Flash Post 037: The Beginning of The End (of My Third Year in College)

It’s almost finals week!! Well, it’s practically finals week already, but technically, it starts this Friday. I have an approximately 3 exams this week, a paper due tomorrow, and a presentation on Thursday. Basically, it’s almost no different from any other hell week I’ve experienced this semester EXCEPT I actually need to legit more than survive this one because IT’S FINALS AND I NEED TO PASS ALL BUT ONE (I’M SO SORRY! I STILL FEEL SUPER BAD ABOUT THIS BUT I NEED TO PRIORITIZE THE CLASSES THAT I ACTUALLY STILL HAVE A PRETTY GOOD CHANCE AT PASSING) OF MY CLASSES!!!

But first, let me just share the first paragraph of a post I’d written almost (10 days short) 2 years ago:

“Okay, so it’s my finals week this week and I’ve only been reviewing for the exams the night before th actual exams!! I’m so horrible!” -Me, Flash Post 001: My First College All-Nighter

If reviewing for exams the night before the actual exams is so horrible, then I’ve been doing an incredibly horrible job at studying this WHOLE semester, especially during the times when I’d cram weeks-worth of knowledge into one night. Like what I’m doing tonight. HA.

I was supposed to have an exam a while ago, but it was moved on Thursday so YAY FOR ME. Except I kind of put off studying for my exam tomorrow because of said supposed exam a while ago, so there’s that. But it’ll be alright. I just need to not mess up studying tonight.

I’m posting a blog post now because I might not be able to post until after finals week (unless I really feel the urge to do so). I really really really hope (and NEED) to pass all of my classes this semester and figure out how to enlist the major I’m about to fail this semester in my university’s other unit. Lord, please help me!!

And since it’s already the end of this flash post, might as well write that I kind of sort of miss him a bit already even though it’s only been around a month since I got the chance to properly hang out with him again (psssh..). I’ve already sort of kind of accepted that the next time we’d get to properly hang out would be during the next academic year (like how I accepted that I’m gonna fail that one major hahaha sahd), but it’d be nice to see him every now and then this week and the next.

I’m still not (and probably won’t be in the near future) over him. But I’m fine and we’re fine. It’s alright.

FINALS WEEK IS COMING AND MY THIRD YEAR IN COLLEGE IS ALMOST ENDING!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!

 

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

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Flash Post 036: 11 Hours

It’s 3:22 am and I’m currently studying for an exam I have today which will start at 12:30 pm. I’ve already finished two exams this week and this is my last exam for the week, so I’m pretty happy that I’m still relatively alive and sane right now.

Might as well write that I’ve (sort of) given up on this class since before the second long exam WHICH isn’t something ANYONE should do. At that point in time, I still had two long exams and a final exam that could really still boost my grades up. After that, I decided to invest my effort on the classes which I still might have a chance at getting a high grade by the end  of the semester. Long story short, I’ve decided that the class was a lost cause and my performance in that class continued to go downhill from there.

UNTIL last Thursday when my professor told me that I might still have a chance at at least passing the class. I’m not really sure why he’s that optimistic (yes, at least passing is a VERY optimistic thought for someone who’s given up), but I might as well give it a chance and, as my mom would always say, it’s not over till’ it’s over.

How am I cramming WEEKS worth of knowledge and understanding into approximately NINE hours before the exam, well I’m trying to really understand the processes since my professor told me it’s pretty mechanical. Youtube videos of the lessons are very helpful and HOPEFULLY I could give it my best effort, or at least the best effort I could manage at this point in time.

You might be wondering (or not) why I still have the time (and nerve) to write a blog post if I’m super busy studying for the exam, it’s because I need to keep myself awake for the next nine hours (well, 11 hours.. counting the exam.. because I shouldn’t fall asleep.. DURING THE EXAM!) and writing is helping me not only by keeping me awake, but it’s also very enjoyable to be able to express my raw (unprocessed..?) thoughts here again after so long.

