(I’m turning 20 years old next year… I kinda don’t want to.)
It’s 9 am and I’m here writing at my dormitory. Good thing I don’t have an 8:30 class anymore. I would’ve been late for that if I did.
I didn’t do so well on my exam yesterday. I studied more than I did the past exams, but I should’ve practiced more by answering more exercises.
“There comes a point in a person’s life” wherein they know they’re screwed, mid-exam.
But my mom says I shouldn’t give up yet, since there’s still finals and she didn’t raise a quitter. And, well, “Mother knows best”.
So, I have 2 exams tomorrow, an exam on Saturday, 2 exams next Monday, an exam next Tuesday, an exam next Friday, and finally, an exam next Saturday.
A grand total of 8 more exams left for this semester.
In less than 2 weeks…
I’ve survived a lot worse.. And hey! I’m exempted from taking the finals for one majors class.
There are a lot of things that could’ve gone better if only I had done something differently. I could’ve avoided a lot of arguments with my mom/parents if I had a different tone or if I had said something different. I could’ve done better at school if only I wasn’t sleepy, lazy, and stubborn. I could’ve had more friends if I wasn’t so damn awkward.
There’s a million things I could’ve done, but I didn’t.
And this post is getting sad, but that’s kinda how I feel right now. Because of the previous line though, I thought of something that could turn this sad frown upside down!
“There’s a million things I haven’t done, but just you wait.”
Which is a line from the spectacularly amazing musical Hamilton: An American Musical.
(I spelled the word “musical” correctly, but it’s underlined in red and it looks weird, when you really look at it.. Hmmm…)
MY POINT is that I’m only 19 years old and there’s still so much I could do.
Life isn’t over yet and, while I’m going to have to face a lot of challenges..
I really didn’t mean for it to become a post full of bible verses, but I’m glad it turned out this way.
If you aren’t a Christian, I still completely respect you and your beliefs. I ask you to do the same for me.
This post is kinda messy and I still don’t like the idea of wearing a skirt to school today.
LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE