Flash Post 040: How Do You Finish Writing A Paper Due ~10 Hours From Now?

  1. You ponder on your life decisions that eventually led you to cramming the paper hours before the deadline.
  2. You write a COMPLETELY different thing on your blog ranting about how you are unable to finish the required paper.
  3. Repeat steps 1 and 2 while you are browsing Facebook, Twitter, and possibly, Youtube until you have the will to carry on writing the paper.
  4. As you perform step 3, you realize time is running out and it’s either you pass a messily written paper or take the risk of passing late in the hopes of being able to write a decent paper within a few hours.
  5. You just kinda go back to step 1 until you finish your paper.
  6. Cry.

I SERIOUSLY DON’T KNOW HOW I’M GOING TO FINISH THIS PAPER PROPERLY. I CAN WRITE THE HOPELESS ROMANTIC AND EMOTIONAL PART, BUT HOW DO I INTEGRATE IT WELL WITH THE INTELLECTUAL PART WHEN THE INTELLECTUAL PART HAS TO CONTAIN THE EXPLANATION AND PROOFS OF MY CHOSEN CONCEPT FROM PHAEDRUS WHICH IS BASICALLY THE ENTIRE SECOND SPEECH!?!?!?!

And I’ve managed to drag her into my mess again. How much of a fcked up friend can I get?? :((

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Random Shoutout 008: “Hey Look Ma, I Made It” by Panic! At The Disco

I’ve been (sort of) a fan of Panic! At The Disco’s music and music videos. It’s just super low key though, like my siblings were into it, so I listened to some of their songs and I liked it enough to listen to their other songs. I haven’t really gone deeper into the music and into the artists themselves, but I really appreciate their music.

And today I got the chance to their “new” song (well, it was released last June 21, so it’s kinda new?). When I first listened to it, I was doing homework, so I was on a different tab of my browser. I thought it was a great song and all that, so I thought of replaying it. But before that, I browsed through the comments and people were commenting about how it was a happy and sad at the same time and how only Brendon could pull such a thing that puts together gratitude and bitterness towards fame, SO I became curious about what they were talking about.

When I watched it again, I didn’t change tabs and finished the music video until the end and OH MY GOSH IT IS AMAZING AND EVEN GREATER THAN I FIRST THOUGHT IT WAS! Sure, the messaged was conveyed through simple means, but THE MESSAGE in the video and the song just leaves you in awe for a while and in love with it.

Now, I’m probably going to “research” more about Brendon starting with this video haha

 

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Flash Post 039: Deductively Valid Arguments

It’s 2:40 in the morning and I am once again studying for an exam that I will be taking on the same day. Good morning!

I am surprisingly doing better than I expected in my Philosophy classes. I can still do better than this though. A lot better.

There’s a guy in my Logic class who got perfect scores in the diagnostic exam before our professor taught us anything (about the course) and in the mock exam that we took yesterday. What a dude!

I am writing this post because I need to stay awake until I finish at least till’ my sixth reading, so that I could finish the four remaining readings (all related to each other) in the later (the legit morning that I recognize because right now is just “late-r night”).

Some of my friends are graduating and I’m really really happy for them. Seeing them graduate and succeed makes me feel a messy mix of envy, shock, and admiration. At my current academic standing, it’s almost impossible for me to attain Latin honors when I graduate, but I kind of still want to despite the odds.

I have a midterm exam tomorrow in my logic class (which is the exam that I am currently studying for) and I have to write a midterm paper for my other Philosophy class due Sunday night. For the midterm of a summer term, this is pretty do-able compared to last year (probably because I took Calculus and Sociology last year).

I am still working on my next “My Favorite Things” post and I’m kind of happy that it’ll have a lot of content that I actually really enjoy nowadays when it’s done.

I sometimes wonder why and how I’m such an inefficient person despite being a student taking up a course that stands for efficiency and effectiveness.

I have one serious crush and a few happy crushes. I’m still very much happy with seriously crushing on that one guy though. But it’s also fun having  happy crushes, especially when you have a friend who has the same taste as you and there’s absolutely no awkwardness.

I really need to lose weight because I want to try ice skating again and I gained weight over the past few months. Argh. Also, I want to fit in those pretty dresses on sale that I see whenever I go to the mall.

Why can’t I just be like those people who eat A LOT but never gain any weight/never get fat?

It’s 3:00 and I have to get back to studying. Till’ next time~!!

 

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Random Shoutout 007: Jeremy Jordan

It’s raining, it’s pouring~~

And I’m just a little bit in love with Jeremy Jordan’s singing.

 

So much love for his singing, especially in the videos above. I haven’t had the chance to dig deeper into his singing videos, but so far, those are my favorites.

I don’t want to leave the campus yet because my dormitory doesn’t have WiFi, but…

 

IT’S ALREADY RAINING CATS AND DOGS AND NOW I’M STUCK!!

Frk. I probably should’ve gone home when I could.

 

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GO HOME BEFORE IT STARTS RAINING HARD PLUS LIGHTNING.

 

 

Flash Post 038: “Summer Break”

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I know you probably didn’t because why would you? In any case, I haven’t posted for exactly a month because of a lot of reasons, one of which is because I’m experiencing writer’s block right now. It is very annoying and, most of the time, I question whether or not I’m a writer at all. I mean, I love writing and I have this blog, but does that really make a person a writer or are there some other requirements? I don’t know, but I’m going to write anyway because whether or not I am one, I love writing and I want to keep writing.

My third year of college ended a few weeks ago. I managed to pass all but two of my classes (so that’s basically 4/6 classes passed) – I failed one (as expected, sadly) and I have to take a removals exam for the other. Now, I’ve become a Philosophy major for approximately a month. A friend of mine described this semester as the “Semester of Enlightenment” when I told him about it, but right now, I feel lost during class discussions because I’ve forgotten EVERYTHING I learned from my previous Philosophy class, so I need to review my books and notes to be able to catch up with my classes this semester. BUT I have friends in both of my classes, they’re taught by amazing professors, and I’m really enjoying them, so everything’s well. Last meeting, we discussed about Plato’s Lysis in one of my classes and watched The Giver in my other class. I’m supposed to write a reflection paper about the movie, but I haven’t gathered my thoughts about it yet. I’m probably going to write it later or tomorrow.

This post I’m currently writing is actually one of my “I need to get my shit together” posts because I’m a bit messier than usual since “summer” started. Yes, I’m only taking general elective courses this semester, but I’m still aiming high and I would really love to learn about and understand Philosophy more. Obviously, I can’t slack off. And I have to fulfill org duties and review for the removals I have to take in July. I’m also planning to join a story writing competition with a story I haven’t even actively thought about yet.

And can I just rant about how I’m already twenty for a bit!?!?! It’s only been a few days and I don’t feel as different as I thought I would, but I also thought I’d be a better version of myself by this time, but I’m not. I’m probably as messed up (if not more) than I’ve always been. Although I know that I’m probably not as messed up as I think I am, I also know that I have ways to go before being the person that I am. I’m a work in progress and as long as I keep trying, I know I can be that smart, strong, and independent woman I want to be in the future.

I’m not sure if I was able to write everything I wanted to write about in this post, but I’m glad I was able to write because I haven’t written in a while. Hopefully, I’ll be able to post another “My Favorite Things” post very soon because the last one was about 2 months ago and I think it’s about time for a decent post after a while.

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(I know I’ve posted this .gif before, but it’s kind of one of my favorite cute motivational .gif’s HAHAHA)

 

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Flash Post 037: The Beginning of The End (of My Third Year in College)

It’s almost finals week!! Well, it’s practically finals week already, but technically, it starts this Friday. I have an approximately 3 exams this week, a paper due tomorrow, and a presentation on Thursday. Basically, it’s almost no different from any other hell week I’ve experienced this semester EXCEPT I actually need to legit more than survive this one because IT’S FINALS AND I NEED TO PASS ALL BUT ONE (I’M SO SORRY! I STILL FEEL SUPER BAD ABOUT THIS BUT I NEED TO PRIORITIZE THE CLASSES THAT I ACTUALLY STILL HAVE A PRETTY GOOD CHANCE AT PASSING) OF MY CLASSES!!!

