Flash Post 046: Sunny Days & Rainy Nights

It’s been really sunny lately. Well, sunny during daytime, but it’d rain really hard during the night. I’ve been doing better these past couple of weeks. September came by really fast and it’s the second week of October already.

I’m happy to announce that I passed most of the first exams I’ve taken so far. The psychology exam I took last last Friday hasn’t been returned and I have yet to take my midterm in my accounting class. Although the scores I got aren’t really that high, I’m very much content with them.

I took two second long exams last week and, through God’s graces and mercy, I really hope I pass both of them. I’ve only successfully crammed weeks worth of knowledge into one night and did exceptionally well in the exam a few times and, honestly, I don’t remember anything about that class anymore and it’s only been a year. Sadly, I don’t think I retained any of the information enough to last a month.

That being said, it is NEVER a good idea to cram that much knowledge into ONE NIGHT. I know it’s difficult and, often times, we’d rather binge watch or hang out with friends during our “chill weeks”, but it’s ALWAYS better to study gradually everyday. I haven’t actually done it yet, but I’d imagine it’d make our “hell weeks” less hectic.

I have a quiz tomorrow, a long exam the day after tomorrow, and a midterm exam next Sunday. I haven’t actually studied for any of them yet, but there’s still time and as long as I don’t procrastinate this week, including today, I’ll be fine.

I really really hope that I get my life together, at least enough to pass all my classes this semester. I’m a work-in-progress and, as long as I keep trying, doing my best, and trusting God, I know I can do it.

On that note, I’d like to share one of my favorite worship songs. Honestly, there were times during this semester when I felt helpless and really lost, but each day is a testament of God’s love for me. I’m very thankful for everything and everyone He has blessed me with.

(I don’t really know why I felt like writing and maybe this wasn’t really value-adding to you, as readers, but I just needed to write and remind myself not to cram everything in one night.

And I hope I can share God’s love and word with others with enthusiasm and passion. Also, let’s all hope I can write a post a bit more decent than this one haha.)

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

Resulta ng larawan para sa today is the day the lord has made let us rejoice and be glad in it

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Flash Post 045: Keep Holding On

It’s two minutes before three o’ clock in the morning and I’m (sort of) in tears. Recently, I’ve been re-watching a few episodes of The Glee Project (Season One) and I am absolutely in love with this song!

In the show, my favorite version has always been Cameron’s. I had a crush on him and Damian when I first watched it (I don’t know if it was simultaneous or not) and, while I still kinda do, I think I got to appreciate their friendship more and Cameron’s sticking to his principles and beliefs and walking away with his head held high when he felt that this wasn’t what he wanted in life anymore.

(Yes, I edited the video. No I don’t own it. Yes, I’m not over it. Yes, I’m in love with his voice, too.)

Honestly, I don’t know what point I want to make by writing this post. It has been a long but enjoyable day and I was feeling strong emotions up to this point.

Now I just kinda want to sleep.

Good night/morning, world~! See you again later!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE. SLEEP.

– To be continued.. Hopefully. –

Flash Post 044:

It’s only been 9 days since my last post, but I feel like I haven’t visited this blog in a long time. I’m fairly happy and content with life right now, which I haven’t been for quite some time, so it’s the perfect time to write a flash post!

I know I promised to write a “My Favorite Things” post a while back and I do have the board uploaded here and ready to post, but those were my favorite things during the summer term (which ended about two months ago!) and I haven’t actually found the right time to write it, given the “not so good” days and the busy days I’ve had recently.

I just finished my THIRD first long exam in Statics last Monday and, even though I KNOW I got one problem wrong (Say it with me: “Smooth surfaces still have normal forces acting on the object.”), I’m pretty happy that I finished the exam and I survived more than I thought I would. I was also able to understand the lesson and actually answer one of the problems during the quiz yesterday (scam second problem argh), so I REALLY hope this continues because I really NEED to pass this class already! A galaxy is on the line here (quite literally if you know me personally) and, honestly, I need to already move on to more advanced engineering subjects after this THIRD take.

I’m trying to do this “intermittent fasting” thing because they say it’s effective and healthy. I’m technically on my third day, but I haven’t been doing it faithfully, so this week probably isn’t counted yet. I REALLY need to lose a lot of weight because apparently being obese REALLY isn’t healthy and I can’t donate blood given my current state. I love food, but I also love myself more chz.

