Flash Post 041: FrIEday

I have to take a removals exam this Friday for a class I didn’t quite pass (nor fail) last last semester (basically the second semester of my third year). It’s a pass or fail exam – If I pass/fail the exam, I pass/fail the class. When I had learned I had to take the removals exam, I kind of told myself that I’d progressively study for it, but here I am cramming for the exam a few days before, once again.

I find the need to write because I feel super stressed out about it (which could have been avoided, just saying) and I don’t think I can study properly with this kind of mindset. Honestly, the mindset I have right now is the mindset of someone who has already failed an exam she hasn’t even taken yet, who has lost a battle she hasn’t even fought. AND I CANNOT HAVE THAT KIND OF MINDSET, ESPECIALLY RIGHT NOW.

If you’ve been reading my posts (which I don’t really expect you to do), you’d know that I made a pretty huge mistake when I gave up on a certain class last last semester. It was only the second exam and I just gave up entirely. I still attended classes, of course, but I was asleep for most of it and I couldn’t find the motivation to study for it. Obviously, I ended up regretting that decision of mine because now I won’t be graduating on time. There’s no shame in that, really, because I believe that people should go at their own pace and that everyone has their own timeline, but it really could’ve been avoided.

Now, I’ve never passed a single exam in the class I need to take a removals exam for. NOT A SINGLE ONE. But giving up now would not only cause a domino effect in the future (which would only worsen the situation I’m in right now) but it would also mean that I gave up before even trying AGAIN. It would mean that I took the seemingly easier way out now (which would be giving up) to only suffer the probably horrible consequences later on.

I am seriously trying to grasp any sort of motivation right now to motivate me enough to study for my exam. I’m thinking that maybe this will finally be the exam that I will pass in that class. Maybe I can score even higher than the score I need to pass just to prove that I can do more than what’s expected of me. Maybe I’m more than what I give myself credit for. I don’t know.

It’s the end of the post and I’m still really struggling with my mindset. I need to pass this exam, but if I’m going to pass it, I need to believe that I can pass it.

Resulta ng larawan para sa for with god, nothing is impossible




Flash Post 039: Deductively Valid Arguments

It’s 2:40 in the morning and I am once again studying for an exam that I will be taking on the same day. Good morning!

I am surprisingly doing better than I expected in my Philosophy classes. I can still do better than this though. A lot better.

There’s a guy in my Logic class who got perfect scores in the diagnostic exam before our professor taught us anything (about the course) and in the mock exam that we took yesterday. What a dude!

I am writing this post because I need to stay awake until I finish at least till’ my sixth reading, so that I could finish the four remaining readings (all related to each other) in the later (the legit morning that I recognize because right now is just “late-r night”).

Some of my friends are graduating and I’m really really happy for them. Seeing them graduate and succeed makes me feel a messy mix of envy, shock, and admiration. At my current academic standing, it’s almost impossible for me to attain Latin honors when I graduate, but I kind of still want to despite the odds.

I have a midterm exam tomorrow in my logic class (which is the exam that I am currently studying for) and I have to write a midterm paper for my other Philosophy class due Sunday night. For the midterm of a summer term, this is pretty do-able compared to last year (probably because I took Calculus and Sociology last year).

I am still working on my next “My Favorite Things” post and I’m kind of happy that it’ll have a lot of content that I actually really enjoy nowadays when it’s done.

I sometimes wonder why and how I’m such an inefficient person despite being a student taking up a course that stands for efficiency and effectiveness.

I have one serious crush and a few happy crushes. I’m still very much happy with seriously crushing on that one guy though. But it’s also fun having  happy crushes, especially when you have a friend who has the same taste as you and there’s absolutely no awkwardness.

I really need to lose weight because I want to try ice skating again and I gained weight over the past few months. Argh. Also, I want to fit in those pretty dresses on sale that I see whenever I go to the mall.

Why can’t I just be like those people who eat A LOT but never gain any weight/never get fat?

It’s 3:00 and I have to get back to studying. Till’ next time~!!