A Writer in Love

I’ve been writing stories since I was elementary, but I’ve never finished a single one. At some point, I thought they were all just garbage, so I decided to delete all of it. Surely enough, I regretted that decision when I was in sixth grade, when one of my best friends also liked writing stories. I got back into writing stories because of her and our days of talking about the stories we had in mind. I haven’t seen her in a while and I miss her for a lot of reasons, but I guess things change and these memories are something I’ll cherish forever. I’ll still get to see her of course, so I look forward to those memories we’ll be making together in the future.

I wasn’t much of a poem or essay person, but during my first year in high school, we had to write a lot of them for our English class. I’d say that was the time I realized my fondness for writing. I already liked reading books and writing stories at the time, so I guess I just discovered that I found it easier to express my thoughts and feelings in writing rather than in speech. I was a quiet girl and, most of the time, I still am, so writing was my only medium of expressing myself, really.

Then I made this blog. It’s probably one of the best decisions in life I’ve made, so far. I’ve probably said this before, but my friend and I made our blogs because we were inspired to do so by an upperclassman. She’s really talented and successful and, honestly, she’s been one of my life pegs since high school. So she had a blog, well she has a blog, but she doesn’t write that often anymore, and my friend and I made our own blogs. My friend was really good at writing to the point where I sort of envied her, but it was all good since she was doing her thing and I was doing mine. She deleted it though, consequently leaving me alone in this blogging adventure we once shared. Well, it was more of a personal thing on her part and I don’t really feel deserted by her. Personally, I would’ve still wanted us to be as close as we were before, but it was my fault and that’s a completely different story.

Now, writing’s the only thing I can do, I think. Well, I’m not saying I’m a good writer, but it’s something I can do remotely well. I don’t write as often as I’d like to due to my circumstances and my frequent state of being uninspired, but I still love writing nonetheless.

Thinking about it, that’s actually something we need more of in this world: Love. I know I’ve written a lot about it, from my crushes to sharing love to complete strangers, and from loving yourself to God’s love. It’s a really broad and complex topic and I still think everyone has their own meaning of love.

But can I just say that it’s such an amazing thing to be a writer.. and in love..?

I’m not just talking about the romantic kind that Shakespeare wrote about in most of his works. I’m talking about love for God’s creations, such as life and nature. There are so many things to write about, but being in love with what you’re writing about is just.. wonderful, in the best sense of the word.

And what we write will live on for centuries, even after we die. Sure, it might not be as well-known as Shakespeare’s and Hemingway’s, but it’ll still be there and someday, it might even be read by future writers. That’d be nice, I think.

I think all writers leave pieces of themselves in everything they write, from those mandatory essays and reaction papers to their personal works. So, imagine living through these little pieces even after you’re gone – pretty much like how a horcrux works in the Harry Potter universe. Cool, right?

So, this me right now is writing this post and she might not be the girl I was in the past and I might not be her tomorrow, but she’s left pieces of herself in her writing and I will leave pieces of myself in mine.

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE



This post might be a bit messy, but this is probably the most well-written one I’ve posted in a while, so it’s okay. I started writing this because I felt frustrated that I’m not able to write a decent short story for my Wattpad account. I re-read my old ones and WHY DO THEY LOOK SO WELL-THOUGHT OF FOR ME???

So, yeah, I’m the girl with the pen who’s a writer in love.. with a lot of things- people, ideas, the world, life.. and I guess I’m in love with love, too. Or at least the idea of love.

Well isn’t this a fun post? HA. I have a quiz tomorrow and an exam on Saturday and what is life? And I’ve posted in two consecutive days! Wooh!

