Flash Post 037: The Beginning of The End (of My Third Year in College)

It’s almost finals week!! Well, it’s practically finals week already, but technically, it starts this Friday. I have an approximately 3 exams this week, a paper due tomorrow, and a presentation on Thursday. Basically, it’s almost no different from any other hell week I’ve experienced this semester EXCEPT I actually need to legit more than survive this one because IT’S FINALS AND I NEED TO PASS ALL BUT ONE (I’M SO SORRY! I STILL FEEL SUPER BAD ABOUT THIS BUT I NEED TO PRIORITIZE THE CLASSES THAT I ACTUALLY STILL HAVE A PRETTY GOOD CHANCE AT PASSING) OF MY CLASSES!!!

But first, let me just share the first paragraph of a post I’d written almost (10 days short) 2 years ago:

“Okay, so it’s my finals week this week and I’ve only been reviewing for the exams the night before th actual exams!! I’m so horrible!” -Me, Flash Post 001: My First College All-Nighter

If reviewing for exams the night before the actual exams is so horrible, then I’ve been doing an incredibly horrible job at studying this WHOLE semester, especially during the times when I’d cram weeks-worth of knowledge into one night. Like what I’m doing tonight. HA.

I was supposed to have an exam a while ago, but it was moved on Thursday so YAY FOR ME. Except I kind of put off studying for my exam tomorrow because of said supposed exam a while ago, so there’s that. But it’ll be alright. I just need to not mess up studying tonight.

I’m posting a blog post now because I might not be able to post until after finals week (unless I really feel the urge to do so). I really really really hope (and NEED) to pass all of my classes this semester and figure out how to enlist the major I’m about to fail this semester in my university’s other unit. Lord, please help me!!

And since it’s already the end of this flash post, might as well write that I kind of sort of miss him a bit already even though it’s only been around a month since I got the chance to properly hang out with him again (psssh..). I’ve already sort of kind of accepted that the next time we’d get to properly hang out would be during the next academic year (like how I accepted that I’m gonna fail that one major hahaha sahd), but it’d be nice to see him every now and then this week and the next.

I’m still not (and probably won’t be in the near future) over him. But I’m fine and we’re fine. It’s alright.

FINALS WEEK IS COMING AND MY THIRD YEAR IN COLLEGE IS ALMOST ENDING!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

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Flash Post 036: 11 Hours

It’s 3:22 am and I’m currently studying for an exam I have today which will start at 12:30 pm. I’ve already finished two exams this week and this is my last exam for the week, so I’m pretty happy that I’m still relatively alive and sane right now.

Might as well write that I’ve (sort of) given up on this class since before the second long exam WHICH isn’t something ANYONE should do. At that point in time, I still had two long exams and a final exam that could really still boost my grades up. After that, I decided to invest my effort on the classes which I still might have a chance at getting a high grade by the end  of the semester. Long story short, I’ve decided that the class was a lost cause and my performance in that class continued to go downhill from there.

UNTIL last Thursday when my professor told me that I might still have a chance at at least passing the class. I’m not really sure why he’s that optimistic (yes, at least passing is a VERY optimistic thought for someone who’s given up), but I might as well give it a chance and, as my mom would always say, it’s not over till’ it’s over.

How am I cramming WEEKS worth of knowledge and understanding into approximately NINE hours before the exam, well I’m trying to really understand the processes since my professor told me it’s pretty mechanical. Youtube videos of the lessons are very helpful and HOPEFULLY I could give it my best effort, or at least the best effort I could manage at this point in time.

You might be wondering (or not) why I still have the time (and nerve) to write a blog post if I’m super busy studying for the exam, it’s because I need to keep myself awake for the next nine hours (well, 11 hours.. counting the exam.. because I shouldn’t fall asleep.. DURING THE EXAM!) and writing is helping me not only by keeping me awake, but it’s also very enjoyable to be able to express my raw (unprocessed..?) thoughts here again after so long.

And, after all that’s happened, I think I’m back to square five (aka 20% progress). I just don’t see the point of having to make an effort to move on when, after a few clarifications about things, there’s no real reason to do so. It’s true that I’m still (a bit) awkward, that we’re most likely going to be nothing but good friends (hopefully, great friends) in the near (and a bit far) future, and that I still like him, but THAT’S okay and whatever will be will be, I guess. THANKFULLY, it’s still not awkward, in general, and I hope it never does. If you’re reading this (not likely, but still possible), thank you.

It’s 3:52 am and it took me approximately 25 minutes to write this whole thing. Subtracting it from the time I have left to study for my exam, I still have A LOT OF TIME to study!