Considering I’m a student majoring in a course that stands for efficiency and effectiveness, I’ve been sort of trying it out today. How can I manage other people when I can’t even get myself together, right?? I got to sleep at one o’ clock in the morning, wake up at 7:10, take a bath within the duration of 18 minutes, and get to class 10 minutes early. CAN I PLEASE BE LIKE THIS EVERY DAY???

ALSO, here’s a video I’d like to share in this little blog of mine. I’ve bumped into it a couple of times, including the time when I was trying to get my life together, and I think it makes a lot of sense. So for people out there who, like me, are having difficulty managing time and prioritizing, here’s a video to hopefully help you out!

(I relate to the coffee part in an almost spiritual level.)

My actual phone’s still broken, so I’m using my parent’s phone and, sadly, it can’t accommodate my music needs. But, right now, the songs I listen to the most have to be:

  • High Hopes by Panic! At The Disco

  • Greater by Chris Tomlin

  • In Jesus’ Name by Darlene Zschech

All beautiful songs and I 100% recommend you listen to them!

I have to go, but will be posting soon for sure! ❤

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

 

 

 

 

 

Flash Post 043: Kinda Lost

As of writing, I’m four weeks into the first semester of my fourth year in college. Quite a lot of things have happened, most of which are bad ones, but I’m thankful to still be alive and kicking. Honestly, these past few days have been really bad days, but I guess that’s life.

I’m in the library right now and happy enough to be able to write another flash post after 23 days of not writing in this blog AT ALL. I can also write when I’m kind of sad or angry, but then that would be more of a rant post and I think we could all agree that there’s enough rant posts here as is.

I know I’ve mentioned this in at least two of my previous posts, but I really miss the girl I was before (aka my high school self) because, as flawed as she was, she got high enough grades, graduated with honors (not the highest ones, nor the second highest, but honors nonetheless), and got into her dream university.

While I am barely hanging by a thread.. in all aspects of my life… right now.. literally.

I don’t really know, to be honest. I’m getting by and meeting up with my good friend who shares Christian booklets with me helped somehow, but I still feel like a really unorganized person who’s just becoming more of a failure every day. Fighting with someone whom I love dearly and being self-conscious about my appearance are few of the things that make my self-loathing worse.

BUT of course this would just be another shitty rant post without this last (?) paragraph, right? Sure, I’m not the girl I was before, but I still believe in myself enough to know that whatever I’m going through are just challenges and I’ll overcome them, just like all the other challenges I previously faced. Maybe I’m having a hard time right now, but I can and I will get my shit together and improve on the aspects of life I need to work on. I might’ve thought of giving up more than I should’ve, but I’m no quitter and I’ll get through the bad days and cherish the good days.

I am a work-in-progress and things aren’t looking that good right now, but I know God would never leave me nor forsake me and that he has a wonderful future in store for me. I have to remind myself that that, in itself, is enough to keep me going.

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LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE.

P.S. I already made the next “My Favorite Things” board, but I’m still unable to write about it, so maybe next time :). Have a beautiful day every day! <3.

Flash Post 042: I’m on top of the world~

Can I just say how great God is and how blessed I am right now? Not only did I get the highest possible grade equivalent in BOTH of my Philosophy classes, but I also got the schedule I wanted for the coming semester. Sure, I still need 1-2 classes, but it is TRULY AMAZING how I still got the classes I wanted given that the odds were against me (probability-wise). PLUS, I got MORE than the score I needed for the removals exam, so GOODBYE STATISTICS!! I know that things won’t always go my way and God ALWAYS has a better plan for me, but I’m just super duper happy that God has graced me with the blessings I want and need for my life. Thank you so much, Lord! You are the best! To God be the glory!!

My fourth(-ish) year in college starts THIS Friday and I don’t think I’ve completely accepted that fact. I mean, I’m enjoying my break right now and I’m pretty okay with school starting, BUT AM I REALLY OKAY? These remaining days are the last of my summer break this year AND I’M TURNING FOURTH YEAR ALREADY!! I’m pretty excited for school, especially since I have the exact same schedule as my college best friend! But am I really ready for what’s to come??

Well, right now, I’m trying to cherish the remaining days of my break by binge watching The Flash ( Season four episodes only until I get up-to-date), probably some Riverdale after, and if I still have time, maybe an Asian drama or two. I also want to finish the book I’ve been reading, The Future of Us, before school starts. Hopefully, I get to meet up with my elementary best friend this week, then there’s the long-awaited hangout with one of my Philosophy classes. OF COURSE I also have to get the 1-2 more classes I need for the semester. So, yes, this week would probably be anything but boring, which is exciting, too, in it’s own ways.