Also, I’d like to thank a lot of people, again. I might not be able to enumerate all the good things these people have done for me (even if they’re small and simple things) because there’s a lot of them, but thank you nonetheless for making these past few days brighter and for making me happier. So much love for you all~ ❤

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How To Get Your S**t Together 101

For a girl who’s planned her life when she was grade six, I think I’m doing an awful job at time management and planning my day-to-day activities. See, in theory, it’s fairly easy to plan things out, but in reality, it’s really difficult tot actually execute those plans. I’m taking up a course that aims for “efficiency and effectiveness” all the while being this inefficient and ineffective person that I am. HA.

I’ve realized this for quite some time now –  this happens every semester. No, actually, it gets worse every time. So, I decided to search previous posts by looking up “how to get your shit together”. And here’s what came up!

September 6,2014: “The Art of Getting By”

“How can you fight yourself into feeling okay and getting by life? I find it really hard to make everything seem fine when all that pessimism, sadness, and loneliness is just steps behind me. I’m starting to sleep during classes again and I feel that my grades are dropping. I hate myself. Ugh.

I have to be the person I want myself to be. Someone independent, responsible, intellectual, and strong. Someone people would look up to, someone trustworthy. By the looks of it, I have a lot of improvements to do. I really need to get a grip and do my best. It’s better to do everything now, while I can, rather than regret the things I failed to do.”


December 20, 2015: “Picking Yourself Up”

“Then after that period, I have the period which I would like to call “getting my shit together” period where I pick myself up and work again towards who I want to be- a strong and independent woman who knows what she wants to achieve and does everything to get it. I’m a long way to go from that dream, but I guess by taking one step at a time, it’s possible.

What do I do during that period? Well, first of all, I clean up. I can’t work in such a messy place. I list down everything I need to do and plan it all out. I make a realistic execution plan, a one with breaks in between studying and being productive. I try my best to make time for everything important to me, not only academics but also friends, family, and myself.”


November 20, 2016: “Dancing on a Rainy Day”

It’s not easy, at all, but I’m faking it till’ I make it- till’ I make myself believe that I understand the lessons and that I can do it. It’s actually working because instead of giving up completely at the sight of limits and natural logarithms, I treat it as a challenge and hype myself up by accepting it.

I’ve forgotten how my attitude towards things have a huge impact in my life- to my future. I’m really stubborn and forgetful, so it’s difficult for me to learn from my mistakes. It’s hard to change. I can’t explain it very well, but I guess we all have some aspects of ourselves that we want to improve, so I guess you get my point. But as the quote goes, “If you want something you’ve never had, you’ve got to do something you’ve never done”. Aside from faking it, taking the first step to becoming a better version of yourself is another thing you should do to be able to change for the better.

I admit that I wasn’t able to do my best this semester. I gave myself too many breaks because I thought I deserved it after a tiring day. During some trials, I thought I couldn’t do it so I let myself give up. And that’s not right. The past me, both elementary and high school would be disappointed with how I am now. And this is not how I want myself to be. I’ve always dreamed to become a very successful, smart, strong, and independent woman in the future. I really need to get my shit together.

So yes, I need to learn how to dance in the rain- to be positive amidst life’s challenges. I have to figure out how to prioritize things and manage my time more wisely. I need to venture through the different opportunities of how I can follow my passion in writing and how to grow as a writer, despite the several things I see as nuisances and hindrances to it. In rainy days like this, pessimism isn’t going to help, so might as well be this positive idiot than be down about it.


April 19, 2017: “Make it or break it”

“It’s really difficult to do for a person like me for a lot of reasons, such as being distracted easily and terrible sleeping habits. I failed yesterday, I succeeded today, and I’ll try again tomorrow.

I guess life’s just really like that, full of fluctuations and ups and downs. The important part is to never give up because once you’ve considered giving up or settling for less than the goals that you’ve been aiming for, then you’d be stuck with that mindset. I admit that I’m stubborn and I forget this a lot, but I just can’t give up on this semester. I can’t let my parents and myself down. I can’t afford to fail any classes, again.

