Flash Post 015: Summer Rant

Summer isn’t exactly going the way I planned. But then again, what does?

Summer term classes are alright. It’s a bit challenging for me because of the mindset that it’s supposed to be SUMMER. I end up spending more time watching Korean drama or movies,  sleeping way to early, and waking up WAY to late. The bed seems more appealing than usual, even though I’m not all that tired. It’s not like I’ve cut class or anything, I was just almost late ONCE. But it’s still unusual because I usually wake up at least two hours before my first class. NOT 45 minutes.

Besides school, I’m still experiencing a terrible case of writer’s block. It’s been 19 days since I last posted an entry in this blog and I’m really inactive in my Wattpad account. And it’s just really sad. It’s summer and I love writing, so why can’t I write? I need to learn more about how to write better and to actually write.

I still haven’t loss any weight. Due to my schedule, I can’t go to the gym, so I need properly stick to my diet and to get more exercise. I don’t exactly know how to do that, yet. But I want to skate and to be able to do that right, I need to be healthier and more fit.

And it’s just a bit saddening to still be me while other people are evolving and doing great in life. Just a thought.

(Note: So summer’s kinda sad, right now, but it’s gonna be alright and I’m alright. I’ll make sure my next post is a lot more positive and decent than this haha.)




Summer: The Reality

Okay, so it’s been a week and four days since my summer started and I haven’t done anything yet! I thought by now I’d have finished at least a book and 2-3 anime. I thought I would’ve started brain storming some concrete ideas for my new story. I thought I’d have more progress with going to gym, my diet, and losing weight.

But no.

Although I did start going to gym last Monday, I don’t think I’ve lost weight yet. I can’t stick to my diet, cause’ before and after gym, I’m to hungry for real food (I’m not over-eating tho, I think). I’ve made a new Wattpad account to get me started on the story writing thing. And I’ve posted one picture in my Deviantart account (eyes hihi). Oh also, I’m preparing for my birthday celebration which is happening really soon!

It’s not that bad of a progress, but I could do so much more with my summer vacation and I certainly do not want to go back to school in August regretting- no- I want to go back there thinking that I had a great summer and it’s time to get back to work!

So, yeah, a week and four days into summer and I can do more.



DAY ONE: Realistic

Realistically speaking, I don’t know shit about anything related to going to the gym, healthy diets, and to losing a heck load of weight within a month or so. I was supposed to start going to gym today, but due to the circumstances, I won’t be able to start today, rather tomorrow. So now,  I’ve been browsing and printing stuff about effective workouts and diets, but it really is like a foreign language to me.

During the previous times that I’ve attempted to go to the gym, I didn’t follow any concrete routine or anything. I just went there, used cardio machines for about an hour, tried lifting some weights, then headed to the sauna. That’s it. I found out that I should be progressing my workout routine every day or every week, but, ugh, I really don’t know.

No one’s pushing me to do all of this though. My parents are content with me just using the machines and going to the sauna, but I really want to see some improvement in my body size, weight, and activeness in doing stuff. Honestly, I’ve been lying around all day, so far, this summer. It’s sickening, really.

I think I badly need a professional trainer or shit, but I don’t think I’m comfortable with the ones in my gym, and it costs a lot of money. Going to the gym alone requires a lot of money, much more with a personal trainer. If only I’d understand the terms and actually have the guts and energy to perform all those shit in the gym, I can do it alone. I can and I will.

I guess I’m going to spend this day planning out the things I will do this summer and fix my room. I need to practice sleeping all by myself, too, since UNIVERSITY.


I Should Really Lose Weight

This is really embarrassing to write about but I would have to admit that I have a problem in order to solve it. I’m fat and overweight. Whenever I look at myself in an full size mirror, I can’t help but criticize myself for having such a huge and ugly body and the huge possibility that I might never have a husband or kids because I’m unattractive and crap. It’s such a sad thought, I know, but it’s realistic enough to be acceptable in this society. 

I look at those slightly chubby or skinny girls and envy them for having such great bodies. Yeah, I know envy is one of the mortal sins but, has anyone in this freakin’ world never feel envy for even a moment? I don’t think so. And whenever I see those pictures in facebook of girls in bikinis or normal clothes saying how fat they are when they really aren’t. I’d like to murder them at times (kidding). 

So, I’m positive that I still have a chance to change things. Well, I believe everyone has the power to change their lives, in general, by doing something other than their usual routine. I mean, how do you expect change when you won’t bother to change something? It all starts when you realize what’s wrong and decide to do something about it. 

I’m probably going to the gym again this summer. Haven’t eaten rice and drunk soda for almost a year, so YAY ME! I really hope I would get thin this summer because prom is just a block away and I don’t want to be one of those girls that are too fat for their gorgeous outfit. I want to buy a dress rather than renting it cause’ it would be mine.

Oh, before I forget, I’ve been reading an awesome novel in wattpad ( http://www.wattpad.com/11542849-chubby-ako ) It’s really relatable, except that Janella (main character) is too lucky, you’ll see why when you read it.