(Let’s try to be as optimistic as my professor! Yay!!)

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LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

 

 

My Favorite Things 007

PARADISE

It’s been four months since I last posted a “My Favorite Things” post, a month since I posted anything, AND 11 days (and counting) late in posting the annual “HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BLOG!!” post, so WHAT IS HAPPENING?!?

Honestly, I’ve been living an almost “one day at a time” existence recently and it is NOT good because I don’t plan ahead, I don’t keep track of my allowance budget, and I can’t remember most of what I did in the recent past. It’s actually very scary to live like this not only because of the same reasons I’ve previously stated, but also because what if I don’t get another tomorrow?

BUT ENOUGH OF THAT! I’m generally alright and happy. I had an exam yesterday which I only started studying for the night before (actually, less than 12 hours before the exam, to be precise). I got to answer most of the items, but I wasn’t able to answer one problem solving item (worth 5 points, I think) and I used the shotgun method on SOME of the multiple choice items. Not my best exam, but not my worst either, so I’m hoping that I still pass. My next exam/s (one final exam and probably one long exam) isn’t/are’t until next Monday, so this week shouldn’t be much of a hell week and I should REALLY start studying for those exams as soon as possible.

Now, moving on to the reason why the title of this post is “My Favorite Things 007″…

1. The Sea Lion

Hmm.. where do I begin? I’ve been wanting to apply since my second year in college, but I was only able to convince my mom to allow me to do so this semester. She didn’t really see why I had to join another organization, but I really wanted to join this one and she eventually gave in with the condition that I don’t let my grades slip because of it.

Never has there been a time wherein I regretted going to their place because it’s always fun to hang out with them, to get to know more about them, and to just chill there. It’s  relatively smaller than my other organization, but that’s one of the things I like about it. My friend’s been telling me how great it is and how it’s like her family in the university since our first year and I’m just really glad to feel how that’s like, even if I’m just an applicant as of writing.

My favorite memory, so far, would be our Timezone adventures (including all the stuff that we do before and after timezone). And, with that, let’s go to..

2. Timezone

Before this semester, I haven’t gone to a Timezone branch around my university, and now, I’ve gone to two. I think the main reason why Timezone is even in here is because of “The Sea Lion”. So rather than “Timezone”, it’s actually “Going to Timezone with friends”.

Right now, my favorite attractions in Timezone would have to be karaoke, “Just Dance”, and the photo booth. I guess this only proves my point that what I like most about Timezone is getting to hang out with my friends AT Timezone. Actually, anywhere is okay as long as I’m with them, to be honest.

3. Bonchon’s Bibimbowl

Recently, I’ve temporarily stopped my no-rice diet (of about 6 or 7 years..?) because I no longer see the point of depriving myself of such delicious rice meals if I’m going to eat pasta and bread anyway, especially since pasta dishes are normally more expensive. Although, after about 2-3 months of that, I’ve gained weight (a lot of weight, I think), so I’m probably going to slowly, but surely, go back to not eating rice.

But during this brief yet wonderful experience of eating rice again, I’ve discovered my fondness for Bonchon’s Bibimbowl! Well, I’ve had the pleasure of eating a LOT of different rice meals recently, but I guess it’s one of the dishes that stood out. It’s got lots of flavors, a hint of spice (The original’s kind of spicy, but the spicy’s just really spicy), and I usually get a serving that’s worth my money.

If you’d like to try it, I’d recommend the Original Chicken Bibimbowl simply because it’s my favorite.

4. The Greatest Showman

Okay, this one’s long overdue! I’ve loved to the soundtrack since January, watched the movie last March, and only including it in my favorite things now.

I immediately fell in love with “This is Me” the first time I heard it. I think I saw the trailer in the cinemas and I thought that I had to search for that song afterwards because it’s such a great song. I forgot to. BUT THEN I saw it in my Facebook feed (yes, I cried while listening to it again and again and.. you get the picture). It’s been a favorite of mine ever since (along with a few others that have equally touched my heart).

The next song I got hooked to was “Never Enough”. At first, I didn’t really get the song, but then I listened to it repeatedly and finally understood the song because of the line “Because darling without you~”. It was only mentioned once in the song, so I must’ve overlooked it at first but then it made the song make sense. Initially, I just thought that the song was about a person who would never be satisfied (Eyy, Angelica Schuyler!!), but then  it’s not. It’s about a person who, without her loved one, would never be satisfied. Coincidentally, it’s very similar to my other favorite song “Loser of The Year”. How hopeless of a romantic am I?

