Flash Post 020: Is this blog even mine?

Because I keep writing about someone else.. 😦



I don’t know what I’m gonna do ’bout me liking you,

See, I think about you ALL THE TIME –  it’s distracting.

Should I stop this – just be friends? Is that what I should do?

Or should I keep this up – see what the future will bring?



I’d love to continue this poem, but I’ve only allotted 15 minutes for writing this and my time’s almost up. I think about the guy too much already, so I can’t let thoughts of him take up more of my time.

I should probably just stop this cos’, rather than him being just a happy crush, it’s become a sort of infatuation wherein I over think too much and it’s getting really.. alarming.

I think I’m allowed to post this since it’s highly unlikely that he’d read this and, even if he does, I doubt that he’d care.

Since, in his perspective, this poem isn’t for him and he’s not the person that I like.

Am I making sense? Well, sometimes it’s alright not to.

Well, he’s that sort of person – ever so slightly oblivious – but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t care.

I guess, he just doesn’t know.

Or does he?

Probably not, but who knows?

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P.S.

Dad, if you’re reading this, please don’t talk to me about it. If you do, I will change my URL or stop this blog and move to some other blog website. I swear.

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Flash Post 019: MCM

I’ve made a lot of mistakes in life and I’m gonna make loads more mistakes, but supporting a fellow Filipino on his journey of pursuing his passion in figure skating is not one of them. Sure, it’s highly unlikely that I’d ever buy stuff and ship them internationally for someone I don’t personally know, but I have little to no regrets in doing so for him.

I have to make this shorter than all my other flash posts (cos’ of my statics exam later DX), but this post is dedicated to no other than Michael Christian Martinez. He became famous for being the FIRST skater in the Winter Olympics to come from Southeast Asia and the ONLY Filipino athlete to compete in said competition back in 2014. It’s been a lot of years since then and yet he’s still chasing after his dreams in figure skating –  constantly pushing himself to exceed his limits and achieve his goals.

Sadly, he wasn’t able to qualify for next year’s Winter Olympics. Only 6 slots were left after the Worlds 2017, which skaters fought for in the recent Nebelhorn Trophy 2017. He got 8th place out of 26 competitors which isn’t bad, but it didn’t earn him a slot in the Winter Olympics either.

A lot of people are hating on him for focusing more on his appearance than his actual skating and for spending too much time vlogging, and admittedly, I sometimes do think that he needs to focus more on skating than anything else. But we don’t see everything that goes on in his life. I’m sure he works hard both on and off the ice, but he also deserves to live his life like everyone else. Sure, he’s a skater and a really good one, at that, but he’s also a 20-year old human being trying to live his life the way he wants to do so.

Now, I’ve watched his performances and, personally, I think they’re two of the best he’s done in a while. Forgive me for not being that acquainted with specific figure skating terms and for my lack of skills to actually describe performances properly. All I can say that I saw him give his all in both of the programs and it warms my heart to see him that happy on ice – doing what he loves doing – especially after his short program. And his Biellmann spin was magnificent, as always.

So yes, he didn’t get in, but as they say “When one door closes, two doors open.” He didn’t get this one, but God has a lot in store for him, like he has for you and me, so I hope Michael would just keep trusting God and working hard towards his passion.

Michael, if ever you’re reading this (which I highly doubt because you’re too busy doing your thing haha), I’m proud of you and I’m sure a lot of people, especially Filipinos, are proud of you, too. Don’t let the hate get you down cos’ you’re better than that. Just keep chasing your dreams because you’re inspiring a lot of people, myself included. I’m glad to see you enjoy giving it your all out there and I’m sure there’s a lot more to come for you. Good luck in all your endeavors and we’re just gonna be here to support you all the way. May God bless you always~! ❤

 

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Also, if you haven’t seen his performances yet, here they are:

Short Program:

Free Skate:

 

(Well, I gotta go back to studying cos’ I have an exam later. There are times when it’s harder for me to study for a class because I failed the first exam TERRIBLY.. This is one of those times.. But I’ll live, I guess.. Till’ next time~)

Make it or break it

I’m down to my last month (more or less) of second year and I’m really gonna need to get my shit together to finish this semester without failing any classes. I really can’t mess up after two failed exams in both Math and Engineering Methods in Mathematics, a failed exam in Engineering Drawing (BUT HEY, ON AVERAGE, I’M STILL PASSING!), and two horrible horrible academic essays in College English. I’d admit that this was a really challenging semester, surprisingly even more challenging than the past two semesters. But with hard work, perseverance, determination, dedication, patience, … , and, most especially, God’s help, I know I can still save my grades this semester.

