Flash Post 033: 50-Day Free Trial

Me: So today marks the end of my 50-day trial of the year 2018.

Life: There’s no free trial. You were given 365 days this year and you’ve managed to live through 50 days already. 

Me: What do you mean “There’s no free trial”????

Today is the 50th day of the year and I kind of want a redo of most of the 49 days I’ve already spent this year, but of course that’s not possible. Right now, I have two options: to see it as 49 days down the drain and my year is ruined OR to recognize that I still have 315 days and 13 hours to live this year to the fullest.

Of course I’m choosing the second option because I haven’t actually done anything that’s extreme enough to ruin this only 50-day old year (HEY IT ACTUALLY MAKES SENSE!!). It’s just that sometimes it gets really sad that I start to question my life choices. Not that I don’t question them on a regular basis, but it’s gotten a bit more frequent and I’m not really asking the same questions as before.

I guess I’m mostly sad about the fact that I’ve managed to destroy my “no sleeping in class” streak (of two weeks) with “OH MY GODS I SLEPT FOR MOST OF THE CLASS” streak (of three weeks), the anxiety I feel about that Engineering Economics exam I took about two weeks ago which hasn’t been returned yet, and some other problems I’d really rather not discuss or think about.

I have a debate tomorrow, an exam on Wednesday, an exam on Saturday, and an exam on Monday. I’ve gone through worse, but it’s kind of the fact that all of my exams will be the first I take for those classes and I’ve sort of slightly forgotten how to actually study for exams over the break, so yes  I need to get my shit together more than I usually do to get through these next two weeks.

I’m alright and everything’s going to be fine and I hope you’re doing great, as well. Let’s get through all our problems (that we are able to solve right now) together! ❤

Also, to the guy who might be reading this (I say “might” but there’s a greater chance he’d never get to read this in this lifetime), thank you for continuously considering me as a friend and for being the nicest and most considerate crush  I’ve ever had. It took me a while, but I think I finally fully understand what you said about effort. See you around!! 🙂

I better resume the little progress I’ve done in studying for my exams. If you’re looking for a sign to have a fresh start after 50 days into this year, this is it. Today is a new day, the sun is shining brightly, and it’s never too late to decide that this year is going to be your year.



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Random Shoutout 004: Disappear – Dear Evan Hansen (Cover) ft. Thomas Sanders | AJ Rafael


Good morning/afternoon/evening to everyone!!

Well, it’s morning in my small part of the world and this song just kind of made my day already. I posted an animatic of the same song a few months ago, but this cover is just really beautiful I just needed to post it again.

So much love for Dear Evan Hansen <3.

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Post-Valentine’s Day Greetings

February 13, 2015: How About Love~~

“But, before I do, I would just like to say that tomorrow, Valentine’s day, you should really appreciate the ones that love you. Be content that you have them in your life because they’re not going to be with you forever. Stop chasing someone else for a second and look at the people you already have. I’m thinking about sending personal messages to my friends (depending on my mood and time), but if I don’t get to do it, I would just like to acknowledge them in this post. Without them in my life, I don’t think I’d find the reason to wake up everyday. I love them with all my heart.”

February 14, 2017: Love & Happiness

“The point of this post? It’s Valentine’s Day and whether you’re in a relationship or not, it’s a day to love and be loved. You might be going through a rough time right now like I am, so I just wanted to remind you to remind yourself of how blessed you are, of why you’re doing what you’re doing, of the fact that you’re being alive is already beautiful as it is. We’re going to get through this and we’re going to live our lives happily with no regrets because we only get one chance at life.. And that chance is now.

My wish for you this Valentine’s is to feel loved and happy and to share all that love and all that happiness to others, especially those who need it.

Happy Valentine’s!! 💖”

February 15, 2018

First of all, I’d like to greet everyone (belated) Happy Valentine’s!! I might not know when and how it started exactly and even though it might just really be a ploy for businesses to earn more money on a non-holiday, it’s still a day to express your love to the people around you, whether they’re really important people in your life or people who deserve love but aren’t given enough in this world, to yourself, and of course, to God (especially since it was also Ash Wednesday, for Catholics like me, yesterday). Of course you shouldn’t express your love only during Valentine’s, but it’s a reminder to do so because people only live through so many days and we can’t really know for sure when our “end” day is.

I’m not very sure what I can offer you, my beautiful readers, in this year’s post so I’m quoting my previous posts. I hope you do pick up a thing or two from them and, possibly, from this one I’m writing right now.