But first, let me just share the first paragraph of a post I’d written almost (10 days short) 2 years ago:

“Okay, so it’s my finals week this week and I’ve only been reviewing for the exams the night before th actual exams!! I’m so horrible!” -Me, Flash Post 001: My First College All-Nighter

If reviewing for exams the night before the actual exams is so horrible, then I’ve been doing an incredibly horrible job at studying this WHOLE semester, especially during the times when I’d cram weeks-worth of knowledge into one night. Like what I’m doing tonight. HA.

I was supposed to have an exam a while ago, but it was moved on Thursday so YAY FOR ME. Except I kind of put off studying for my exam tomorrow because of said supposed exam a while ago, so there’s that. But it’ll be alright. I just need to not mess up studying tonight.

I’m posting a blog post now because I might not be able to post until after finals week (unless I really feel the urge to do so). I really really really hope (and NEED) to pass all of my classes this semester and figure out how to enlist the major I’m about to fail this semester in my university’s other unit. Lord, please help me!!

And since it’s already the end of this flash post, might as well write that I kind of sort of miss him a bit already even though it’s only been around a month since I got the chance to properly hang out with him again (psssh..). I’ve already sort of kind of accepted that the next time we’d get to properly hang out would be during the next academic year (like how I accepted that I’m gonna fail that one major hahaha sahd), but it’d be nice to see him every now and then this week and the next.

I’m still not (and probably won’t be in the near future) over him. But I’m fine and we’re fine. It’s alright.

FINALS WEEK IS COMING AND MY THIRD YEAR IN COLLEGE IS ALMOST ENDING!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!

 

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Flash Post 036: 11 Hours

It’s 3:22 am and I’m currently studying for an exam I have today which will start at 12:30 pm. I’ve already finished two exams this week and this is my last exam for the week, so I’m pretty happy that I’m still relatively alive and sane right now.

Might as well write that I’ve (sort of) given up on this class since before the second long exam WHICH isn’t something ANYONE should do. At that point in time, I still had two long exams and a final exam that could really still boost my grades up. After that, I decided to invest my effort on the classes which I still might have a chance at getting a high grade by the end  of the semester. Long story short, I’ve decided that the class was a lost cause and my performance in that class continued to go downhill from there.

UNTIL last Thursday when my professor told me that I might still have a chance at at least passing the class. I’m not really sure why he’s that optimistic (yes, at least passing is a VERY optimistic thought for someone who’s given up), but I might as well give it a chance and, as my mom would always say, it’s not over till’ it’s over.

How am I cramming WEEKS worth of knowledge and understanding into approximately NINE hours before the exam, well I’m trying to really understand the processes since my professor told me it’s pretty mechanical. Youtube videos of the lessons are very helpful and HOPEFULLY I could give it my best effort, or at least the best effort I could manage at this point in time.

You might be wondering (or not) why I still have the time (and nerve) to write a blog post if I’m super busy studying for the exam, it’s because I need to keep myself awake for the next nine hours (well, 11 hours.. counting the exam.. because I shouldn’t fall asleep.. DURING THE EXAM!) and writing is helping me not only by keeping me awake, but it’s also very enjoyable to be able to express my raw (unprocessed..?) thoughts here again after so long.

And, after all that’s happened, I think I’m back to square five (aka 20% progress). I just don’t see the point of having to make an effort to move on when, after a few clarifications about things, there’s no real reason to do so. It’s true that I’m still (a bit) awkward, that we’re most likely going to be nothing but good friends (hopefully, great friends) in the near (and a bit far) future, and that I still like him, but THAT’S okay and whatever will be will be, I guess. THANKFULLY, it’s still not awkward, in general, and I hope it never does. If you’re reading this (not likely, but still possible), thank you.

It’s 3:52 am and it took me approximately 25 minutes to write this whole thing. Subtracting it from the time I have left to study for my exam, I still have A LOT OF TIME to study!

(Let’s try to be as optimistic as my professor! Yay!!)

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