So, I’m still overweight, sleepy, awkward, poor in time management, stubborn, forgetful, too easy on myself, and the like. But I’m also a work in progress and, despite all the negative stuff about me, I’d say there’s some good points, too. I believe in myself that I can overcome the challenges I’m facing with God’s help and I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me and that He has a plan for me. Without Him, I am nothing, and with Him, nothing is impossible.

I hope you’re having a great day and if you’re troubled with your own challenges, trust in God and do your best! Never give up! And don’t forget to share the love! ❤”


May 23, 2017: “A Tablespoon of one big mess~”

  1. ‘Time management is key’ AF
  2. Study. EVERYDAY FREAKING DAY.
  3. Take GENUINE interest in what you’re learning.
  4. Make time for you and your passions, too.
  5. Take a daily dose of positivity!
  6. Spend your money wisely. 

 

There you have it! FIVE posts from my past self that can hopefully teach me a thing or two about getting my shit together. Honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever had it as together as I’d like it to be, but I’d say it’s such a mess right now.. I don’t even know :(.

It’s been more than five years since I made this blog and I’d like to think that I’ve changed a lot since then (mostly positive change? haha). But really, I feel like I’m losing some of the good aspects of my previous self and I just feel sad. I’m not her anymore and she’s not me. So who am I?

And if I don’t know who I am, then what am I supposed to do now?

Fk.

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE. (STAY SANE).

(Not So Short) Flash Post 016: Never

I just noticed that, before this post, the last flash post (Flash Post 015: Summer Rant) was written a bit more than 2 months ago! Well, I wasn’t able to post anything last July so…

Anyways, I’ve learned an important thing about life recently due to a rather terrible event. I’ve learned that we shouldn’t take time for granted because the time that has already passed is time lost- you can never get it back. Our time here on Earth is very short and uncertain, so be careful how you choose to spend it. It’s an awful feeling to want to go back in time to change things when you can’t.

I’m really no good with time management and prioritizing. I’m easily distracted, forgetful, stubborn, and a bit lazy, to be honest, so basically I’m the worst at time management haha. But I’m working on it (sort of) and I hope what happened yesterday won’t happen again. I’ll make sure of it.

How do you know if you’re wasting time? Well, for starters, I can tell if I’m wasting time when I know I have something more important to do (usually school-related), but I choose to do something else. You might say that you’re doing something important, as well, BUT let me tell you that cramming lessons for an exam the night before (or even hours before) and cramming a paper MINUTES before the online submission IS NEVER NOT HORRIBLE!! Yes, I’m talking from experience cos’ I’ve done both and I still regret doing so till’ this day (and probably for as long as I live).

So, if you know you’re procrastinating (even if you’re procrastinating by doing something that’s productive, but it isn’t what you’re supposed to be doing), I suggest you stop and face your exam or project HEAD ON. I know it’s easier said than done, like most things, but it’ll be worth doing it. Trust me, you’ll save yourself from utter insanity if you do it earlier than the deadline. Been there, done that… TOO MANY TIMES!!

How to spend time wisely? Write everything down! I’m no good with planners, but I usually keep track of important dates (exams, birthdays, family stuff, etc.) by using the calendar on my phone. Occasionally, I write down a “to-do list” on paper or on a sticky note in my computer, which I should probably do more often. Listing it down makes you aware of everything that has to be done, so I think it’s very helpful, well at least in my case.

My second tip would be to prioritize, like legit prioritizing, and stick to it. I know school stuff isn’t fun to do and you’d rather just binge watch a television series or read a good book BUT you’ve got to put it somewhere on the top of your list to avoid previously warned “utter insanity”. It’s also important to spend time with family and friends, so allot time for that, too. Make sure you’re well-being is also intact- you’re eating healthy, you’ve got your “me” time, you’re okay in all aspects (physical, mental, spiritual, emotional, etc.), and you’re happy (WHICH IS VERY IMPORTANT). Also, joining an organization, trying new things, and rendering service to your community are very fulfilling activities, so when you’ve got the time, I suggest you engage in such activities, as well.