And, after all that’s happened, I think I’m back to square five (aka 20% progress). I just don’t see the point of having to make an effort to move on when, after a few clarifications about things, there’s no real reason to do so. It’s true that I’m still (a bit) awkward, that we’re most likely going to be nothing but good friends (hopefully, great friends) in the near (and a bit far) future, and that I still like him, but THAT’S okay and whatever will be will be, I guess. THANKFULLY, it’s still not awkward, in general, and I hope it never does. If you’re reading this (not likely, but still possible), thank you.

It’s 3:52 am and it took me approximately 25 minutes to write this whole thing. Subtracting it from the time I have left to study for my exam, I still have A LOT OF TIME to study!

(Let’s try to be as optimistic as my professor! Yay!!)

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Random Shoutout 006: “First Burn” + “When He Sees Me” from Waitress

 

I think it’s been well over a year since I first began to love Hamilton: An American Musical and I still constantly listen to the soundtrack and yet another gem of a video was released a couple of days ago. I only got into it yesterday, but I’ve been listening to it non-stop ever since (yes, pun intended)!

I’ve always favored Angelica from the start and until now, but I’ve got to admit that I admire Eliza’s courage to walk away from someone she loves because he cheated on her with some woman (IN THEIR OWN HOUSE!) causing her heart to be torn into pieces. Eliza’s this kind and trusting person (according to Angelica) and she’s been nothing but a great and faithful wife to Alexander, so this song really presents a side of her that, I think, nobody should mess with. She might be helpless, but she ain’t putting up with your shit any longer, Alexander!

FIVE DIFFERENT ELIZA’S (Arianna Afsar, Julia Harriman, Lexi Lawson, Rachelle Ann Go, and Shoba Narayan)  AND THEY ARE SLAYING IT!!

Similar songs that come to mind are “Sorry Not Sorry” by Demi Lovato, “Part of Me” by Katy Perry, and “Problem” by Ariana Grande.

 

On the other hand….

 

This has been a favorite (and a super relate-able) song of mine for a while now, so I don’t really know why I’m only posting about this now. Or maybe I have and I just forgot about it..?

Well, in any case, I still love this song and I’m still very much like the character singing this song. But there’s no use in thinking about it right now, so might as well not.


I have an exam at 6 pm later and, though I’ve studied for it already, I still need to study more and I just really needed to sneak a post because I might not be able to post these next couple of weeks (final hell weeks for this semester!).

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My Favorite Things 007

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It’s been four months since I last posted a “My Favorite Things” post, a month since I posted anything, AND 11 days (and counting) late in posting the annual “HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BLOG!!” post, so WHAT IS HAPPENING?!?

Honestly, I’ve been living an almost “one day at a time” existence recently and it is NOT good because I don’t plan ahead, I don’t keep track of my allowance budget, and I can’t remember most of what I did in the recent past. It’s actually very scary to live like this not only because of the same reasons I’ve previously stated, but also because what if I don’t get another tomorrow?

BUT ENOUGH OF THAT! I’m generally alright and happy. I had an exam yesterday which I only started studying for the night before (actually, less than 12 hours before the exam, to be precise). I got to answer most of the items, but I wasn’t able to answer one problem solving item (worth 5 points, I think) and I used the shotgun method on SOME of the multiple choice items. Not my best exam, but not my worst either, so I’m hoping that I still pass. My next exam/s (one final exam and probably one long exam) isn’t/are’t until next Monday, so this week shouldn’t be much of a hell week and I should REALLY start studying for those exams as soon as possible.

Now, moving on to the reason why the title of this post is “My Favorite Things 007″…

1. The Sea Lion

Hmm.. where do I begin? I’ve been wanting to apply since my second year in college, but I was only able to convince my mom to allow me to do so this semester. She didn’t really see why I had to join another organization, but I really wanted to join this one and she eventually gave in with the condition that I don’t let my grades slip because of it.

