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Twenty Eighteen

Happy new year to everyone!! I know it’s already the fourth day of the “new year”, so I’m kind of late with my greeting, but I didn’t want to post something rushed and crappy for my first post this 2018, so I decided to take my time to gather my thoughts and to feel inspired and motivated to face the year.

And after four days, here I am! I won’t be writing about the year that was simply because I’ve already written 47 posts about how my days went down and I’d very much like to close that chapter of  my life already, keeping the memories I cherish and lessons I’ve learned with me.

I’m turning TWENTY this year and, as much as I’d like to not turn TWENTY, it can’t be helped. I’m going to turn a year older and it just so happens that I’ve already spent 19 years in this world. I can’t really say I’ve done much during those years, but I’m currently studying in my dream university taking up a course I never really planned on taking but I now have come to like, so I’d say I spent generally most of those years in a not-so-bad way.

The year I turned 18 years old, I realized that the whole excitement of getting to throw a huge celebration and becoming legal is a trap. Yes, A TRAP. People suddenly expected me to become mature, to act like an adult, and all that. Let me just say that I’m a bit slower to become mature compared to other people, so all those years of being a teenager didn’t quite prepare me for these sudden expectations. It’s a bit scary, really, but I’m slowly getting my shit together and trying to do the right thing in situations. I would like to thank my parents, most especially, for loving and caring for me despite this “phase” I’m going through. Even I think I’m too old to be going through a phase, but I don’t really remember going through a legit rebellious phase during high school, so maybe this is it? I don’t know, but hopefully I’ll get through it as soon as possible.

I’ve decided that this year, Twenty Eighteen, is my year. Even before the clock struck 12, I’ve skimmed through a lot of posts and tweets about how this year is going to be the year of a lot of people and I think it’s great to start that year with that mindset – with a winning and positive attitude that we’re going to slay this year. I also admire the “new year, new me” attitude because I think a lot of people really want to change how they are as a person, their perspective on something, or even an aspect of their personality and what better time to start it than the beginning of another year, am I right? But let’s remember that every day is a new day and you don’t need a new year to decide that you’re going to change something about yourself and it’s okay to have fluctuations every now and then – the important thing is that you keep striving to become a better version of yourself. So if you’ve kind of given up on this year already, please don’t because it’s just the 4th day and I believe you can still do it.

That being said, I’d like to start and end the year with my head held up high and with that mindset. I admit that I’ve got a lot to work on with regard to myself and that I have ways to go in being the woman I want to become in the future, that smart, strong, independent woman I wrote about in one of my exams last year, but I’m a work-in-progress and every little step counts.

I’ve decided that my word of the year is Challenge. For this year, I’d like to challenge myself to get out of my comfort zone, to take risks and invest in things that would help me grow and become a better version of myself, to push myself to my limits, and to go above and beyond what I’m expected to do. It’s not an easy task and I’m going to take the whole year (or more) to accomplish it, but nothing great is ever achieved easily. And in the this year and my life revolve around God because when you entrust your life to Him, you are saved and He will reveal the wonderful future he has in store for you in His time.

So there you have it! This post might have been three days late, but I couldn’t have written this any sooner. I guess sometimes you just gotta take your time and take things slow.

Cheers to another amazing year ahead of us!! Let this year be another year of living life, laughing at simple things, and loving God, others, and of course, yourself!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

Make it or break it

I’m down to my last month (more or less) of second year and I’m really gonna need to get my shit together to finish this semester without failing any classes. I really can’t mess up after two failed exams in both Math and Engineering Methods in Mathematics, a failed exam in Engineering Drawing (BUT HEY, ON AVERAGE, I’M STILL PASSING!), and two horrible horrible academic essays in College English. I’d admit that this was a really challenging semester, surprisingly even more challenging than the past two semesters. But with hard work, perseverance, determination, dedication, patience, … , and, most especially, God’s help, I know I can still save my grades this semester.

They say that the first step in overcoming a weakness is awareness and acceptance. With that said, let me just say that I cheated on my diet again this week and I feel horrible. How the first sentence is related to the second? They’re probably not (HAHA), but the point is that I’m aware and I accept that I’m overweight and that I need to lose a lot of pounds to attain the “normal” weight range for my age and height. To do so, I need to strictly follow a diet and to regularly exercise. It’s hard af cos of the stress due to schoolworks and also cos of the lack of time for exercise. I tried yesterday, I failed today, and I’ll try again tomorrow. I know and accept that I sleep in class more often than I’d admit and that causes me to lag behind lessons. So that fact, along with my poor time management, is the root cause of my dilemmas. I need to be more attentive in class and to fix my priorities to catch up with my classes. It’s really difficult to do for a person like me for a lot of reasons, such as being distracted easily and terrible sleeping habits. I failed yesterday, I succeeded today, and I’ll try again tomorrow.

I guess life’s just really like that, full of fluctuations and ups and downs. The important part is to never give up because once you’ve considered giving up or settling for less than the goals that you’ve been aiming for, then you’d be stuck with that mindset. I admit that I’m stubborn and I forget this a lot, but I just can’t give up on this semester. I can’t let my parents and myself down. I can’t afford to fail any classes, again.

So, I’m still overweight, sleepy, awkward, poor in time management, stubborn, forgetful, too easy on myself, and the like. But I’m also a work in progress and, despite all the negative stuff about me, I’d say there’s some good points, too. I believe in myself that I can overcome the challenges I’m facing with God’s help and I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me and that He has a plan for me. Without Him, I am nothing, and with Him, nothing is impossible.

I hope you’re having a great day and if you’re troubled with your own challenges, trust in God and do your best! Never give up! And don’t forget to share the love! ❤

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

(Note: This is the most decent and inspiring post I’ve written in a very long time and I’m so happy cos of it. This month would be a challenging one, especially with me trying to save my grades and my sanity, but I’ll fight a good fight and do my best. 🙂

Also, if you have a different religion with different beliefs, please know that I respect those beliefs and I’m just stating what believe in. I’m not pushing anything on you, so please respect my religion and beliefs as well. Have a nice day~)