I have faults, faults that can break me in a matter of seconds, when intensely shaken. Of course I’d have faults, I’m a human being, after all, but I thought I’ve already learned how to live with them, with how I am. What can I possibly do to stop this earthquake within me?

Despite that seemingly deep introduction, this post is mostly just a rant post about the things I suck at. Well, I’m not going to humiliate and depress myself by listing all of it down, but I am going to name a few, that had just been recently proven, such as delivering a speech (how?), Math (oh the horror), and *drum roll* socializing with people (though I’d say I’m slowly but surely improving).

I want improve myself, especially in my weak points, but how do I do that exactly? Well, there are numerous ways on how I can probably do it, one step at a time. I don’t really know why I’m writing this here, but eh, if you have weaknesses that you want to improve on, too, then I hope these (sort of) tips help us both:

  1. Accept and know your weaknesses.
  2. Challenge yourself to improve on these weaknesses (having an actual reason/reasons for doing this would help motivate you).
  3. Learn how you can overcome these weaknesses (through asking for advice from your friends, searching it up on Google, or simply realizing them yourself).
  4. Actually take action on the information that you’ve gathered (this step will be pretty hard at first, but I guess when you get used to it, it’ll become easier).
  5. Evaluate your progress every now and then (there’s always more points to improve on while in the process of learning how to deal with faults, so check on those, but don’t forget to give yourself a pat on the back for doing a good job).

These steps are really better said than done (hahaha), but that’s the basics, I guess. I hope it kinda helped you though. Tomorrow is always a new day, so if you want something you’ve never had, you have to do something you’ve never done (a combination of two quotes haha).

Bye for now. ♥


Alone & Free

(Note: This post is mainly for those who aren’t/who have never been in a relationship before. If you’re in a relationship and reading this, I don’t think you’d be able to relate to it. I’m sure I have other posts for you. And if you don’t agree with my thoughts, opinions and feelings about the matter, I can respect that, really. I’d appreciate it if you could respect mine, too. 🙂 )

 Nowadays, it’s pretty common to have a boyfriend/girlfriend at a very young age. It could be for a lot of reasons, too. It could be because all your friends have one and you don’t or because both of you are really happy with each other’s company and genuinely care for one another. And for those people who are in a relationship, whatever the reason may be, I’m really glad that you guys have had the opportunity to go out with someone. I hope that yours is a healthy relationship filled with love, trust, communication, understanding, and the like.

On the other hand, personally, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with not being in a relationship, either. Not having a boyfriend/girlfriend doesn’t really have to make you any less than those who do. I believe that all human beings can be strong, independent, amazing, and especially, complete, on their own.

Sure there are plenty of reasons why one might stay single, like not wanting to be in a relationship, at the moment, commitment issues, bad experiences from the past, or, plainly, not fancying anyone/not being courted by anyone.Whatever the reason is, a person must love and understand oneself first before being together with another person.

If you think you’re not ready for a relationship, right now, then take your time. There’s no need to rush, really. And wouldn’t it be better to be in a relationship when your comfortable that you can handle it? If you think you’re too busy for one, then maybe talk to your partner about it. Despite the busy schedules, maybe you guys could work something out. If not, then maybe now’s not the right time. If you’ve dated before and you were left heartbroken, it’s fine to take your time to heal and move on. Take your time exploring the world and finding value within yourself. And if you don’t fancy anyone/not being courted by anyone, don’t you dare think lowly about yourself. So what if you don’t like anyone? So what if no one’s courting you? Don’t push yourself to fit into society’s standards. I’m sure you’ll meet someone someday somewhere somehow, that will love you for who you really are. And until that time comes, be the best that you can be. Be with someone that makes you happy.

For one, Romantic (comedy) movies, romance novels, and shoujo anime/manga really boost up one’s hormones for relationships and love. It’s doing what it’s supposed to do which is to make us hoity-toity (meaning: thoughtless giddy behavior) and probably more knowledgeable about the complex topic that is “love”. Despite all of that, you’ve got to remember that it’s all FICTION (sorry for being a buzzkill, but it means: not real). I’m sure, in one way or another, there’s truth in those stuff, but most of  it’s circumstances are pretty unrealistic. And to those who love those kind of stuff, I didn’t mean to offend you, at all. Honestly, I’m really guilty of loving those kind of stuff, so much, as you would probably notice in my “Interests” and “Seasons” pages.

