Ask me about anything and I feel my reply would be really long and profound. I take most things seriously and I think I might be really sensitive, sometimes a bit too sensitive. And now, I’m going to write about my views on fairytales and I have a lot of things to say.
First of all, watching and reading fairytales as a kid, I don’t think I appreciated it and understood it well enough. I mean, what would you expect from a mere innocent child? I guess I grew up to become an overthinker and a hopeless and sappy romantic. I sort of feel what they felt in times of distress and want what they wanted, which was a happy ever after, but unlike them, I don’t have a fairy godmother. I don’t get depressed because of it though, because I’m real and they aren’t.
Then I wondered if there’s somebody that’s not in the spotlight who also fancies the prince charming. What happens to them? Don’t they get a shot in a happy ever after with the one they love? Why does the lead always get the guy? Or, at the very least, why is the person in the background not even recognized? I guess everyone has their own story to tell, but most of them don’t reach other people because it isn’t good enough. I mean, who would want to hear about some girl who has a hopeless crush on somebody else’s prince charming, right?
Sometimes, I make up these scenarios in my head. They are bloody wonderful and, unfortunately, unrealistic, as well. They get my hopes up, then destroy them. It’s my fault for making such silly delusions. It’s stupid and impractical in this world. I guess that’s how it is when you really like somebody, right? You keep wanting such fiction-like moments to happen. Most of the time, it doesn’t and you end up feeling quite bad.
Ugh. What the hell am I saying? I know so much better than to think and write about these sort of things. I know better than to hope that I’d be that girl. I know that it’s far more better being like Queen Elsa, Mulan, And Tiana, then to be like Sleeping Beauty and Snow White. I feel that I need to be that kind of girl that doesn’t need a guy. I want to be the girl that a guy would need, someone smart, independent, strong, and awesome. Not someone like me.
….And this is what I get for reading and watching too many fairytales, shoujo manga, and romantic (comedy) books and films. I don’t really expect anything out of the ordinary to happen to me, like in those previously mentioned FICTIONAL literature and art. I just want that they guy I like to talk to me first, make some kind of effort, to be willing to talk when I need someone to talk to, to watch anime or movies with me, to sort of understand both my good side and bad side, and like me for me. Those things would most likely not happen partly because I keep falling for people who like other people.
Aargh.. well.. someday, I’m going to meet someone who will.
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