I could go on and on about why I like all the other songs in the soundtrack, but then I have a class at 2:30 pm, so I can’t. Though, My top 5 favorite songs from the soundtrack would have the two I’ve already talked about above, A Million Dreams, The Greatest Show, and “Rewrite The Stars”.

If you haven’t listened to it, you SHOULD listen to it. Right now. Like..

NOW.

You’re welcome haha.

5. The Sims 2

The first time I played Sims was way back my childhood days because a neighbor of mine had it installed and we all went to his house to play. We made a playmates family of sorts and that was really fun.

Then, I convinced my parents to get it installed in our computer, too, and it was. I got addicted to at during 2nd grade, I think, so it had to be uninstalled.

Basically, I kind of have an on-off relationship with Sims 2 because we install it every other year, then eventually uninstall it afterwards. I thought of installing it again after my roommate installed it in her laptop about a month ago, so I don’t know until when we’d have it installed.

It’s actually a really nice game to play if you like building houses and controlling people (because it’s literally a simulation you control). But at some point, I guess, you just realize that your sim has a life and you don’t, so you just feel the need to stop. Well, just personal experience, I guess. This time, I think I’ve reached that point multiple times, but I just stop playing. I still don’t know when we’d uninstall it.

6. Kopiko 78

This is a TOP NECESSITY for all-nighters, which I’ve been pulling off rather frequently nowadays. It doesn’t always work, but it usually helps me get stuff done before I do eventually fall asleep.

You shouldn’t drink more than a bottle within 12 hours though (my personal rule) because it can also cause palpitation.

And you probably shouldn’t drink it (even a bottle) when you know you’re going to see your crush either, for the same reason.

7. B’lue

I’ve actually been drinking this frequently since last semester since it helps me overcome that “wanting to vomit” feeling I usually feel when I drink coffee, during the early hours of the morning, and during the commute I take going to school. I’m including it only now because I think I’ve been drinking it more than I drink water (which is bad) and it’s really refreshing, especially when you drink it cold.

The Lychee variant is a personal favorite of mine.

 

There you have it – 7 of my favorite things right now! I really should list down possible stuff to include in this segment  of my blog because it’s been FOUR whole months since I last posted the previous one and I only have 7!

I’m probably going to post a “Happy birthday, blog” post soon (and by that I mean hopefully in 2-3 weeks). I tried writing one last week, but I couldn’t really write a proper one at the time. My blog is SIX YEARS OLD now, so I think I’d have to do better than that.

IT’S ALREADY THE LAST DAYS OF THE SEMESTER AND I KNOW I’M GOING TO HAVE TO TAKE ANOTHER SEMESTER OF ONE OF MY MAJORS! I just learned that I failed my 3rd exam of Engineering Economics (I’m really sad tbh), but I’m not giving up on it or any of my other classes, really. I love my course I’m taking and the university I’m enrolled in. I’m going to survive this semester and I’m going to finish strong.

If I can do it, you can too! Don’t give up!

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Flash Post 031: White

Today, the sky is completely white (the proper term would be “cloudy af”, I think) and it’s so cold everywhere and I realized that I really dislike this kind of weather.

My classes for Wednesdays and Fridays end at 12 noon and 10 am, respectively, and I should really plan out what I do after class because now I’m very hyper, because of the coffee I drank earlier, and super unproductive.

I had planned to study, but it seems that I’ll be doing that a bit later. Everyone’s so busy with a lot of things and I know I should be busy, too, but here I am writing a blog post for my personal blog.

I’m only starting to learn more about my course from my majors, so it’s not that bad if I don’t know what to do for the rest of my life yet. I know I want to pursue a master’s degree after graduating and I want to make a positive impact on the world, but that’s pretty much it for now.

And I don’t know how I’m going to manage that because I don’t have anything legit to put on my resume, my time management and work ethics need A LOT of improvement, and I don’t have any other skills aside from writing which I’m not even that good at in the first place.

The weather is so depressing and I don’t know how the rest of my day will go but life is still very much beautiful and I’m glad to be alive.

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

Flash Post 030: I NEED TO SLEEP

Tomorrow is the first day of my second semester being a third year student and I’m having a hard time sleeping. It’s like the night before a field trip when you’re feeling excited and nervous at the same time. I’m super excited to start a brand new semester with new professors, new classmates, and a new schedule (which isn’t half bad, really), but I’m also nervous because of the same reasons.. new semester.. new professors.. new classmates.. new schedule. AND A NEW DORM! Ugh too many new things! Can I have another week to process all this?

Of course not.

So here I am, trying to express myself, through writing, to let go of some of my thoughts and feelings. I need to sleep soon cause’ I don’t want to sleep in class ON MY FIRST DAY.. or in the coming days. I want to break that habit, so I need to get proper sleep at least tonight.

