This is really embarrassing to write about but I would have to admit that I have a problem in order to solve it. I’m fat and overweight. Whenever I look at myself in an full size mirror, I can’t help but criticize myself for having such a huge and ugly body and the huge possibility that I might never have a husband or kids because I’m unattractive and crap. It’s such a sad thought, I know, but it’s realistic enough to be acceptable in this society.
I look at those slightly chubby or skinny girls and envy them for having such great bodies. Yeah, I know envy is one of the mortal sins but, has anyone in this freakin’ world never feel envy for even a moment? I don’t think so. And whenever I see those pictures in facebook of girls in bikinis or normal clothes saying how fat they are when they really aren’t. I’d like to murder them at times (kidding).
So, I’m positive that I still have a chance to change things. Well, I believe everyone has the power to change their lives, in general, by doing something other than their usual routine. I mean, how do you expect change when you won’t bother to change something? It all starts when you realize what’s wrong and decide to do something about it.
I’m probably going to the gym again this summer. Haven’t eaten rice and drunk soda for almost a year, so YAY ME! I really hope I would get thin this summer because prom is just a block away and I don’t want to be one of those girls that are too fat for their gorgeous outfit. I want to buy a dress rather than renting it cause’ it would be mine.
Oh, before I forget, I’ve been reading an awesome novel in wattpad ( http://www.wattpad.com/11542849-chubby-ako ) It’s really relatable, except that Janella (main character) is too lucky, you’ll see why when you read it.
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