Never has there been a time wherein I regretted going to their place because it’s always fun to hang out with them, to get to know more about them, and to just chill there. It’s  relatively smaller than my other organization, but that’s one of the things I like about it. My friend’s been telling me how great it is and how it’s like her family in the university since our first year and I’m just really glad to feel how that’s like, even if I’m just an applicant as of writing.

My favorite memory, so far, would be our Timezone adventures (including all the stuff that we do before and after timezone). And, with that, let’s go to..

2. Timezone

Before this semester, I haven’t gone to a Timezone branch around my university, and now, I’ve gone to two. I think the main reason why Timezone is even in here is because of “The Sea Lion”. So rather than “Timezone”, it’s actually “Going to Timezone with friends”.

Right now, my favorite attractions in Timezone would have to be karaoke, “Just Dance”, and the photo booth. I guess this only proves my point that what I like most about Timezone is getting to hang out with my friends AT Timezone. Actually, anywhere is okay as long as I’m with them, to be honest.

3. Bonchon’s Bibimbowl

Recently, I’ve temporarily stopped my no-rice diet (of about 6 or 7 years..?) because I no longer see the point of depriving myself of such delicious rice meals if I’m going to eat pasta and bread anyway, especially since pasta dishes are normally more expensive. Although, after about 2-3 months of that, I’ve gained weight (a lot of weight, I think), so I’m probably going to slowly, but surely, go back to not eating rice.

But during this brief yet wonderful experience of eating rice again, I’ve discovered my fondness for Bonchon’s Bibimbowl! Well, I’ve had the pleasure of eating a LOT of different rice meals recently, but I guess it’s one of the dishes that stood out. It’s got lots of flavors, a hint of spice (The original’s kind of spicy, but the spicy’s just really spicy), and I usually get a serving that’s worth my money.

If you’d like to try it, I’d recommend the Original Chicken Bibimbowl simply because it’s my favorite.

4. The Greatest Showman

Okay, this one’s long overdue! I’ve loved to the soundtrack since January, watched the movie last March, and only including it in my favorite things now.

I immediately fell in love with “This is Me” the first time I heard it. I think I saw the trailer in the cinemas and I thought that I had to search for that song afterwards because it’s such a great song. I forgot to. BUT THEN I saw it in my Facebook feed (yes, I cried while listening to it again and again and.. you get the picture). It’s been a favorite of mine ever since (along with a few others that have equally touched my heart).

The next song I got hooked to was “Never Enough”. At first, I didn’t really get the song, but then I listened to it repeatedly and finally understood the song because of the line “Because darling without you~”. It was only mentioned once in the song, so I must’ve overlooked it at first but then it made the song make sense. Initially, I just thought that the song was about a person who would never be satisfied (Eyy, Angelica Schuyler!!), but then  it’s not. It’s about a person who, without her loved one, would never be satisfied. Coincidentally, it’s very similar to my other favorite song “Loser of The Year”. How hopeless of a romantic am I?

I could go on and on about why I like all the other songs in the soundtrack, but then I have a class at 2:30 pm, so I can’t. Though, My top 5 favorite songs from the soundtrack would have the two I’ve already talked about above, A Million Dreams, The Greatest Show, and “Rewrite The Stars”.

If you haven’t listened to it, you SHOULD listen to it. Right now. Like..

NOW.

You’re welcome haha.

5. The Sims 2

The first time I played Sims was way back my childhood days because a neighbor of mine had it installed and we all went to his house to play. We made a playmates family of sorts and that was really fun.

Then, I convinced my parents to get it installed in our computer, too, and it was. I got addicted to at during 2nd grade, I think, so it had to be uninstalled.

Basically, I kind of have an on-off relationship with Sims 2 because we install it every other year, then eventually uninstall it afterwards. I thought of installing it again after my roommate installed it in her laptop about a month ago, so I don’t know until when we’d have it installed.

It’s actually a really nice game to play if you like building houses and controlling people (because it’s literally a simulation you control). But at some point, I guess, you just realize that your sim has a life and you don’t, so you just feel the need to stop. Well, just personal experience, I guess. This time, I think I’ve reached that point multiple times, but I just stop playing. I still don’t know when we’d uninstall it.