Lastly, for you to know that you’ve spent your time wisely, I think you should do the things you want to do, given that it doesn’t evade the first two tips. I just think not being able to do so is a waste of your little time here on Earth. Whether it’s choosing the college degree you really want (even if your parents want something else for you) or travelling outside your country and exploring the world. It’s not a waste  if you love what you’re doing (again, given that you’re not evading the first two tips). If you love writing, like me, make the time to write even during your busy schedules. It’s not easy, but I’ve seen people have social lives, pursue their passions, and keep their sanity (most of the time), ALL THE WHILE excelling in school-related stuff. If they can do it, so can we.

You trip and fall down a lot of times in life, but you can learn from these mistakes and become an improved version of yourself. I believe you can. So should you.

ALSO if you’re still thinking of procrastinating and cramming something, even after reading all that I’ve written in this post.. I crammed studying for TWO EXAMS hours before the exams and, trust me, you don’t want to go there. I still don’t know what I got, but I hope you never have to experience such helplessness.

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

P.S. I hope you’re not reading this while procrastinating, but if you are, I hope you’ve come to the realization that you should start getting shit done. Now.



Well, I took my statics and statistics exams yesterday and, though I did get to answer some items, I didn’t finish the exam and I don’t know anymore. What I do know is that I should never do that again. Nope. Never again.

I didn’t have classes today, so I ate out with friends and got a haircut. I was thinking of getting a haircut for quite some time now, actually, but this haircut is for the two exams I didn’t properly study for yesterday.

Actually, I think I’d have to cut off all of my hair to represent that one, but this’ll have to do. I’m not heartbroken nor am I going through anything.. I just didn’t study for those exams.

Till’ next time 🙂

Me (The Flash) trying to run faster than my acads (Zoom)

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(Spoiler Alert: The Flash beats Zoom by making a time remnant and if he can beat acads, so can we! ❤ )

 

Today is The Day~

The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.” —Mark Twain.

Life is a lot of things and it’s different for each and every one of us. Some live a life of fame and fortune while others live a simple yet wonderful life. But there are two things about our lives that we all have in common:

  1. Life is short and uncertain, and
  2. We all have a purpose in life, whether or not we know it already.

These two things make our lives valuable and, once we realize and accept these, it would be a mistake to take anything for granted. And, upon this realization, I hope that you understand how special you are. You were put in this Earth for a purpose – for something only you can do. You might not see it now, but you will someday. For now, be patient and trust God with your life for he knows what is in store for you. There is a time for everything and, surely, your time will come.

I know it’s not easy to wait for the day you realize why you were born. There are days when we’re faced with a challenge that seems too big for us to handle and when we’re so lost, lonely, and tired that we think we’ve already had enough of life. But I tell you, life is composed of both sunny and rainy days and that, as the quote goes: “Every day may not be good, but there’s something good in everyday”. You might be having trouble understanding who you are, what you want in life, and why these things are happening to you. But, though it sounds cliche and overused, there is a reason for everything. You might never find out, but God has a way of putting us back to the track wherein we experience life in the best way possible if you’d only put your trust in Him and live life with accordance to His word.

Also, life shouldn’t just be about waiting. I mean, there’s that, but it’s also about living life and enjoying what you have now! Don’t wait for the weekends, for summer and winter breaks, and for the challenges in your life to end because there isn’t one. What you have is only today and, cherish it wisely- today is enough.  Life is too short for regretting the things you don’t do, given that what you want to do is relatively safe (for your health and well-being). Make mistakes and learn from them! Be you and not care what anyone else thinks! Love the people you are blessed with in life, share this amazing love with others, and let go of those people who only bring you pain and sadness. You deserve more than that and you are worth more than you think.

I hope my message has reached you, but if not, here’s the gist:

You are an AMAZING human being and I know a lot of people love and care for you. You might not notice them, but they know how special you are and they do their best to make you realize that, too. I’m sure they’re doing their best, but understand that they are humans, too, and they can only do so much. I urge you to cherish these people because they won’t always be there and I don’t want you to end up regretting what you could’ve done differently.