But that’s probably not happening.

Starting tomorrow, I won’t be going to the same dorm I’ve stayed in since I was in first year, I’ll be following a different schedule which means I’ll have to adapt to this new schedule sooner or later, and I’ll probably be missing my schedule, classmates, and professors from last semester and the Christmas break that has come to past.

But it’ll work out – that I’m sure of! I just need to fix the things I need for tomorrow before going to bed and take ALL OF THIS one step at a time.

Let me end this post with a few of my favorite verses and some cute motivational .gif’s! As always, I am proud to be a Roman Catholic and whether or not you have the same religious beliefs, I respect you. So I ask you to do the same for me. Thank you and let’s all spread love and happiness!! ❤

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LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

The Start of the BEST CHRISTMAS BREAK Ever!!

I am FINALLY done with the first semester of my third year in college!!!

Honestly, this semester has been a sort of messy mix of a lot of things. There were times I just wanted to get it over with, but there were also times I felt that it was time was going too fast – I wanted more time and I didn’t want some things to end. I guess part of the reason why it felt faster than it should’ve was because there were simply too many suspension of classes. I think cumulatively, we had about 3-4 weeks of no classes this semester and that’s A LOT of days.

I liked my schedule, my professors, and the groups of classmates I had for this semester. They were all great and I wouldn’t have preferred to have it any other way. Sure, I had this one class where we didn’t meet for about 2 MONTHS, but we ended up with substitute professors who were wonderful in their own ways. I had a class that was sandwiched between two majors, so I had to go from one building to another, then back, but, most times, I don’t regret not cancelling that class. What I thought would be really hassle Tuesday’s and Thursday’s turned out to be my favorite days of the week for this semester.

Actually, I think about that quite a lot. There’s a lot of things that could’ve gone differently if I had done some things in another way. I know it’s like that for everything, but I especially felt it during this semester. It’s true even for seemingly minor decisions at the time – one thing led to another and now, it’s a bunch of things. I can be a very impulsive person who acts purely upon emotions, but I can also be the type of person who plans everything out and over thinks EVERY LITTLE THING. I don’t always get to choose which kind of person I am, most of the time, so I think by now you understand how a little thing could’ve resulted to an EXTREMELY DIFFERENT SEMESTER!

I say that and I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t also think about what it’d be like, but I’m pretty happy with how the semester was. As I said, I had a great schedule, great professors, and great groups of classmates, so thinking about those kinds of things is unnecessary. I’m super thankful for all of that and for the continuous love and support I receive from my family and friends. Honestly, I couldn’t have survived this semester if not for all of them, so thank you, Lord, for blessing me with so many great people in my life.

I’ve also learned a lot of things from this semester, as you could notice from Flash Post 018: Things I Probably Shouldn’t Do Again..Flash Post 25: And The List Goes On.., and a lot of my other previous posts. It’d do me good to remember all these things and other stuff, but I think I’d forget it at some point, so I need to tag those posts here.

So much for this semester. Overall, I’m very happy that it’s over. I’ve got AT MOST 2 years and a semester more in college, so here’s to closing this chapter of my life and ALMOST starting a new one (let’s save that for my new year’s post haha).

Before then, I have A LOT of RiverdaleThe FlashShokugeki no Soma, etc. to watch over the break.

I hope you’re all doing great cause’ you’re amazing human beings and you deserve nothing less. This will be one of my many December posts and I’m looking forward to it.



I’m the girl, you’re the guy. What am I allowed to do?

You already know how I feel, so it’s up to you.

It’s one-sided. I’m selfish. But I want to see you.

I can find ways, but should I? What am I supposed to do?

 

But, as I wrote on my exam, I’m a “smart, strong, independent woman” who loves herself more, so this isn’t me desperately trying to ask someone for their time, rather, it’s me trying to figure out how “getting to know” works and what “opportunities” mean when I’m the type of person who can plan and make things happen if I really want to.

I’m a smart, strong, independent woman and whether or not we get to meet during this break, I’m going to have the BEST Christmas break of my life and I’m really more than just a girl who likes you.

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

 

Update: I’m starting to think that, although he knows, it’s still very much one-sided on my part. Of course it is. And maybe he’s just that type of person and I get that. I really do! We’re all some sort of person with our own personality and attitude and all that. But the least that anyone could do is…

Hmmm.. I don’t want to rant about him here because I like him and it’s one-sided and I just think it’s unfair to write about him negatively in public because he’s just really being him and I don’t want to rant about anyone who’s just being who they are.