Ah wow, I hope I got my point across without offending anybody. Who am I to talk about these things anyway? Up until now, I’ve never had a boyfriend, nor did I have anyone confess to me (well, setting aside that one time.. we were just kids, all right? Actual kids!), and I’m a hardcore sappy daydreaming romantic. All I’m saying is that people, like me, don’t need to feel down about themselves, pity themselves, and feel bitter about other people who are in a relationship. That would really just be a bother, and with life this short and uncertain, there’s almost no space for stuff like that in your life.


Happiness & Fulfillment

(Note: I just finished watching and crying because of “Angel Beats!”. It’s a really wonderful anime about the afterlife. I’d say that it’s a mix of comedy, action, and a tad of drama. I seriously recommend it to anyone who watches anime and enjoys this post of mine, since this post was inspired by the anime.)

While we are living, we can only believe thoughts and ideas about the afterlife. There have been some incidents where people experience a state of death for a while then revive. Those events bring up more theories and such about what happens after we die. And then, of course, there are these different religions with different beliefs about the concept of death and afterlife. We can try as hard as we can to figure out what happens next, but then, no matter how far we get with those researches and experiments, we can only truly experience it when we’re dead.

Now, really thinking about it, what else could a dead person want but eternal peace? One can say that this world is cruel and does not take into favor what one desires for. We, human beings, are too preoccupied with what society expects of us: to perform well in academics, to get a degree in college, to find a good job, to have a family, and what not. Besides that, our time on Earth is as limited as it can be. We never know when, where, and how we’re going to die. For all I know, I could die in my sleep (which I personally think is one of the worse ways to go).

My point is that what we want to achieve in life in order to be completely fulfilled and happy might not be clear. It could be several things like hitting a home run, executing a pro-wrestler move, and getting married, or it could be just one thing, like thanking the person that gave you a heart. Whatever the case, we should strive towards it through everything we do.

One can be really busy with life and tasks at hand, but he must also remember that this, right here, is the only life we’ve got. Once, we’re dead, there’s no going back. And being unsure of what happens in the afterlife, one must not hope for only pleasures nor should one dread the thought eternal despair. Really, we can’t do anything about it but hold on to whatever beliefs we have and do our best in this one life we were blessed with.

A fulfilling life with no regrets whatsoever is what one might hope for. Relying on pure hope won’t get you there, though. You must act and do everything you can do make each second of your life count. And do the things truly important to you, not those that are important in someone else’s standards. This is your life, not theirs. People might mock you for doing such useless and unimportant things, but listen, if the things you pursue to do are really important to you, don’t give a damn about what they say.

Wow, this post is really all over the place, but I hope you understand the points I’m trying to send to all of you: Life is short and awfully uncertain. We must do everything in our power to achieve true happiness and fulfillment through everything we do. Do the things that matter to you and screw those who say otherwise.

I really hope I delivered the message. I really recommend you to watch “Angel Beats!” to learn more about life, friendship, happiness, love, and the like. If you were (somehow) moved or inspired by this post, you really must watch it.



The Truth?

*WARNING: What you are about to read is a somewhat general post about crushes and how I feel about my latest crush. If you are looking for inspiration and the like, THIS POST IS NOT FOR YOU. I’m sure I have several posts that can accommodate you on that.*

As of now, I have had several (to be more specific, I’d say approximately 20) crushes. I’m the type to admire someone easily and quickly and I quite hate that about myself. It’s fairly difficult to have a crush, especially if you take crushes seriously, like me. It’s really annoying and, for some reason, no matter how many times I make the mistake of having a crush, I commit it again and again.

Well, I guess having a crush isn’t that bad, but it’s still a somewhat distraction to more important things, like studies. It doesn’t necessarily have to be a distraction, but you cannot deny that your way of thinking when you have a crush and when you don’t have a crush is different, even by a measly neuron.