I’m still very much as messy a person as I was before (if not messier) and I’d rather really not think about it because it’s gets really sad. Overall, I’m still a very happy person living the dream with a family who support me and keep me relatively grounded. It’s true that my circle of close friends is still a pretty small circle and I don’t get to see most of them that often, but they’re the most amazing set of friends I could possibly hope for in this lifetime. On top of that, I encounter loads of  truly wonderful people who make my day through the little things that they do. I am super blessed and I think I need to remind myself more frequently.

Yesterday was a great day – I was able to do all the things I wanted to do! I won’t go about it in detail, but it involved being kind of late for a class, a lot of walking around the campus for the right reasons, buying my favorite kind of sign pen which is only sold in one particular building in my university, and ending the day with the people I love the most.

My wish for you today is the same one I had for you last Valentine’s and it will also be the one I will continue to hope for you every day – I wish you would feel loved and happy because you are truly a beautiful person, even if you can’t see it right now. And I wish you could share the love and happiness to other people because they are also beautiful people who, like you, deserve all the love and happiness in the world!

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Flash Post 032: Best time to drink coffee?

I tried drinking coffee during my first class, but I still ended up falling asleep. Four hours later, I’m hyper af and I don’t know what to do with this much energy.

So  here I am writing about it. Typical.

I thought I have a lot going on this week, but after listing them all down, it’s all still pretty manageable as long as I don’t screw up by wasting the time I should be using productively to watch TBBT or some KDrama.

There comes a time in a woman’s life when she realizes that although she’s already in her third year of college and ALMOST turning 20 (yes, I’m still 19.. please don’t make me older than I already am), she still doesn’t know what to do after college and how to legit adult.

Why do most people seem like they know what they’re doing? Was there an “Adulting 101” handbook given when people turn 18? Cause’ I didn’t get my copy.

Well, all things considered, I think I still have a pretty good grasp as to what I want to do in the future. I just can’t completely plan out all the details yet. And I think what I’m currently doing is okay at this point in my life right now.

I should really just stick with the stuff I can do now, like study for my engineering economics exam on Thursday. Or fix my resume and CV so I can apply for internship opportunities. There’s a lot of stuff I can do right now that could benefit my future, whether it’s short-term or long-term.


The computer I was using to write this post died on me and I’m posting this about 2 days after actually writing it haha.



Random Shoutout 003: The Greatest Show and Never Enough (from The Greatest Showman)

The Greatest Show:


Never Enough:


Believe it or not, I haven’t seen The Greatest Showman movie yet, but I’ve fallen in love with three songs from its soundtrack already! I am loving the lyrics, the rhythm, and the feelings and goosebumps that I get whenever I listen to them.

I should really watch it soon and if you haven’t listened to the songs, I definitely recommend that you do.


I hope you’re having a grand day! If today isn’t that grand of a day, always remember that there’s always something good about every day! 😉



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Flash Post 031: White

Today, the sky is completely white (the proper term would be “cloudy af”, I think) and it’s so cold everywhere and I realized that I really dislike this kind of weather.

My classes for Wednesdays and Fridays end at 12 noon and 10 am, respectively, and I should really plan out what I do after class because now I’m very hyper, because of the coffee I drank earlier, and super unproductive.

I had planned to study, but it seems that I’ll be doing that a bit later. Everyone’s so busy with a lot of things and I know I should be busy, too, but here I am writing a blog post for my personal blog.

I’m only starting to learn more about my course from my majors, so it’s not that bad if I don’t know what to do for the rest of my life yet. I know I want to pursue a master’s degree after graduating and I want to make a positive impact on the world, but that’s pretty much it for now.

And I don’t know how I’m going to manage that because I don’t have anything legit to put on my resume, my time management and work ethics need A LOT of improvement, and I don’t have any other skills aside from writing which I’m not even that good at in the first place.

The weather is so depressing and I don’t know how the rest of my day will go but life is still very much beautiful and I’m glad to be alive.



Random Shoutout 002: This is Me (from The Greatest Showman)


I have fallen deeply in love with this song. I literally cried the first time I really listened to it and it still brings me to tears and makes me have goosebumps whenever I listen to it which is always, recently.

It’s similar to songs like Firework by Katy Perry and Brave by Sara Bareilles, but it’s different because it leans more to self-empowerment. I think that’s part of why it makes it so amazing – We can relate to it to a certain degree because there are times when we feel so insecure and ashamed of ourselves, but really, there’s nothing to be ashamed of because we are all beautiful human beings who deserve to be able to live life with no regrets.

I hope you’re all doing great! If you aren’t, it’s okay to feel sad and cry for a while.. even a while longer.. but you’ve got to get back out there and never give up because there are so many wonderful things still in store for you! ❤

Also, if you’re looking for similar songs, I’m thinking This is Me by Demi Lovato (Camp Rock) or Roar by Katy Perry. If you’ve got more songs in mind, drop a comment below! I’d really appreciate it! 🙂