6. Kopiko 78

This is a TOP NECESSITY for all-nighters, which I’ve been pulling off rather frequently nowadays. It doesn’t always work, but it usually helps me get stuff done before I do eventually fall asleep.

You shouldn’t drink more than a bottle within 12 hours though (my personal rule) because it can also cause palpitation.

And you probably shouldn’t drink it (even a bottle) when you know you’re going to see your crush either, for the same reason.

7. B’lue

I’ve actually been drinking this frequently since last semester since it helps me overcome that “wanting to vomit” feeling I usually feel when I drink coffee, during the early hours of the morning, and during the commute I take going to school. I’m including it only now because I think I’ve been drinking it more than I drink water (which is bad) and it’s really refreshing, especially when you drink it cold.

The Lychee variant is a personal favorite of mine.

 

There you have it – 7 of my favorite things right now! I really should list down possible stuff to include in this segment  of my blog because it’s been FOUR whole months since I last posted the previous one and I only have 7!

I’m probably going to post a “Happy birthday, blog” post soon (and by that I mean hopefully in 2-3 weeks). I tried writing one last week, but I couldn’t really write a proper one at the time. My blog is SIX YEARS OLD now, so I think I’d have to do better than that.

IT’S ALREADY THE LAST DAYS OF THE SEMESTER AND I KNOW I’M GOING TO HAVE TO TAKE ANOTHER SEMESTER OF ONE OF MY MAJORS! I just learned that I failed my 3rd exam of Engineering Economics (I’m really sad tbh), but I’m not giving up on it or any of my other classes, really. I love my course I’m taking and the university I’m enrolled in. I’m going to survive this semester and I’m going to finish strong.

If I can do it, you can too! Don’t give up!

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Random Shoutout 005: “Found Tonight” by Lin-Manuel Miranda & Ben Platt

 

At 9:40 in the morning, this video made my day.

I have an exam later at 6 o’ clock in the evening, but hearing Lin and Ben sing this amazing  piece together is truly magical.

And apparently, this is for the March for Our Lives initiative, so let me just copy paste the caption here so you’d have the important links and to give credit to the amazing people behind this wonderful video.

From Atlantic Records (Youtube):

“A portion of the proceeds from this record will be going to the March For Our Lives Initiative.

Donate now at https://marchforourlives.com/.

Download/Stream: https://Atlantic.lnk.to/FoundTonightID

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Words and Music by Lin-Manuel Miranda, Benj Pasek and Justin Paul

Published by 5000 Broadway Music (ASCAP) administered by WB Music Corp. / Pick in a Pinch

Music (ASCAP) and breathelike music (ASCAP) All rights admin. by Kobalt Songs Music Publishing

Produced, Arranged, and Orchestrated by Alex Lacamoire

Associate Producer: Thomas Kail

Recorded and Mixed by Derik Lee at Atlantic Studios, NYC

Assistant Engineers: Ebonie Smith, Joseph Pomarico

Mastered by Randy Merrill at Sterling Sound, NYC

Piano: Alex Lacamoire

Violin: Justin Smith

Viola: Todd Low

Cello: Adele Stein

Video Credits:

DP: Steven Salgado

Edited by: Katia Spivakova

Second Cam: Angie Bambii

Produced by: Derec Dunn

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Good morning to all you beautiful human beings! Yes, even you – the people who don’t think they’re beautiful. You are beautiful in your own unique way and I hope you realize that. Have a great day~!

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Flash Post 035: In The Middle (Of The Semester)

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IT’S ALREADY THE 14TH DAY OF THE 3RD MONTH OF THIS YEAR 2018!! And although I’m still a very messy person (both inside and out), I’d still say that I am enjoying the year, so far. Sure, I might not be at the greatest point in my life , in terms of academics, but I’m constantly meeting and hanging out with new friends and I really had fun during last week’s activities (*insert my organization’s name here* WIN!!) so I guess my life isn’t so bad right now.