I’m also planning to FINALLY write the My Favorite Things post I’ve been promising to write since June (?). I haven’t gotten into it yet, but I’ve collected a few of the stuff that have become my favorites since after MFT Post. I don’t know when I’ll get to post it, but hopefully it’ll be posted by this week.

Well, that’s that for now. I’m pretty sure I’ll be posting more stuff this week, so till’ next time~!!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE. MARS.

Flash Post 041: FrIEday

I have to take a removals exam this Friday for a class I didn’t quite pass (nor fail) last last semester (basically the second semester of my third year). It’s a pass or fail exam – If I pass/fail the exam, I pass/fail the class. When I had learned I had to take the removals exam, I kind of told myself that I’d progressively study for it, but here I am cramming for the exam a few days before, once again.

I find the need to write because I feel super stressed out about it (which could have been avoided, just saying) and I don’t think I can study properly with this kind of mindset. Honestly, the mindset I have right now is the mindset of someone who has already failed an exam she hasn’t even taken yet, who has lost a battle she hasn’t even fought. AND I CANNOT HAVE THAT KIND OF MINDSET, ESPECIALLY RIGHT NOW.

If you’ve been reading my posts (which I don’t really expect you to do), you’d know that I made a pretty huge mistake when I gave up on a certain class last last semester. It was only the second exam and I just gave up entirely. I still attended classes, of course, but I was asleep for most of it and I couldn’t find the motivation to study for it. Obviously, I ended up regretting that decision of mine because now I won’t be graduating on time. There’s no shame in that, really, because I believe that people should go at their own pace and that everyone has their own timeline, but it really could’ve been avoided.

Now, I’ve never passed a single exam in the class I need to take a removals exam for. NOT A SINGLE ONE. But giving up now would not only cause a domino effect in the future (which would only worsen the situation I’m in right now) but it would also mean that I gave up before even trying AGAIN. It would mean that I took the seemingly easier way out now (which would be giving up) to only suffer the probably horrible consequences later on.

I am seriously trying to grasp any sort of motivation right now to motivate me enough to study for my exam. I’m thinking that maybe this will finally be the exam that I will pass in that class. Maybe I can score even higher than the score I need to pass just to prove that I can do more than what’s expected of me. Maybe I’m more than what I give myself credit for. I don’t know.

It’s the end of the post and I’m still really struggling with my mindset. I need to pass this exam, but if I’m going to pass it, I need to believe that I can pass it.

Resulta ng larawan para sa for with god, nothing is impossible

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

Flash Post 039: Deductively Valid Arguments

It’s 2:40 in the morning and I am once again studying for an exam that I will be taking on the same day. Good morning!

I am surprisingly doing better than I expected in my Philosophy classes. I can still do better than this though. A lot better.

There’s a guy in my Logic class who got perfect scores in the diagnostic exam before our professor taught us anything (about the course) and in the mock exam that we took yesterday. What a dude!

I am writing this post because I need to stay awake until I finish at least till’ my sixth reading, so that I could finish the four remaining readings (all related to each other) in the later (the legit morning that I recognize because right now is just “late-r night”).

Some of my friends are graduating and I’m really really happy for them. Seeing them graduate and succeed makes me feel a messy mix of envy, shock, and admiration. At my current academic standing, it’s almost impossible for me to attain Latin honors when I graduate, but I kind of still want to despite the odds.

I have a midterm exam tomorrow in my logic class (which is the exam that I am currently studying for) and I have to write a midterm paper for my other Philosophy class due Sunday night. For the midterm of a summer term, this is pretty do-able compared to last year (probably because I took Calculus and Sociology last year).

I am still working on my next “My Favorite Things” post and I’m kind of happy that it’ll have a lot of content that I actually really enjoy nowadays when it’s done.

I sometimes wonder why and how I’m such an inefficient person despite being a student taking up a course that stands for efficiency and effectiveness.

I have one serious crush and a few happy crushes. I’m still very much happy with seriously crushing on that one guy though. But it’s also fun having  happy crushes, especially when you have a friend who has the same taste as you and there’s absolutely no awkwardness.

I really need to lose weight because I want to try ice skating again and I gained weight over the past few months. Argh. Also, I want to fit in those pretty dresses on sale that I see whenever I go to the mall.

Why can’t I just be like those people who eat A LOT but never gain any weight/never get fat?

It’s 3:00 and I have to get back to studying. Till’ next time~!!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE. CHEESE CUPCAKES.