How To Get Your S**t Together 101

For a girl who’s planned her life when she was grade six, I think I’m doing an awful job at time management and planning my day-to-day activities. See, in theory, it’s fairly easy to plan things out, but in reality, it’s really difficult tot actually execute those plans. I’m taking up a course that aims for “efficiency and effectiveness” all the while being this inefficient and ineffective person that I am. HA.

I’ve realized this for quite some time now –  this happens every semester. No, actually, it gets worse every time. So, I decided to search previous posts by looking up “how to get your shit together”. And here’s what came up!

September 6,2014: “The Art of Getting By”

“How can you fight yourself into feeling okay and getting by life? I find it really hard to make everything seem fine when all that pessimism, sadness, and loneliness is just steps behind me. I’m starting to sleep during classes again and I feel that my grades are dropping. I hate myself. Ugh.

I have to be the person I want myself to be. Someone independent, responsible, intellectual, and strong. Someone people would look up to, someone trustworthy. By the looks of it, I have a lot of improvements to do. I really need to get a grip and do my best. It’s better to do everything now, while I can, rather than regret the things I failed to do.”


December 20, 2015: “Picking Yourself Up”

“Then after that period, I have the period which I would like to call “getting my shit together” period where I pick myself up and work again towards who I want to be- a strong and independent woman who knows what she wants to achieve and does everything to get it. I’m a long way to go from that dream, but I guess by taking one step at a time, it’s possible.

What do I do during that period? Well, first of all, I clean up. I can’t work in such a messy place. I list down everything I need to do and plan it all out. I make a realistic execution plan, a one with breaks in between studying and being productive. I try my best to make time for everything important to me, not only academics but also friends, family, and myself.”


November 20, 2016: “Dancing on a Rainy Day”

It’s not easy, at all, but I’m faking it till’ I make it- till’ I make myself believe that I understand the lessons and that I can do it. It’s actually working because instead of giving up completely at the sight of limits and natural logarithms, I treat it as a challenge and hype myself up by accepting it.

I’ve forgotten how my attitude towards things have a huge impact in my life- to my future. I’m really stubborn and forgetful, so it’s difficult for me to learn from my mistakes. It’s hard to change. I can’t explain it very well, but I guess we all have some aspects of ourselves that we want to improve, so I guess you get my point. But as the quote goes, “If you want something you’ve never had, you’ve got to do something you’ve never done”. Aside from faking it, taking the first step to becoming a better version of yourself is another thing you should do to be able to change for the better.

I admit that I wasn’t able to do my best this semester. I gave myself too many breaks because I thought I deserved it after a tiring day. During some trials, I thought I couldn’t do it so I let myself give up. And that’s not right. The past me, both elementary and high school would be disappointed with how I am now. And this is not how I want myself to be. I’ve always dreamed to become a very successful, smart, strong, and independent woman in the future. I really need to get my shit together.

So yes, I need to learn how to dance in the rain- to be positive amidst life’s challenges. I have to figure out how to prioritize things and manage my time more wisely. I need to venture through the different opportunities of how I can follow my passion in writing and how to grow as a writer, despite the several things I see as nuisances and hindrances to it. In rainy days like this, pessimism isn’t going to help, so might as well be this positive idiot than be down about it.


April 19, 2017: “Make it or break it”

“It’s really difficult to do for a person like me for a lot of reasons, such as being distracted easily and terrible sleeping habits. I failed yesterday, I succeeded today, and I’ll try again tomorrow.

I guess life’s just really like that, full of fluctuations and ups and downs. The important part is to never give up because once you’ve considered giving up or settling for less than the goals that you’ve been aiming for, then you’d be stuck with that mindset. I admit that I’m stubborn and I forget this a lot, but I just can’t give up on this semester. I can’t let my parents and myself down. I can’t afford to fail any classes, again.

So, I’m still overweight, sleepy, awkward, poor in time management, stubborn, forgetful, too easy on myself, and the like. But I’m also a work in progress and, despite all the negative stuff about me, I’d say there’s some good points, too. I believe in myself that I can overcome the challenges I’m facing with God’s help and I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me and that He has a plan for me. Without Him, I am nothing, and with Him, nothing is impossible.