My crush, right now, is a really decent guy. I admit that he has flaws and what not, but doesn’t everyone? I have been liking him for quite some time now and he’s just constantly in my mind. Of course, I can prioritize what I am thinking enough depending on the situation, but when I don’t have to think about anything important, I’d say he’s one of the thoughts that pop instantly in my head, along with anime and such.

I have only conversed with him a few times in the past, so I’d like to be able to talk to him more often so I’d get to know him better. It is really quite challenging to go up and talk to your crush, isn’t it? There’s this lack of possible conversation starters, an awkwardness to some degree, possible inferiority complex, problems of over-thinking, and the like.

I guess I just have to gather enough courage to come up to him and talk to him frequently. Oh these teenage girl hormones and rants!! I just want to know him well enough, probably become his friend, then maybe later on, become closer to him (even as a friend, I really don’t mind).

Oh, and something I’ve discovered only recently is that one can grow to love the idea of loving someone, but then, when that times comes when you actually love someone or are in a commitment/relationship with someone, it’s totally different. If I take crushes seriously, then I’d say that I take commitments and relationships more seriously. I don’t want to have a relationship with someone I can’t imagine a future with. What then is the actual point of that? And, besides, it’s not like I’d be in that kind of relationship anytime soon (actually, anytime within the next 5-7 years), so I still have loads of time to think about these sort of stuff.

I’m going to give you some advice that I have come up with through the years. Note that these advice is made up by an amateur like me and I haven’t had any experience of serious romantic relationships EVER (and I’m not planning to have it anytime in the near future), but I have had experiences in confessing, being rejected, talking with my crush, etc, so I hope this somehow helps you.

1. It’s alright to take initiative, whether you’re a girl or a boy. How could you even notify him/her that you exist when you don’t make him/her notice you (even just a little bit). Conversations and subtle compliments will do.

2. Don’t get your hopes up too much. Though it’s nice that you’ve progressed through conversations and such, it’s better to not get too carried away by things. It’s highly possible that you’re just another acquaintance/friend to him/her and that he/she is polite enough to respond to you.

3. If you are seriously crushing on someone, don’t tell too many people about it. Most people want to humor themselves with your stories and rants. They might even gossip about it and share it with other people. BEWARE!

4. Don’t seem too awkward. Don’t over-think the smallest of situations, like if he/she doesn’t respond quickly or if you haven’t seen him/her for a while. Chances are, they’re just living their lives with their own personal priorities. Although, do be sensitive if you know you’ve said something unpleasant or inappropriate.

5. Be yourself. I’ve watched plenty of romance movies and read romance novels to know that pretending to be someone you’re not is NEVER okay. Why would you settle for someone who doesn’t like the real you? So, it may not be your crush, but I do believe that will be someone who accepts you, no matter what. You deserve to be with that person.

Well, that’s everything I could write, as of the moment. I bid you good luck with all your endeavors. Ja ne~

Part 2 of “Questions about Love”

Haha. Since many people still have questions about this, I’m going to make a “part 2”. If you have any further questions, don’t be shy to comment it below.

Question #1: What would you do if you tell or admit your feelings to someone then because of that he/she treats you different because of being true to him/her? -U’12my5n93l

A: I’m guessing the “different” isn’t the good type of different. If he/she would treat you that way after expressing what you truly feel for him/her then forget about him/her. He/she is not worth your sincere love. They might have reasons as well, perhaps like, it would be kinda awkward hanging with you knowing that you’re attracted to him/her or he/she isn’t ready yet. Either way, both of you should understand each other and try to communicate.


Question #2: Should you admit that you have a crush on a person? -A’er

A: It actually depends if you have the guts to say it to him/her. I, honestly, cannot do that and salute you if you do. You should be aware of the possible consequences or effects that would come after the “confession”. A “once cutation” of mine actually did that and well, I ship him and the girl. 


I’m quite tired of asking people for questions about love and such, so I’m going to stop here. If there are more questions, feel free to ask 🙂



Learning When and How To Move On (Questions about “Love”)

This post is dedicated to everyone who had their heart broken because of several reasons like..