They say that the first step in overcoming a weakness is awareness and acceptance. With that said, let me just say that I cheated on my diet again this week and I feel horrible. How the first sentence is related to the second? They’re probably not (HAHA), but the point is that I’m aware and I accept that I’m overweight and that I need to lose a lot of pounds to attain the “normal” weight range for my age and height. To do so, I need to strictly follow a diet and to regularly exercise. It’s hard af cos of the stress due to schoolworks and also cos of the lack of time for exercise. I tried yesterday, I failed today, and I’ll try again tomorrow. I know and accept that I sleep in class more often than I’d admit and that causes me to lag behind lessons. So that fact, along with my poor time management, is the root cause of my dilemmas. I need to be more attentive in class and to fix my priorities to catch up with my classes. It’s really difficult to do for a person like me for a lot of reasons, such as being distracted easily and terrible sleeping habits. I failed yesterday, I succeeded today, and I’ll try again tomorrow.

I guess life’s just really like that, full of fluctuations and ups and downs. The important part is to never give up because once you’ve considered giving up or settling for less than the goals that you’ve been aiming for, then you’d be stuck with that mindset. I admit that I’m stubborn and I forget this a lot, but I just can’t give up on this semester. I can’t let my parents and myself down. I can’t afford to fail any classes, again.

So, I’m still overweight, sleepy, awkward, poor in time management, stubborn, forgetful, too easy on myself, and the like. But I’m also a work in progress and, despite all the negative stuff about me, I’d say there’s some good points, too. I believe in myself that I can overcome the challenges I’m facing with God’s help and I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me and that He has a plan for me. Without Him, I am nothing, and with Him, nothing is impossible.

I hope you’re having a great day and if you’re troubled with your own challenges, trust in God and do your best! Never give up! And don’t forget to share the love! ❤

 

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(Note: This is the most decent and inspiring post I’ve written in a very long time and I’m so happy cos of it. This month would be a challenging one, especially with me trying to save my grades and my sanity, but I’ll fight a good fight and do my best. 🙂

Also, if you have a different religion with different beliefs, please know that I respect those beliefs and I’m just stating what believe in. I’m not pushing anything on you, so please respect my religion and beliefs as well. Have a nice day~)

 

My Favorite Things 002

2nd Sem AY 16-17

It’s almost Holy Week and I don’t have classes next week! THE WHOLE FREAKING WEEK! After struggling to survive the previous weeks, next week really seems like paradise. Though I won’t be able to go to Ozine Fest this weekend, I can’t be down on the rut. So, I decided to finally make the second “My Favorite Things” board! It doesn’t have as many stuffs as the first one, probably because I haven’t finished any anime after Bungou Stray Dogs. But anyway, here it goes:

1. W: Two Worlds

I finished this KDrama just 2 weeks ago, so you could say I’m still a bit not over it. It’s the roller coaster kind of drama that keeps you on the edge every episode. Though I wasn’t that hooked by the first episode, the succeeding episodes got me hooked af. It’s a lot more than a romance drama because there’s a lot of action and a pinch of comedy, too.

If you haven’t watched it yet, I definitely recommend that you do. I won’t spoil you on anything, but I think what got me curious about it, besides the very swoon-worthy actor that plays the main character, is that the male character is a character (protagonist, actually) of the manhwa (Korean webtoon) that the female protagonist’s dad writes. THE PROTAGONISTS ARE FROM DIFFERENT WORLDS! So, yes, fantastic plot and great acting! Go watch it!!

2. Omeleto

I discovered Omeleto through Facebook. I was just browsing through my feed and saw a video of theirs that really hit me (the first video here). Then, I visited their Facebook page and watched several other videos. Some videos made me realize things while others made my tear up in public places. In any case, their videos are nothing short of amazing. I think most of them, if not all, are short and simple, so it doesn’t take much of your time. I can’t promise you’d recover quickly though, but still. Try watching the videos above and see for yourself.

3. Toasted Siopao & Lemonade

I decided to include this snack and drink because recently, they’ve been my on-the-go meal and comfort food. Toasted siopao is best when hot and lemonade on a really hot day is just p e r f e c t.

4. Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo

Over Christmas break, I was already seeing stuff about this KDrama in my Facebook feed, but I wasn’t able to start it then. Flash forward to my first day of second sem. I had a 3-hour break because the professor announced that there weren’t going to meet, so I went with my friends to their condominium. They were supposed to watch the fourth episode, but for my sake, we watched the first episode. It was cute and funny. It’s the light kind of drama that makes you have butterflies in your tummy (NOT LITERALLY!). It’s of the romantic comedy genre and the ending is VERY satisfying.

Also, the female and male protagonist are kind of a notch away from the usual kind. Here, the female lead is a weightlifter who eats a lot (F.S.R.N.!!) and very relatable! I admire her for that. On the other hand, the male lead is a swimmer and he’s very childish (sometimes to the point of being sorta annoying). So, yes, it’s really nice and light, so try watching it!

