesses.
  2. Challenge yourself to improve on these weaknesses (having an actual reason/reasons for doing this would help motivate you).
  3. Learn how you can overcome these weaknesses (through asking for advice from your friends, searching it up on Google, or simply realizing them yourself).
  4. Actually take action on the information that you’ve gathered (this step will be pretty hard at first, but I guess when you get used to it, it’ll become easier).
  5. Evaluate your progress every now and then (there’s always more points to improve on while in the process of learning how to deal with faults, so check on those, but don’t forget to give yourself a pat on the back for doing a good job).

These steps are really better said than done (hahaha), but that’s the basics, I guess. I hope it kinda helped you though. Tomorrow is always a new day, so if you want something you’ve never had, you have to do something you’ve never done (a combination of two quotes haha).

Bye for now. ♥


She needed a hero, so that’s what she became

(Note: I wrote this post after watching the third and latest episode, so far, of Akagami no Shirayuki. I really love how they didn’t portray her as just another damsel in distress, rather as someone who can achieve and travel the path she had chosen for herself with her own strength. Though she’s a close friend of the Prince’s, it doesn’t define her and she wouldn’t want it to define her anyway.)

As human beings, we have our own strengths and weaknesses. We can feel all kinds of emotions like happiness and sadness, priceless joy and utter depression. We commit mistakes, even repeat them a few times because that’s how we are, we can be really stubborn at times. We make promises, we break promises, we expect things, we become disappointed. We live, then after a while, we die. That’s how life is, really- Unfair.

That’s why I really admire people who, despite all the circumstances, have the courage and strength to face life head on. In story terms, I admire those characters who have the guts to stand up for themselves, to stop depending on others to save them, and become a hero themselves.

Sure, everyone has problems and sometimes feel like they’re at their limit, that they can no longer go on. At those times, anyone would need the support of others, right? But, all the others can do is to support you to the best of their abilities. It’s still up to you to support yourself and to be a better, stronger person next time. Those people have their own struggles and they won’t always be there to save you.The only one who can really save you is yourself.

Wouldn’t it be truly amazing to be your own hero? It would mean accepting yourself, flaws and everything, having the courage to face your fears because there are other things that are more important, having the strength to face life’s challenges and to accept the possible criticisms that others throw at you, and realizing that the greatest armor in battle is love and wisdom.

I know that this is better written than done, but I believe that anyone could be their own hero with the right amount of determination and perseverance. It’s definitely alright to commit mistakes and break down, at times, but make sure that after that, you come out as a better person. Stop being the damsel in distress and be the great and mighty hero.


The Cold Never Bothered Me Anyway

It’s Christmas time! I absolutely cannot wait any longer for Christmas break. A break is what I really need right now and all I need it to survive two more days of school. Ah, I can hear it now, the bells, the choirs of angels singing heavenly songs of hope and faith. I can smell the roasted turkey and see houses shining brightly at night. Just a little while now till’ I get the break I so dearly want. 

But, for now, this weekend shall be the time for me to catch up on some World History homework while watching Doctor Who, yet again. I love Doctor Who. I love David Tennant being the doctor. I love Billie Piper as Rose Tyler. Honestly, I love everything about the show, except that it breaks my feelings every time I watch it. 

And this is another blog post to keep my future self updated on what my life is like in this time in the past. I love thinking about the future and wondering how everything will turn up. I know I’m going to die, but that’s never the point. The point is to do something remarkable in the life given to me my God. I don’t care if I die, as long as I have done something worth remembering before I do pass away. 

I’m not that inspirational, I know that, but that’s because I’m trying to figure things out for myself as well. I’m not that type of people who are looked upon by other people. No. I’m just another ordinary human being trying to do something extraordinary. I laugh. I cry. I get hurt. I die. That’s the truth and the truth hurts, most times, but it’s still the truth. I really want to figure out how people around me tick and just help them get through. But how can I do that when i myself cannot understand how I tick. I understand that’s just because I’m continuing to grow and finding myself during this period.

No one can be perfect, really. Every single one of us have our own kinds of flaws. I’d like to think that even the most honorary and majestic human beings are still just human beings, with scars and imperfections and everything. I’m not as pretty as those models who pose for the magazines. I’m not as smart as that kid who aced his BAR exam. I’m not as sexy as that woman in the billboards. My face is of the ordinary, with pimples and acne. I’m not as popular as that man with tons of friends. I’m not as rich as that guy with a billion dollars. But I can tell you this, I am me, and that’s a good enough reason to keep being me. Of course, I have envied people who are better than me at stuff, but I can probably say that I’m better than them at other stuff. 

I usually belittle myself in my other posts because I don’t find anything worth anything in me, except my ability to put my thoughts into writing. That, I’m proud of. But, other than that, I feel that I am nothing, that I’m just a passerby in this busy world that no one but a few people I call friends and family would remember. And even that’s just temporary. As time will pass by, so shall the memory of my existence disappear. That’s partly the reason why this blog is important to me, it would preserve my existence until wordpress will be no more (if that would ever happen, God forbid). But this time, I don’t want to pity myself. This time I want to think of myself as an independent individual, capable of much much more that what she has now. 

I know I can do better, and so can you, dear reader. You and me, both, need to discover beautiful skills and exceptional talents within us, and not just those flaws and imperfections that just hold us back. Set aside those negative and pessimistic thoughts and focus on those optimistic thoughts, because those kind of thoughts are going to guide you and make you determined to reach those goals you have  for the future. This may be a really badly formed post, with all the moodswings in the paragraphs, but I am happy I wrote it. I am happy with it. And hopefully, I’ve inspired someone other than myself.