I hope you’re having a great day and if you’re troubled with your own challenges, trust in God and do your best! Never give up! And don’t forget to share the love! ❤”


May 23, 2017: “A Tablespoon of one big mess~”

  1. ‘Time management is key’ AF
  2. Study. EVERYDAY FREAKING DAY.
  3. Take GENUINE interest in what you’re learning.
  4. Make time for you and your passions, too.
  5. Take a daily dose of positivity!
  6. Spend your money wisely. 

 

There you have it! FIVE posts from my past self that can hopefully teach me a thing or two about getting my shit together. Honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever had it as together as I’d like it to be, but I’d say it’s such a mess right now.. I don’t even know :(.

It’s been more than five years since I made this blog and I’d like to think that I’ve changed a lot since then (mostly positive change? haha). But really, I feel like I’m losing some of the good aspects of my previous self and I just feel sad. I’m not her anymore and she’s not me. So who am I?

And if I don’t know who I am, then what am I supposed to do now?

Fk.

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE. (STAY SANE).

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Flash Post 020: Is this blog even mine?

Because I keep writing about someone else.. 😦



I don’t know what I’m gonna do ’bout me liking you,

See, I think about you ALL THE TIME –  it’s distracting.

Should I stop this – just be friends? Is that what I should do?

Or should I keep this up – see what the future will bring?



I’d love to continue this poem, but I’ve only allotted 15 minutes for writing this and my time’s almost up. I think about the guy too much already, so I can’t let thoughts of him take up more of my time.

I should probably just stop this cos’, rather than him being just a happy crush, it’s become a sort of infatuation wherein I over think too much and it’s getting really.. alarming.

I think I’m allowed to post this since it’s highly unlikely that he’d read this and, even if he does, I doubt that he’d care.

Since, in his perspective, this poem isn’t for him and he’s not the person that I like.

Am I making sense? Well, sometimes it’s alright not to.

Well, he’s that sort of person – ever so slightly oblivious – but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t care.

I guess, he just doesn’t know.

Or does he?

Probably not, but who knows?

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LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

 

P.S.

Dad, if you’re reading this, please don’t talk to me about it. If you do, I will change my URL or stop this blog and move to some other blog website. I swear.

Flash Post 018: Things I Probably Shouldn’t Do Again..

Well, I’m at the school library once again. And I just passed my homework that was given a WEEK before which I only tried answering today. I know it’s horrible and I’m such a mess right now. Thinking about it- when am I not a mess? HA. I should really get my shit together if I plan on getting through college and life.

AND THAT IS WHY I’M WRITING THIS POST!! I’m really stubborn, forgetful, and horrible at time management and prioritizing, SO I’m gonna try to list down the stuff I should never do again in this lifetime.. Well, they’re more like do it again AT YOUR OWN RISK stuff, really. To clarify, these are things we should NEVER do.. They’re not resolutions; they’re a list of “at least never mess up this much in life again”.

I AM NEVER…

  1. Cramming a week’s worth of problem exercises in 4 hours….
  2. Studying for TWO exams I’m gonna take on the same day.. the night/morning before….
  3. Cramming a lot of lecture’s worth of info.. in one night (give or take 12 hours..)….
  4. Drinking more than 2 servings of coffee in less than 12 hours….
  5. Cramming a writing assignment, given WEEKS BEFORE, a few minutes before its deadline….
  6. Attempting to binge watch an anime with 24 EPISODES within a day….
  7. Sleeping through a whole 2-hour/3-hour lecture class….
  8. Getting a sprain because my crush and I just passed by each other….
  9. Cramming for a recitation class by studying an e-book in my phone ON THE JEEPNEY RIDE TO SAID CLASS….
  10. Reading A READING THAT ISN’T THE SCHEDULED ONE during my service as a lector….
  11. Eating too much of something in such a little period of time….
  12. Spending A LOT OF MONEY and shipping stuff to someone I don’t even personally know…. who’s staying in ANOTHER COUNTRY….
  13. Taking another semester of Engineering Drawing (I passed already tho lmao)….
  14. Writing a blog post about how I thought my close friend was getting in the way of me getting in a certain section (which ended up with us not being as close as before)….
  15. Cutting a class to try enlisting in another class THAT HAS A SEPARATE DISCUSSION CLASS WITH TIME SLOTS THAT DO NOT FIT MY SCHEDULE…..
  16. …..