1. Crush doesn’t like you back or Hopeless Cause;

2. Friendzoned;

3. Crush doesn’t know you;

4. Broke up with Boyfriend; and

5. The “I-just-wanted-to-read-another-one-of-your-posts” people.


Just to clarify, I’m not really heartbroken, emo, or something. It’s just that I hate seeing people, especially my friends, crying because of these sort of things. Being a teenagers is kinda hard and sorts but we’re still young and people say that we usually find who we are during these years so.. TEEHEE!

Question No. 1: What would you do if you feel that your crush also has a crush on you but neither of you would admit it to the other? How would you escape or end that muteness? – BUSH
A: Well.. that quite a tough situation since if you’d be the first to admit and he/she denies it, you may be known as a “feeler”. On the other hand. if you don’t say anything about it, he/she might say that you’re “insensitive”. In my opinion, you should have enough guts to do something about it. It’s either you wait and keep being observant of him/her or you gather all your courage and speak up. 
Question #2: What’s your say about BROMANCE, SISMANCE, and, ROMANCE? -X44
A: Bromance is quite natural, really. When dudes hug, it doesn’t suddenly mean their dating, it means their bros and that’s alright. Unless, some dude’s actually in love with his co-dude, in that case, I respect you, dude. I’ve got nothing against that. It’s a natural thing to love someone. It goes the same to Sismance. Romance is when two (or more?) people love and care for each other. It’s not really synonymous to “love” but it’s something like that, I guess.
Question #3: Why is there “love at first sight” when there’s “love is blind”? -iDevilous
A: First of all, those two are about two different things. The first one is about falling in love at the first glimpse of a person. I don’t really believe in that since I believe that you should get to know the person before you fall in love. And technically, you shouldn’t “fall” in love because everything that falls, breaks (-Taylor Swift). The second one refers to the thought that no matter what your size is, how your hair looks like, your age, your face, etc, the person that loves you wouldn’t care, he/she would still love you for you. Now, that I believe in since the person you love should love you, not the way you look since that changes through time. 
Question #4: How could “love” affect one’s personality? -cx1727
A: It actually depends. Love could produce either good, bad or good and bad things. Assuming that it’s a love wherein two people love each other, it would make both of the people be inspired and feel loved. They’d feel more confident and giddy. But, if sadly, it’s the unrequited love type or something like that, it would make the person who’s loving more desperate, obssessed, sad, hopeless, etc.
Question #5: What would you do if your crush has a crush on you? -Anonymous

A: Haha. I’d love to be in that situation. It also depends, whether you want it or not. Most people would say that they want it but some would think it’s quite awkward. My general advice for everyone is to follow your heart, but take your brain with you. 🙂


Alright, I guess this is where I end my first post about this. But, if someone would want to ask more about it, comment below or something. 

*Questions are from real people*





Sorry if my advice didn’t help that much. :\


Defying Gravity

I love that awesome song. It was introduced to me by a very dear friend of mine who went away. I miss her so much. I’ve had so many memories with her and my other friends. She’s super awesome so this blog post is dedicated to her. I love you, as a friend, dude. 

I’ve been replaying it for about 5 times now. I’m listening to it right now. Inspiration comes and goes so I thought about writing something about it right now. 

I’ve never tried defying gravity. I’ve been just another human that goes with the unsaid rules of this society. I’m tired of it. I hate the fact that I can’t talk at the bus because I’m scared of what people might say about me. I hate how I have to go with the flow and pretend to like people when I really don’t. It’s like being a puppet my whole high school life. I don’t want it that way. I want to not care what anybody says. I want to defy everyone’s expectations and impressions of me. 

I want to become someone who’s confident and smart. Someone who has her own foundation in life, rather than following what others say. I want to be the captain of my own life wherein no one could tell me what I should and should not do. 

Could I really do it or is this just another dream that would never come true? I don’t know how to defy gravity. I don’t know how to do this “change”. If I could just, keep my head up and do all of this, I would. But let’s be realistic here. 

Ah.. screw that. I’m going to jump and see if I could fly. You wouldn’t achieve anything if you won’t try. You’d be stuck in that box with boundaries set by this so-called society. And, so what if I fall. It’s just another lesson learned.