If you think you’ve done too many mistakes, don’t let it ruin any more of your life. You’re only human and humans make mistakes. As long as you’re alive, you can change the way you live your life. Sure, you can’t change the past- what’s done is done. But you can learn from your mistakes and turn these into something that make you a better person. I believe in you and I hope you believe in yourself, too.

It’s never too late to chase after your dreams! Let your passions run wild and free! Don’t let anyone make you feel bad about yourself or make you feel that you can’t achieve anything in life, because that’s just bulls**t and screw them! This is your life and you only live it once! Live it in such a way that you’d have no regrets when it’s about to come to an end.

I wish you nothing but the great and best things in life, but if I were to choose two most important ones, I wish you a life full of happiness and love.



I just finished The Flash season three and I need the fourth season ASAP. It might not be that obvious as to why finishing the season made me write this post, but if you’ve watched it, you’d understand. So much love for that show and I can’t wait till’ the next one.

Also, I cried  A LOT during the finale, so if you’re planning to watch it or if you’re currently watching it, I hope you know that it isn’t just an action-packed show. You’re gonna need tissues and, if you’re not comfortable crying in front of other people, it would be best to watch it in private. Trust me on this one.

Lastly, this post includes a few sentences about God, so if we’re of a different religion, please apply it in the context of your own religion’s belief. I don’t mean to offend anyone and please believe that I have the utmost respect for you and your religion, so I hope you give the same respect to me and mine. Let’s all live happily in peace and share the love! ❤

P.S. Regarding my last post “To The Boy I Liked Once Upon a Time”… It wasn’t just a poem I found in some old notebook. It’s something I wrote just recently and I’m happily infatuated for someone at the moment. I hope I don’t mess it up, but in any case, he’s one of my silver linings during the week.

Ja ne~

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

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W02Y03

Two weeks into the semester of my third year in college and I’m alright. I still have my sanity intact and I haven’t fucked up, last time I checked. I don’t really intend to fuck up this semester, or any semester (past and future) for that matter. Sometimes, I just do. But I’ll try my hardest not to this semester onward… Well, rather I’ll try my best this semester onward haha.

I’ve just recently realized that binge watching The Flash during weekdays (AND weekends) isn’t such a good idea. It basically just replaced KDrama and anime as my “Ah lemme give myself some slack during dinner” bad habit. I love the series and I love the characters and I love the plot (well, I’m kinda if-y about it rn), but I have to study and practice more, especially since I’m taking the subject that I dropped last semester and re-taking a class that I failed last semester, too. I’m already in season three tho so I might binge watch it this long weekend HAHAHA… after studying ;).

Lately, I’ve been feeling more “out of place” at a certain place. Hmm well I’ve never really felt “in place” at that certain place, but I think I’ve forgotten how it felt like ’till now. I mean, there are times when I feel like I belong there and I love being part of something as great as that group, but during regular days, it’s just a bit depressing. A friend of mine asked me if I’d join the same group if I had a choice (time travel or something) and when I first thought about it, I couldn’t imagine not joining that group because of how long I’ve been part of it. It’s not an “no”, but it’s not a definite answer either. But now my answer would be a “yes”, but I would probably change most of the stuff I did wrong and didn’t do in the past. I’m not asking for an out, just a redo. But that isn’t possible now either. I guess all I can do now is to adapt (which is a REALLY hard thing to do) and to improve myself. How I feel about that place isn’t their fault AT ALL, it’s just me and I need to do something about it.

Also, for this post, I wanted to appreciate all the people in my life. First of all, I’d like to thank my family. Yes, we fight A LOT (we’ve been fighting more recently), but no matter how intense and hurtful and hurt we can get, I love them so much and I can’t imagine a life without them. (I tried not crying while writing that, but I failed.)