EVER AGAIN!!

Okay, that’s 15 + “….”  things. All things considered, I’d say it’s only a few of the things I’ve done that I should never do again. I’m a human being– a really messy one at that– so this much is understandable, I think. Well, I’m a work in progress and I sure hope I can remember to not do all those things again.

That’s it for this Flash Post (in the library 002), I guess haha. Till’ next time~!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE



To my parents, if you’re reading this, yes I know I’ve made a lot of terrible mistakes. But I’m working on it and these things just take time. I’ll make you proud. I promise.

Me when I found out that the homework was due today:

Me whenever I think I’ve successfully talked to someone:

Me most of the time:

My crush (hihi):

Me to my crush:

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Probably..

 

W02Y03

Two weeks into the semester of my third year in college and I’m alright. I still have my sanity intact and I haven’t fucked up, last time I checked. I don’t really intend to fuck up this semester, or any semester (past and future) for that matter. Sometimes, I just do. But I’ll try my hardest not to this semester onward… Well, rather I’ll try my best this semester onward haha.

I’ve just recently realized that binge watching The Flash during weekdays (AND weekends) isn’t such a good idea. It basically just replaced KDrama and anime as my “Ah lemme give myself some slack during dinner” bad habit. I love the series and I love the characters and I love the plot (well, I’m kinda if-y about it rn), but I have to study and practice more, especially since I’m taking the subject that I dropped last semester and re-taking a class that I failed last semester, too. I’m already in season three tho so I might binge watch it this long weekend HAHAHA… after studying ;).

Lately, I’ve been feeling more “out of place” at a certain place. Hmm well I’ve never really felt “in place” at that certain place, but I think I’ve forgotten how it felt like ’till now. I mean, there are times when I feel like I belong there and I love being part of something as great as that group, but during regular days, it’s just a bit depressing. A friend of mine asked me if I’d join the same group if I had a choice (time travel or something) and when I first thought about it, I couldn’t imagine not joining that group because of how long I’ve been part of it. It’s not an “no”, but it’s not a definite answer either. But now my answer would be a “yes”, but I would probably change most of the stuff I did wrong and didn’t do in the past. I’m not asking for an out, just a redo. But that isn’t possible now either. I guess all I can do now is to adapt (which is a REALLY hard thing to do) and to improve myself. How I feel about that place isn’t their fault AT ALL, it’s just me and I need to do something about it.

Also, for this post, I wanted to appreciate all the people in my life. First of all, I’d like to thank my family. Yes, we fight A LOT (we’ve been fighting more recently), but no matter how intense and hurtful and hurt we can get, I love them so much and I can’t imagine a life without them. (I tried not crying while writing that, but I failed.)

Secondly, I’d like to also thank my best friends, especially my best guy friend and my best friend who stays with me even though she knows that there is never a moment where I’m “calm, cool, collected” (there’s just messy and really f*cking messy), for keeping me relatively sane. Although I don’t get to see most of them often, I make the time to chat with them and invite them to hang out cos I’m clingy af.

Thirdly, a big “thank you” to the people I’m not that close with (See, I’d consider them all friends, but I don’t know if they feel the same way) but who make everyday more enjoyable. Thank you for letting me ride with you to places, for letting me drag you to spontaneous dinners, for helping me with school works, for having delightful conversations with me, and for making the walk to class less tiring and actually fun.

I’m very grateful to these people and extremely thankful for having been blessed with such amazing people in my life. So for the last (but certainly not the least) thank you, I’d like to thank God for these people and for guiding and protecting and blessing me every single day. I commit sins and make mistakes, but I am a child of God and I believe in His word. Things might seem difficult, right now, but God has a bright future planned for me and I’m going to trust Him.