I’m also already in the middle of the current semester WHICH MEANS I have to start saving my grades in my classes because I don’t want to die again during finals week. I got my Engineering Economics exam (which was the first ever legit exam I took this semester) back yesterday and, to my surprise, I PASSED!! Don’t get me wrong – I didn’t not want to pass, but I wasn’t that confident I’d pass the exam, so I was EXTREMELY happy when I found out I did.

Tomorrow’s the second exam for that class though, so I need to get my shit together and study properly for it. I’m still in the running for exemptions and I DO NOT want to mess that up. To my classmate who occasionally reads this blog, seems to have everything in life super organized, and is sort of really great at said subject, I would very much appreciate it if you could help me. You’re the best!

And amidst all the stuff I need to do, thoughts of you are still somewhere lurking inside my mind. I don’t think of you as often as I used to which is great and I’m immersing myself in other things, too.

I wish I could write about how I feel about you as easy as I write about other things. I wish I could just pour all these feelings and make something creative, like a short story or poem, instead of getting stuck with them alone inside my head. I wish there’d be a systematic and logical way to solve this kind of problem as soon as possible.

But shooting stars don’t exist and I still sort of slightly miss you.

I’m trying to be as casual as I can in chat and in person, so please let me be in my own personal blog.

BESIDES, there are plenty of other things I’d wish for, given the chance (e.g. academic excellence, physical fitness, world peace) so no worries.

Life is as hard as it is beautiful.

I need to study for my exam tomorrow *insert crying emoji here*. Till’ next time! ❤

Update: I FINISHED THE EXAM BEFORE THE END OF OUR CLASS AND GOT  TO REVIEW MY ANSWERS! I DON’T GET TO DO THAT OFTEN IN COLLEGE SO YAY!! ❤

LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE

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P.S.

Rest in peace, Stephen Hawking..

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HAPPY PI DAY!!

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Flash Post 034: I’m Not That Girl

I extremely miss the girl that I was before,

She knew what she wanted in life – that I adore.

Always doing her best in everything she did,

Sure, she had flaws, too. Let that slide – she was a kid!

 

Now, I’m almost 20. What have I done so far?

Graduated high school, got in college, drove a car.

All the credit goes to the girl I once was,

What happens now when all of that, she was the cause?

 

Maybe I’ve forgotten how challenging it was,

What she did was quite a feat, a round of applause.

Yes, I may be kinda lost and rather different now,

But there’s a chance that I can be better somehow.

 

I’ve gone through so much and these challenges will pass.

I’m not her anymore. Not the top of my class.

But if there’s someone I must beat in life – that’s her.

I can and I will even though right now life is a blur.

 



I have two upcoming exams tomorrow and on Monday and I need to get my shit together now, probably more than ever. I’m currently taking FIVE majors this semester (and a general elective.. hello again Bio) and there’s a possibility that I might get delayed if I fail even one of these. I mean, I’m all for people taking they’re time and moving at they’re own pace, but my parents are sort of strict and I have this personal goal I need to achieve for myself.

It’s pretty weird to compare myself right now to who I was in the past, but it does make sense, right? She graduated with honors in high school and got into her dream university. On the other hand, I’ve failed a total of FOUR classes during my three-year stay in college, so far.

I’d like to continue this post, but I’ve lost my train of thought (above other things) and I need to continue studying. I’ll leave you with some things I wrote not so long ago which are related to my dilemma-at-hand.

“I’ve lost myself somehow. I don’t know how, or when, but the person typing this out is definitely not the owner of this blog. The Girl With The Pen was someone passionate about writing and everything else she did, who loved the idea of love, and who never once thought of giving up. Where she is now? I wonder.” – Taken from The Stranger With A Pen

“So, this me right now is writing this post and she might not be the girl I was in the past and I might not be her tomorrow, but she’s left pieces of herself in her writing and I will leave pieces of myself in mine.” – Taken from A Writer In Love

 

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