Secondly, I’d like to also thank my best friends, especially my best guy friend and my best friend who stays with me even though she knows that there is never a moment where I’m “calm, cool, collected” (there’s just messy and really f*cking messy), for keeping me relatively sane. Although I don’t get to see most of them often, I make the time to chat with them and invite them to hang out cos I’m clingy af.

Thirdly, a big “thank you” to the people I’m not that close with (See, I’d consider them all friends, but I don’t know if they feel the same way) but who make everyday more enjoyable. Thank you for letting me ride with you to places, for letting me drag you to spontaneous dinners, for helping me with school works, for having delightful conversations with me, and for making the walk to class less tiring and actually fun.

I’m very grateful to these people and extremely thankful for having been blessed with such amazing people in my life. So for the last (but certainly not the least) thank you, I’d like to thank God for these people and for guiding and protecting and blessing me every single day. I commit sins and make mistakes, but I am a child of God and I believe in His word. Things might seem difficult, right now, but God has a bright future planned for me and I’m going to trust Him.

So there you have it! My supposed flash post that became the basic summary of how my life rn is going. I know I swore a lot, then ended with a very religious paragraph. See, I haven’t sworn off swearing completely, but verbally, I’m swearing a bit less haha.

Before I end this post, let me just include some gifs cos I love how I can include gifs in my posts now XD.

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I hope you have a great day and amazing life cos you deserve it!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE



Note: I guess I’m addicted to gifs now HAHAHA. *Insert stuff I can’t include here.. here”. And, if you’re still reading, I made the title “W02Y03” cos it’s the second week of my third year and I’ve been binge watching flash XD.

Also, if you’re not Christian, I completely respect your religious views and I hope you do the same for mine. LET’S SHARE LOVE AND HAPPINESS TO EVERYONE!!!

 

Puzzles

Have you ever just let yourself laze around with feeling only a slight tinge of guilt? Well that’s basically what I’ve been doing since last Thursday, right after I pass my final requirement for last semester. I’ve gotten my grades for all but one class, but I know my grade in that class, anyway. So, I’ve passed 6 out of my 8 classes last semester (well, 4/6 if you don’t count PE and community service) and, honestly, that’s better than the worst case scenario I had in mind. I’m sad that I didn’t pass all of them, but I really had a hard time this semester, especially with those two classes, so I’ve accepted it already and I’m just gonna have to take them again.

So, I’ve done nothing “productive”, in particular this past weekend. I’ve been trying to install a game that I’ve wanted to play for such a long time. But for some reason, it wouldn’t work, so I’ve given up on it. I’m a bit pissed cos I really wanted to play it, but life goes on and I need to work on mine. YES, I’m writing this post cause’ I can’t play the game. NO, I won’t be trying to install the game again. YES, my several failed attempts to install the game served as a wake up call for me to get my shit together, even though it’s technically summer.

What am I planning to do this summer? I don’t really know, yet. I guess I’d want to try going on a diet, again, to lose weight. Exercise a bit. Try becoming more of an adult cause’ I’m almost not a teenager. Write as much as I can, both in this blog and in my Wattpad account. Learn new skills, both practical and not-so-practical. Paint more and try digital art. And spend time with my family and friends.

Why am I writing all that down here? It’s my blog. It’s been my blog for five years and counting. And I just need to get my act together, so I’m writing it all down. Here.

So, I guess that’s that. Hopefully, I’ll be able to write again this week. I’m probably going to post “My Favorite Things 003” soon, so stay tuned. Or not. HAHAHA.

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

(Note: The title of this post is “Puzzles” cos it’s better than my initial idea, “Sh*t Gathering”, and I just think that I need to put the myself back together again. NOT GOING THROUGH ANYTHING. JUST ONE HUGE MESS OF A HUMAN BEING. BUT EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT.)

Also, a sneak peek of my next post (aka what I’ve been doing with my summer, so far)

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