By the way, “do you like Messi?~” HAHAHA

5. Michael Christian Martinez and Yuzuru Hanyu

Michael Martinez SP:

Michael Martinez FS:

Yuzuru Hanyu SP:

Yuzuru Hanyu FP:

I’m still very much into skating, in such a way that I attended the Yuri on Ice convention almost three weeks ago, actually skated four weeks ago, and I’ve been watching skating videos from the recently held Worlds 2017. There’s no question that these two are my favorite skaters. The bias is probably because Michael is a Filipino skater and while watching Yuri on Ice, besides watching Michael’s performances, I also started watching Yuzuru’s. But I am starting to watch other skaters’ performances, like Shoma Uno’s and Evgenia Medvedeva’s.

I would like to give a round of applause to all of the skaters who competed at the World’s cause’ even though I haven’t watched all the videos, qualifying for Worlds and executing such beautiful performances on ice is SERIOUSLY challenging. Balancing on ice is hard enough for me, so HAHAHA. Whether they already qualify for the Winter Olympics 2018 or not, hats off to you wonderful people!

So, going back to my favorite skaters, at the moment, I’ve been watching their videos non-stop. Like, seriously, last week was basically “It’s Holy Week next week”,  “YUZURU  FVBUQQVJBJKJI”, and “MICHAEEEEL WHFUWFHVBCVHQBCFUEUF”. I kinda stalked them a bit and searched a bit more about them over the net, but none of that here haha.

Just adding a few stuff here HAHAHA

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So, there ya go haha. My week in a nutshell. Credits to the respective owners of the videos I got from Youtube. The picture of Michael and Yuzuru and Michael’s tweet is from Michael’s twitter. You should check it all out haha. AGAIN, I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE VIDEOS AND PICTURES I’VE INCLUDED HERE IN THIS POST. CREDITS TO THEIR RIGHTFUL OWNERS.

 

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Flash Post 013: Say “No” To This!

I’ve done a lot of stupid things in my life, but cramming an academic paper just hours before its deadline is, by far the stupidest thing I’ve done. Unlike my blog posts, writing an academic essay requires an intricate process to be followed. One must have a proposal approved by the professor, a clear and precise thesis statement, an outline of the essay which is used as a guide while writing the essay itself, and then finally, the actual essay-writing. I was given more than two weeks and what did I do?

I crammed it within 12 hours. And it is THE MOST horrible essay I have written my life.

Which is seriously depressing for an aspiring writer such as myself. I’ve always thought that writing is what I’m best at, that it’s my passion in life, in a way. But now..

I don’t know.

Or you know, time management.

(Note: HEY! IT’S MY FIRST MARCH POST AND OH GODS MY LIFE IS MESSED UP RN. I HOPE I CAN POST SOMETHING DECENT NEXT TIME. I HOPE YA’LL DOING ALRIGHT.

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Love & Happiness

No matter how difficult this semester seems or how lost I may feel, it’s Valentine’s day, so this day deserves a post!! And, though for the most part it is just a social construct and just another ploy for businesses to earn more money, I’d say it’s a reminder to share the love and happiness all around!

I’ve never been part of any kind of romantic relationship and I’m not sad nor am I ashamed of it. I’m straight and I’ve had crushes, but I’ve never really been “in love”. I’m a hopeless romantic and I love reading and writing stuff from the romance genre, but if there’s anything I’ve learned from reading and from the people around me, it’s that there’s a right time for everything. To emphasize what I’m trying to say, I recommend that you read Lang Leav’s poem, ” Patience”. I’ll try to link/attach it to this post later on haha.

I don’t need to be in a relationship to feel loved. Though I might not have that many friends, the friends I do have are enough. And I don’t think I could have a better family compared to the family I belong to. Yes, we fight A LOT (exhibit A: the fight we had just yesterday) and yes, I feel mad and annoyed at them at times, but they’ve never failed to support me and my dreams. I’m a very stubborn and forgetful and confused person, so I’m thankful that they still love me and that they remind me the things I need to be reminded of.  

I might not be as happy as I want to be, but I still kinda am. I’m a little lost as of now, but I’ll somehow get through it. At these times, I have to remind myself that I’m studying in my dream university and I’m here to create a bright future for me, my family, and my future family. I forget how blessed I am, and sometimes when we feel downtrodden with life, we have to stop for a while and remind ourselves that God has a plan and we just have to strive and do our best.

The point of this post? It’s Valentine’s Day and whether you’re in a relationship or not, it’s a day to love and be loved. You might be going through a rough time right now like I am, so I just wanted to remind you to remind yourself of how blessed you are, of why you’re doing what you’re doing, of the fact that you’re being alive is already beautiful as it is. We’re going to get through this and we’re going to live our lives happily with no regrets because we only get one chance at life.. And that chance is now.

My wish for you this Valentine’s is to feel loved and happy and to share all that love and all that happiness to others, especially those who need it.

Happy Valentine’s!! 💖

 

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