So there you have it! My supposed flash post that became the basic summary of how my life rn is going. I know I swore a lot, then ended with a very religious paragraph. See, I haven’t sworn off swearing completely, but verbally, I’m swearing a bit less haha.

Before I end this post, let me just include some gifs cos I love how I can include gifs in my posts now XD.

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I hope you have a great day and amazing life cos you deserve it!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE



Note: I guess I’m addicted to gifs now HAHAHA. *Insert stuff I can’t include here.. here”. And, if you’re still reading, I made the title “W02Y03” cos it’s the second week of my third year and I’ve been binge watching flash XD.

Also, if you’re not Christian, I completely respect your religious views and I hope you do the same for mine. LET’S SHARE LOVE AND HAPPINESS TO EVERYONE!!!

 

Flash Post 015: Summer Rant

Summer isn’t exactly going the way I planned. But then again, what does?

Summer term classes are alright. It’s a bit challenging for me because of the mindset that it’s supposed to be SUMMER. I end up spending more time watching Korean drama or movies,  sleeping way to early, and waking up WAY to late. The bed seems more appealing than usual, even though I’m not all that tired. It’s not like I’ve cut class or anything, I was just almost late ONCE. But it’s still unusual because I usually wake up at least two hours before my first class. NOT 45 minutes.

Besides school, I’m still experiencing a terrible case of writer’s block. It’s been 19 days since I last posted an entry in this blog and I’m really inactive in my Wattpad account. And it’s just really sad. It’s summer and I love writing, so why can’t I write? I need to learn more about how to write better and to actually write.

I still haven’t loss any weight. Due to my schedule, I can’t go to the gym, so I need properly stick to my diet and to get more exercise. I don’t exactly know how to do that, yet. But I want to skate and to be able to do that right, I need to be healthier and more fit.

And it’s just a bit saddening to still be me while other people are evolving and doing great in life. Just a thought.

(Note: So summer’s kinda sad, right now, but it’s gonna be alright and I’m alright. I’ll make sure my next post is a lot more positive and decent than this haha.)

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

Puzzles

Have you ever just let yourself laze around with feeling only a slight tinge of guilt? Well that’s basically what I’ve been doing since last Thursday, right after I pass my final requirement for last semester. I’ve gotten my grades for all but one class, but I know my grade in that class, anyway. So, I’ve passed 6 out of my 8 classes last semester (well, 4/6 if you don’t count PE and community service) and, honestly, that’s better than the worst case scenario I had in mind. I’m sad that I didn’t pass all of them, but I really had a hard time this semester, especially with those two classes, so I’ve accepted it already and I’m just gonna have to take them again.

So, I’ve done nothing “productive”, in particular this past weekend. I’ve been trying to install a game that I’ve wanted to play for such a long time. But for some reason, it wouldn’t work, so I’ve given up on it. I’m a bit pissed cos I really wanted to play it, but life goes on and I need to work on mine. YES, I’m writing this post cause’ I can’t play the game. NO, I won’t be trying to install the game again. YES, my several failed attempts to install the game served as a wake up call for me to get my shit together, even though it’s technically summer.

What am I planning to do this summer? I don’t really know, yet. I guess I’d want to try going on a diet, again, to lose weight. Exercise a bit. Try becoming more of an adult cause’ I’m almost not a teenager. Write as much as I can, both in this blog and in my Wattpad account. Learn new skills, both practical and not-so-practical. Paint more and try digital art. And spend time with my family and friends.

Why am I writing all that down here? It’s my blog. It’s been my blog for five years and counting. And I just need to get my act together, so I’m writing it all down. Here.

So, I guess that’s that. Hopefully, I’ll be able to write again this week. I’m probably going to post “My Favorite Things 003” soon, so stay tuned. Or not. HAHAHA.

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

(Note: The title of this post is “Puzzles” cos it’s better than my initial idea, “Sh*t Gathering”, and I just think that I need to put the myself back together again. NOT GOING THROUGH ANYTHING. JUST ONE HUGE MESS OF A HUMAN BEING. BUT EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT.)

Also, a sneak peek of my next post (aka what I’ve been doing with my summer, so far)

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