Twenty Eighteen

Happy new year to everyone!! I know it’s already the fourth day of the “new year”, so I’m kind of late with my greeting, but I didn’t want to post something rushed and crappy for my first post this 2018, so I decided to take my time to gather my thoughts and to feel inspired and motivated to face the year.

And after four days, here I am! I won’t be writing about the year that was simply because I’ve already written 47 posts about how my days went down and I’d very much like to close that chapter of  my life already, keeping the memories I cherish and lessons I’ve learned with me.

I’m turning TWENTY this year and, as much as I’d like to not turn TWENTY, it can’t be helped. I’m going to turn a year older and it just so happens that I’ve already spent 19 years in this world. I can’t really say I’ve done much during those years, but I’m currently studying in my dream university taking up a course I never really planned on taking but I now have come to like, so I’d say I spent generally most of those years in a not-so-bad way.

The year I turned 18 years old, I realized that the whole excitement of getting to throw a huge celebration and becoming legal is a trap. Yes, A TRAP. People suddenly expected me to become mature, to act like an adult, and all that. Let me just say that I’m a bit slower to become mature compared to other people, so all those years of being a teenager didn’t quite prepare me for these sudden expectations. It’s a bit scary, really, but I’m slowly getting my shit together and trying to do the right thing in situations. I would like to thank my parents, most especially, for loving and caring for me despite this “phase” I’m going through. Even I think I’m too old to be going through a phase, but I don’t really remember going through a legit rebellious phase during high school, so maybe this is it? I don’t know, but hopefully I’ll get through it as soon as possible.

I’ve decided that this year, Twenty Eighteen, is my year. Even before the clock struck 12, I’ve skimmed through a lot of posts and tweets about how this year is going to be the year of a lot of people and I think it’s great to start that year with that mindset – with a winning and positive attitude that we’re going to slay this year. I also admire the “new year, new me” attitude because I think a lot of people really want to change how they are as a person, their perspective on something, or even an aspect of their personality and what better time to start it than the beginning of another year, am I right? But let’s remember that every day is a new day and you don’t need a new year to decide that you’re going to change something about yourself and it’s okay to have fluctuations every now and then – the important thing is that you keep striving to become a better version of yourself. So if you’ve kind of given up on this year already, please don’t because it’s just the 4th day and I believe you can still do it.

That being said, I’d like to start and end the year with my head held up high and with that mindset. I admit that I’ve got a lot to work on with regard to myself and that I have ways to go in being the woman I want to become in the future, that smart, strong, independent woman I wrote about in one of my exams last year, but I’m a work-in-progress and every little step counts.

I’ve decided that my word of the year is Challenge. For this year, I’d like to challenge myself to get out of my comfort zone, to take risks and invest in things that would help me grow and become a better version of myself, to push myself to my limits, and to go above and beyond what I’m expected to do. It’s not an easy task and I’m going to take the whole year (or more) to accomplish it, but nothing great is ever achieved easily. And in the this year and my life revolve around God because when you entrust your life to Him, you are saved and He will reveal the wonderful future he has in store for you in His time.

So there you have it! This post might have been three days late, but I couldn’t have written this any sooner. I guess sometimes you just gotta take your time and take things slow.

Cheers to another amazing year ahead of us!! Let this year be another year of living life, laughing at simple things, and loving God, others, and of course, yourself!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

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Puzzles

Have you ever just let yourself laze around with feeling only a slight tinge of guilt? Well that’s basically what I’ve been doing since last Thursday, right after I pass my final requirement for last semester. I’ve gotten my grades for all but one class, but I know my grade in that class, anyway. So, I’ve passed 6 out of my 8 classes last semester (well, 4/6 if you don’t count PE and community service) and, honestly, that’s better than the worst case scenario I had in mind. I’m sad that I didn’t pass all of them, but I really had a hard time this semester, especially with those two classes, so I’ve accepted it already and I’m just gonna have to take them again.

So, I’ve done nothing “productive”, in particular this past weekend. I’ve been trying to install a game that I’ve wanted to play for such a long time. But for some reason, it wouldn’t work, so I’ve given up on it. I’m a bit pissed cos I really wanted to play it, but life goes on and I need to work on mine. YES, I’m writing this post cause’ I can’t play the game. NO, I won’t be trying to install the game again. YES, my several failed attempts to install the game served as a wake up call for me to get my shit together, even though it’s technically summer.

What am I planning to do this summer? I don’t really know, yet. I guess I’d want to try going on a diet, again, to lose weight. Exercise a bit. Try becoming more of an adult cause’ I’m almost not a teenager. Write as much as I can, both in this blog and in my Wattpad account. Learn new skills, both practical and not-so-practical. Paint more and try digital art. And spend time with my family and friends.

Why am I writing all that down here? It’s my blog. It’s been my blog for five years and counting. And I just need to get my act together, so I’m writing it all down. Here.

So, I guess that’s that. Hopefully, I’ll be able to write again this week. I’m probably going to post “My Favorite Things 003” soon, so stay tuned. Or not. HAHAHA.

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

(Note: The title of this post is “Puzzles” cos it’s better than my initial idea, “Sh*t Gathering”, and I just think that I need to put the myself back together again. NOT GOING THROUGH ANYTHING. JUST ONE HUGE MESS OF A HUMAN BEING. BUT EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT.)

Also, a sneak peek of my next post (aka what I’ve been doing with my summer, so far)

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